it was a difficult season for real madrid, nevertheless, la liga title is on their hands now. unfortunately, real BOD dont think capello is the right man to handle real madrid for another season. he made mistakes in the past and it is too late to be undone. but doesnt a team need consistency and stability in order to achive success. there are reports that bernd schuster to replace him for the next season. do we think hes the right person to coach a persistent team such as real madrid?. we do not know for sure. he has indeed achieved great success with getafe however not as great as juande ramos, sevilla coach. we do think hes the right man to head real madrid for years to come coz he has had all experience needed as a manager. but the decision isnt in our hands, so nothin much we can do. although we, the fans, strongly disagreed with BODs decision not to renew becks contract, we still have to bade goodbye to the famous star. i really gonna miss seeing him in real madrid coz he is the most prolific football player ive ever seen.

another devastating news came from arsenal camp. thierry henry finally agrees to sign 4 yr contract with barcelona. the news broke our heart and we nearly throw our jersey down to the drain. soon we realized that players come and go and nobody can say something for certain coz anything can happen in football. our hopes and prays go to arsene wenger in achieving more success with arsenal in more years to come. hopefully he'll find his desired players before transfer window closed this august. good luck to them......

the upcoming weeks will be fantastic, hopefully. its been a while since i came home and i feel estatic just to smell the poluted air. everyone may think its funny how i express myself in a bizzare way but when it comes to the word of home i feel like a banished princess from an unknown kingdom being welcomed as a goddess. only certain ppl would know how it feels to be somewhere foreign. as weak as i am, i learned so many things without being taught. sometimes lesson are tutored without a presence of lecturers. how it goes? not many can answer. these lessons give me the strength to walk pass by my own weaknesses. im always wondering how many times do i have to fall into the same hole to only realize that something doesnt exist stay as an impossible term. my emotions ruining my clear path to avoid any lunatic effort to conquer someones heart and soul and its killing me deeply. i am unconsciously falling even deeper. God gives me his mercy and sending a brigade of comrade to pull out of a black hole. as hard as they try to reach, without my hands they will not be able to see me in the sunlight. confused, i may or may not grasp their helping hands to clear out of trouble. i may decide to stay inside the gloomy hole and be drowned forever for the sake of my emotions. however, the sound of sanity knocking on my door and send me to the real cruel world. i slowly but hesitantly hold on to their strong and solid grasp hoist me onto ready-to-gallop unicorn. soon i'll be home. a lesson hard indeed but effectively pushing away bad thoughts. theres always someting for ppl to hold on to and by not giving hope we may all survive and find the right piece of puzzle to complete invisible parts.

"Lil Star"by KELIS

There is nothing special about me

I am just a lil star

If it seems like I'm shining brightly

It's probably a reflection of something you already are

I forget about myself sometime

When there's so many other around

When deep inside you feels darkest

That is where I can always be found

That is where I can always be found

That is where I can always be found

Just keep trying and trying

It's just a matter of timing

Though the grinding is tiring

Don't let 'em stop you from smiling

Just keep trying and trying

Sooner or later you'll find it

It's surprising how inspiring

It is to see you shining

Cause in the dark of the night you're all i can see

and you sure look like a star to me

There is nothing special about me

I am just a lil star

If you try to reach out an touch me

you'll see I'm not really that far

I may not be the brightest nor am

I the last one you’ll see

But as long as you notice, that’s just fine with me

Everything’s just fine with me

Everything’s just fine with me

Just keep trying and trying

It's just a matter of timing

Though the grinding is tiring

Don't let 'em stop you from smiling

Just keep trying and trying

Sooner or later you'll find it

It's surprising how inspiring

It is to see you shining

Cause in the dark of the night you're all i can see

and you sure look like a star to me

There is nothing special about me

I am just a lil star

I’ve been running and jumping, but barely

Getting, getting over the bar

I plan on being much more than I, am but that's in do time

But until then I'm guilty, and being humans my crime

Being human that is my crime

Being human that is my crime

Just keep trying and trying

It's just a matter of timing

Though the grinding is tiring

Don't let 'em stop you from smiling

Just keep trying and trying

Sooner of later you'll find it

It's surprising how inspiring

It is to see you shining

Cause in the dark of the night you're all i can see

and you sure look like a star to me

[ www.azlyrics.com ]

bully..

i have so many things going on, my love for new games *such as BULLY!!* and WINNING ELEVEN+PES. i've been doing extremely well, especially when my old bud suddenly contacted me and we chatted till we didn't realize time had flown away. God it feels great just to make peace with my past *though only some parts are forgiven*. i think letting some parts in my miserable past * so-called friends* go are not easy believe me it's easier said than done. mebbe it was a bit hard because i still have questions on why they did something barbaric like in the past..and of course i still remember how they managed to put shame on my face everyday oh well we were young back then mebbe that's the truth of my youth. i guess after all that said and done, i'm ready to end the sickening disputes and put it behind. well i hope theyre also sincere to make peace with me and not talking shits about me anymore. but at least i learned precious things while i was being treated badly. God is full of grace, and i'm one of His followers who feels damn grateful just to be very much alive and blisfully happy. God has given me more than just much so i guess he's also the One who opened my heart to realize so many things that i thought had dissapeared long time a go.

don't hold any grudge..it's awful although a lot of ppl used to hate me but i didn't/don't hold any grudge towards them because i wasn't raised that way. my mom told me that no matter how hurt your feeling is always have patience and have faith in God coz he'll give u the best way to heal ur feelings.

gossips are nasty, take it from me it's all about karma. if u don't want to be mistreated by other people then treat others nicely. because the good deeds never goes unpunished. good effort will come back to u not as punishments but more as rewards.

*lilmisssunshine*

its been a while seeing becks football actions in la liga. hes been plagued by knee injury that might keep him out of actions for another week or so. i really hope he can be fit to play this weekend match against celta vigo, but it may be too soon for him to comeback this week as he only manages to work his sweat out in the gym and have yet touches the field from weeks ago. anyway, lets get our topic underway. in most recently, england failed to get the results they wanted and could only hope the following match will get better. they lie 3rd in the placing and could face the axe following major failures in their campaign for euro 08. whatever reasons ste-c implying, england fans all over the world are fed up with promises. only a win can brighten up ste-c's days ahead. already facing mounting demands of becks return in the squad, and failing to win qualifying matches could be a sign of his era to end. it was unfortunate becks couldnt get his fitness right back on track before qualifying matches started. he might have gained his fitness right on time but he couldnt have gotten his way easily to the squad coz of ste-c policy to wipe off sven ericksson era away from his radar and becks was considered one of svens trusted allies. now, the story changes. becks is allowed to be taken back as 'english player' whilst ste-c still insists he decides who will play and who wont be picked to safe his sorry sad face in front of media. if england should failed to win against andorra they need to fight 100 times harder and collect all 3 points of remaining matches to get #2. it looks like ste-c's job is on the line.....

READ THROUGH MY MIND



ive been reading james pattersons serials and wondering if i ever could turn my head off his masterpiece in the future. hes been brilliant all the way and no doubt he has scored #1 bestseller in many newspapers around US to this date. my first pattersons book was violets are blue and it completely blown me off. since birth i have been given a gift to read most of things. my mom says i read every billboards ever exist along the street since been thought how to read. amazing as it is, i do not hang around in bookstores for nothing. my mom always whining about books i buy. it is not that she discourages my passion in reading, most proabably she wishes me to spend my dime on somethin useful for young woman. i admit, i dont splash my cash on fashion items such apparels and accessories but i do love them, who doesnt?. but i do find myself drown and surrounded by books and novels as soon as i enter a bookstore. do i blame myself for it? i dont think i can. i can spend hours scanning, browsing and finally finding the right books to my taste. i am not afraid to 'touch' somethin new. pendragon is for example. i didnt notice it would be that good. although it could be a little childish since its aimed for young readers, but im not upset. i can be very patient and tolerable in terms of reading. however, theres one things i cannot overcome up till now, my anxiety reading romance novels. i read one book a very long time ago and i was pretty upset with the way things went. there are things that just dont fit into my mind. among others, i enjoy reading gone with the wind. cliche, some may say but it is a good love story although it was written decades ago i still find it creative. i dont condemn all romance novels are absurd and pointless, i must admit there are stories out there deserve the best. probably i need to look hard and be less prejudice and bias. i'll try to do that by the help of my friends who have alwasy been trying to push me into a romance section. all your efforts have been turned down pals, but who knows what comes next?................


resyhafabriStaz

failure's not flattering

yesterday once again i was disspointed by the result from arsenal's game hixhix luckily real madrid won against gymnastic..here iam feeling bummed and listening to my ipod, gosh it's do hard to see my fav team losing their grip!pheeww..to bad they didn't win i was hoping they'd win WHATEVER!!

so i have this other friend that just broke up *again!!it's a CURSE!!* haha just like my other friend i mentioned before. but she also didn't tell me the exact incident that had taken place before so i can't really comment on them. i just wish she had told me so i wouldn't feel left out, what can i say i feel like i'm one of her disposable assets hixhixhix. she didn't tell me either when she hooked up with this guy. and i was there supporting her. mebbe when ppl being careless to her then she'll go back crying to me.WHATEVER!!

well at least the new songs on my ipod amuse me..loveiloveitloveit..and of course i'm finishing my *2nd chance* written by james patterson. to be exact i'm going to finish it by tonite. hopefully there will be a great movie or tv show so i'm not going to bored and all time low..WHATEVER!!

signing off,

GOONERS4LIFE*HOPEFULLY*

broken hearted..*duuh*

a friend of mine just broke up with her bf..guess dats kinda sux aite? especially my friend is a very2 vulnerable kind of person. it's hard when she has to go all this shits by herself coz she lives in a far-far away land. i bet it was the toughest decision she had to make. i know she must be very2 devastated with this separation, she must be feeling low down there. and coincidentally, she studies in the same college with her x-bf, she met him from her friend and suddenly they were a couple. i'm sorry to say but i was angry with her coz she made the decision kinda hasty after she broke up with her X. i was dissapointed coz i knew her decision was wrong. *it's not that i was afraid of her getting rid of me but it was because i cared about her*. but i realized that it was her call not mine so why did i have to react foolishly? i didn't want her to be hurt again coz i've seen her devastated before. i love the feeling of falling in love to someone, even when i keep it to myself i feel happy. but to keep falling in love with the same guy is the hardest thing on being in a relationship.

awwhh enough of my stupid words about relationship..gosh it's been a long time since i wrote stuff here. i've been devastated by my fav soccer team ARSENAL N REAL MADRID and then i was busy, i was ill, i was on a trip, i was tired, and here iam writing off what's on my mind. and one more thing, i've been busy searching you tube just to find NFG songs live hihihi my X gave me their cds just to show me how the songs related to what had happened between us few years a go but i didn't care. i kept the cds somewhere and suddenly i remember so i put the cd to my comp and copied it to my itunes library VOILA now i'm a fan although my sist hates them soooo much!! i'd love to see them live i guess it'd be so much fun. but i only love their last 3 albums coz i don't have their other albums..*stick and stones, catalyst, AND coming home*. huhu feel so sad why didn't i like them earlier hixhixhix

i just bought two of my fav mags, Jane Magazine and Teen Vogue and i realized that i've read most of magazines and i think it's really2 important for teenagers to choose what they read. since i was a kid i've been reading a lot of kids magazines, and then teens magz, and now i'm not yet reading women's magz but i love to read magz that's not only about fashion and latest trends and also about knowledge in life. i love to read other people's experiences so i can learn from them. experience is something we can't buy it's something we learn in this life. CHOOSE WHAT YOU READ coz it'll guide you to find what you want out of this life and to be who you are. i want kids to understand that it's not only about being cool and accepted in society but it's also about who you're not about what people want you to be. just remember that not those popular girls in school that get the attention in showbiz but they're normal people who has talent and dignity.

signing off,

*gooners4life*

hes always been a professional in whatever things hes doin and im sure thousands of fans in old trafford agree with me. he never said a thing against Man Utd and always praise his former team whenever he has a chance. he left MU bcoz of his manager misbehaviour 4 yrs ago and 2 days ago was the right time to patch things up. he will leave european football for good and the match was a perfect time for becks to say goodbye in old trafford. unfortunately, his knee injury prevented him to do so. nevertheless, red devils had the chance to listen what he had to say in his final appearance at old trafford.




Old Trafford witnessed a very public love-in on Tuesday as David Beckham and Sir Alex Ferguson seemingly buried the hatchet amid a multitude of compliments.

Ex-United star Beckham was in Manchester to watch his former club take on a Europe XI in a charity match and used the opportunity to lavish praise on the Scot.
"Everybody here knows you've got the best manager in the world at this club," Beckham said on the pitch at half time. "I just want to say that the time I spent at this club was the best time of my football career.
"I've waited four years to actually come back and say thank you to the fans and the people at this club."
Beckham, who started his career at United and was part of the treble-winning side in 1999 before moving on to Real Madrid, was well received by the 74,000 fans packed into Old Trafford who enjoyed a 4-3 home win over Marcelo Lippi's star-studded side.

"I'd expect he'd get a great reception," said Ferguson. "Even teams, when their managers have played for our club, always get a fantastic reception, quite rightly too."
Beckham's United career came to an abrupt end after falling out with Ferguson - who once famously kicked a boot in the midfielder's face in a fit of anger - but there seemed to be no grudges held as the fiery manager repayed Beckham's earlier platitudes.
"He had great years here. He came as a boy and all his formative years were spent here," Ferguson added.

"It was a great foundation here before he went on to Real Madrid. He was a great player."

IN NOT SO GOOD MOOD......


its very funny how things work out themselves, not in a good way of course. first, football. seeing real madrid qualify to next round other than 16 group would be amazing, it didnt happen though. i was putting my hopes for arsenal although they have a slim chance to qualify but at least playing at home would be able to give arsenal a slight advantage. my hopes falling to pieces and hope no more to see both of the teams win somethin worth than gold. hurt, sad and disgraced by the way things unraveled, i quickly decided not to post anything in our blog. to add more salt to the wound, beck was declared not fit to play for another month. i'd love to see him play against barca this weekend and Man Utd on the 13th of march. ppl are eager to see him play once more in old trafford for the last time; this game will be considered as his final salute to his fans in england since real madrid has already lost to bayern munich there will be no chance seeing beck play against other teams in old trafford. our pain is getting deeper and heavier. i really wish things would have gone completely different, but who am i to decide?. i can only wish beckham would play again soon rather than later and bounce back from this madness coz its a round world.

i have aleady talked about my first pain and its time to reveal the second. goin all the way only to find nothing but a dead end. goin backwards always be a good option despite the setback. all around the world looking for dimes and gold but ashes are the only thing she can find. disappointed, she decides to leave her sadness behind and breakway to other direction. her efforts come to nothing as, again, empty spaces are all over the walls.

thank YOU almighty GOD *ALLAH SWT*

for granting my wishes

and for listening to my every bitter story!!

without your SUPER-MEGA POWER

none of this would have happened

with such a bless on the other page..

tears, sad stories, feeling bummed/gutted

are just pain in the ass

but knowing i can always lean on YOU

is such a wonderful feeling!!

forgive me for all of my mistakes

lead me to YOUR blisfully-path..

have me on your good-girl list!! l.o.v.e YOU GOD!!

people can say what they want
but i know you know me better..

ps:ARSENAL couldn't have won

without YOU!!

*gooners-4life*

DERBY GETTING UGLY......

i dunno what were they thinking, throwing objects or materials to referees, opponents and their coaches staffs arent part of the game. we should applaud all the effort of the fans have been doing ever since football was born. but seeing this incident in front of millions of people? a shameful indeed. i hail sports ministry effort to pin down the culprits so this kind of incident will not happen again in the future. i know there are many reasons to hate 'accross street' opponent but it doesnt mean to end a match such as this one. spanish football federation need to do something before its too late. i have seen a lot of kinds provocations but involving a material as a 'chanting spirit' isnt welcomed. sevilla is known for their aggressive crowd and most of the times opponent players have been the target as well as referees. hopefully they WILL do something to make football stadiums a safe place where others have been dominated by hatred and politics.

The Copa del Rey quarter-final second leg between city rivals Real Betis and Sevilla was abandoned when Sevilla coach Juande Ramos was hit by an object thrown from the crowd.
Ramos was carried off the pitch unconscious on a stretcher shortly after Sevilla took the lead 1-0 on aggregate when striker Frederic Kanoute fired home 12 minutes into the second half.
Video footage showed the Sevilla coach had been hit on the head by a two-litre plastic bottle full of liquid thrown from the stands.

Betis medical staff said later that Ramos, who used to manage Betis, regained consciousness as he was put into an ambulance.
Sevilla medical staff said the 52-year-old would spent the night in hospital under observation.
The normal procedure in Spain when matches are called off is for the remaining minutes to be played at a later date.


Last season, the Cup quarter-final second leg between Valencia and Deportivo Coruna was abandoned after a linesman was cut on the head by a coin thrown from the crowd.
The remaining 46 minutes were played behind closed doors a week later.
The build-up to the Seville derby was dominated by arguments between the two clubs over whether or not Sevilla president Jose Maria del Nido would be allowed in the VIP box at Betis' Manuel Ruiz de Lopera stadium.


After mediation by the Andalucian regional government, Betis finally allowed Del Nido to attend the match although a number of fans threw objects at him as he took his seat.
There was further controversy because Betis had placed a bronze bust of Del Nido's arch-rival, Betis owner Manuel Ruiz de Lopera in a seat just behind the Sevilla president.
Spain's sports minister Jaime Lissavetzky said he would be calling for immediate action from the Spanish Football Federation.


"This was a shameful incident," Lissavetzky told Radio Marca.
"We will be calling an emergency meeting of the Anti-violence Commission and will ask the Spanish Football Federation to deal with this with maximum rigour.
"We must stop incidents such as this or those that happened recently in Italy occurring again."


courtesy of eurosport.com

ive been reading this book for a couple of years now and think it is one of the best teenage novel ive read. its titled pendragon which a lil awkward for a teenage novel. anyway, lots have changed since it was published two years ago. once an understated writer, though he has written many critically aclaimed books in the past he hasnt managed to sit comfortably in no 1 spot, however his book 6 scored an amazing selling records. at present time, he has sold millions of pendragon series in many countries incl. here. i used to have the joy reading 3 books every 3 months, now his strategy changed that is to publish only 1 book every year. there are rumours circling around that he will make his debut in directing his own movie. but he already confirmed that there will be no pendragon movies some time soon. so, as a fan i'll have to wait a lil longer than i expected. perhaps he needs to wait till all the hypes for harry potter movies subdued. most probably it only happen in 2010, which of course in 3 more suffering years. its ok though, i still can enjoy watching my all time fav movie, harry potter. im completely overwhelmed to hear the movie will be released at the same year as the final book. 2007 has a lot to offer for movie goers. back to my topic for this time around, book 7. i only finished halfway through but things came up so i'd have to wait, though my hands are struggling to keep away i realize what needs to be done. i can only comment on the surface coz i wasnt deep in the story just yet but soon i can give my thoughts on why i keep reading this book no matter how the cover says age limit is 10-15. im young and soon i'll be 15 once more, it'd be wonderful if that happened. in the mean time i must keep my head down and concentrate harder.

im back with lots to tell bout yesterdays match between real madrid and bayern munich. enough for me to say that, real played as if it was a final against a much weaker side, bayern munich. anyway, bayern put a late goal to level the score line, literally. real madrid need to win in munich at least by 0-1 in order to get through to next stage. they played really well and showing a different side of the real Real Madrid. im a lil curious though on why exactly failure seems to haunt them in la liga matches. o boy....maybe the answer is actually right in front of their eyes they only need to look harder. hopefully this win would bring luck for their next match against atletico madrid.

here are some interesting articles from few newspapers:


Beckham at his brilliant best for Real
By Sid Lowe in Madrid
Last Updated: 9:14am GMT 21/02/2007

Real Madrid (3) 3 Bayern Munich (1) 2
If this was as much David Beckham versus Owen Hargreaves as it was Real Madrid versus Bayern Munich, the former England captain was the undisputed winner here, providing England manager Steve McClaren with something of a dilemma and Real with a slender, potentially dangerous first-leg lead.
Beckham had a hand in all three first-half goals as Real gained a 3-1 lead at the Santiago Bernabeu. But with Hargreaves a busy, energetic presence as Bayern pushed Real back in the second half, an 88th-minute goal for the former Barcelona midfielder, Mark van Bommel, changed the complexion of this tie entirely. It was Bayern who ended the happier of the two teams.
Beckham's influence had been felt as early as the 10th minute. His pass found Ruud van Nistelrooy, who spun his marker and slipped a perfect ball through the gap for Gonzalez Raul to score at the second attempt.
Bayern equalised with a Lucio header after 23 minutes, but Real were soon back in front, Beckham's deep corner reaching Ivan Helguera, whose header was touched in by Gonzalez Raul. Then another Beckham delivery was flicked on by Helguera and finished by Van Nistelrooy.
Bayern fought back well and with the clock ticking down, Van Bommel thumped in a volley. (the telegraph)



Beckham is still Real class

DAVID BECKHAM staked his case for an England recall with an inspirational display.
Becks, 31, set up three first-half goals but Owen Hargreaves’ Bayern battled back to leave this tie wide open.
Real boss Fabio Capello said: “Beckham was very important.”
And Beckham insisted: “My ambition has never changed. I’ve always wanted to play for my country and will always be available.”
Real thought they had it wrapped up at 3-1 and jubilant fans showed their appreciation with a deafening chorus of “Beckham, Beckham”.
England chief Steve McClaren should watch this performance and note how Becks’ stomach for a fight could keep Fabio Capello off the dole in Madrid.
Beckham’s intelligent pass to Ruud van Nistelrooy let him thread a ball for Raul to chase and round keeper Oliver Kahn with a ricochet before scoring on 10 minutes.
Lucio made it 1-1 on 23 minutes but five minutes later Becks’ corner was met by Ivan Helguera and the ball looped into the far corner with Raul claiming a faint final touch.
Becks’ vicious free-kick into the box was flicked on to Van Nistelrooy who fired No 3 past Kahn.
Bayern’s Mark van Bommel hit another crucial away goal in the 88th minute. (the sun)




Beckham inspires Real
From The Times
February 21, 2007
Peter Jenson in Madrid

David Beckham rolled back the years last night with an inspirational display to drive Real Madrid to a 3-2 win at home to Bayern Munich in the first leg of their Champions League first knockout round tie and put himself back in the reckoning for an England recall.
“I always wanted to play for my country and I will always be available whether I’m in Spain, or whether I’m in LA,” Beckham said. “I will always want to do well for my country.”
There were even chants of “Beckham, Beckham”, not heard since his first season, as his three assists put Real in the driving seat against poor opposition, who scored a late goal to keep themselves in the tie.
Beckham found Ruud van Nistelrooy, whose precise pass set up Raúl to score after 10 minutes.
After Bayern struck back, Beckham was at the heart of both Real goals. After 28 minutes his corner was headed towards goal by Iván Helguera and was helped over the line by Raúl, and then his free kick was converted by Van Nistelrooy.
A trademark Beckham free kick had to be brilliantly saved by Oliver Kahn, the Germany goalkeeper, and was Real’s best chance to add to their lead.




Real Madrid 3 Bayern Munich 2: Real rebuild with Beckham the architect of success
By Jack Rashleigh at the Bernabeu


The England coach, Steve McClaren, asked for a video of David Beckham's last game. The former national captain will want to hand-deliver a copy of this performance. Beckham, who was sent off in Real's dull draw at the weekend, was the architect of all of his side's goals as Madrid edged ahead of Bayern Munich in this Champions League last-16, first-leg tie.
There were even chants of "Beckham! Beckham!" from the home crowd, the like of which have not been heard since the early days of stint in Spain. With the Champions League thoroughbreds Raul and Ruud van Nistelrooy on form, Real were on course to be comfortable winners until they conceded a potentially damaging late away goal.
"Beckham played very well, he was very important," said his coach, Fabio Capello. "When he has been in the side he has always played at a high level. He created two tonight and [scored] one the other night and I recognise that."
Capello started Beckham on the right after toying with the idea of playing him in the centre, and recalled the young Argentine striker Gonzalo Higuain. Van Nistelrooy had the first chance, however, blazing over after running on to Beckham's throw. Beckham then whipped in a cross that just eluded Raul.
On 10 minutes Real were ahead. Beckham found Van Nistelrooy and his pass sent Raul clear. His first shot was saved by Oliver Khan but his second effort crept in.
The first goal was always going to be vital, with the crowd waiting to turn on the unpopular Capello, but on 23 minutes Bayern were level after sloppy goalkeeping. The full-back Willy Sagnol floated a free-kick to the back post, Iker Casillas failed to come and, jumping between two defenders, Lucio looped a header over the Real goalkeeper.
Madrid's response was swift. Higuain won a corner and from Beckham's kick the defender Ivan Helguera headed towards goal with Raul, on the line, touching the ball home. Eleven minutes before half-time it was three Beckham's free-kick was flicked on by Helguera and Van Nistelrooy volleyed in.
Beckham started the second half as he had finished the first, hitting a 35-yard pass to Higuain, whose shot was smothered by Khan. The keeper then saved Beckham's free-kick.
Capello showed unusual bravado throwing on the winger Robinho to keep Bayern stretched. But Real tired, allowing Bayern to score what could be a vital second away goal, with Mark van Bommel beating Casillas in the 88th minute.
As he left the pitch Van Bommel, formerly of Barcelona, made crude gestures towards the home fans only to apologise later. "I have got nothing against the Real fans," he said, "only against some of the players." (the independent)



Real deal Beckham gives Capello a lift


Fabio Capello had David Beckham to thank for supplying the goals which gave the under-fire Real coach a vital win. Capello kept Beckham on the right and recalled Argentine striker Gonzalo Higuain, 19, signed from River Plate last month to partner Ruud van Nistelrooy.
It was the old Manchester United one-two that unlocked Bayern's defence on 10 minutes.
Beckham found Van Nistelrooy and his slide-rule pass sent Raul clear. The club captain's first shot was blocked but he scored from the rebound.
On 24 minutes, Bayern were level when keeper Iker Casillas failed to come for Willy Sagnol's floated free-kick and Brazilian Lucio looped a header back over his head to equalise.
But Madrid responded in style and on both occasions, Beckham's delivery was the key. After 28 minutes his corner was headed towards goal by defender Ivan Helguera with Raul helping the ball across the line and on 34, Van Nistelrooy scored from a Beckham free-kick.
But former Barcelona star Mark van Bommel pulled back a priceless away goal for Bayern in 88 minutes. (the evening standard)

Math anxiety saps working memory needed to do math
By Julie Steenhuysen Mon Feb 19, 9:03 AM ET


SAN FRANCISCO (Reuters) - Worrying about how you'll perform on a math test may actually contribute to a lower test score, U.S. researchers said on Saturday.
Math anxiety -- feelings of dread and fear and avoiding math -- can sap the brain's limited amount of working capacity, a resource needed to compute difficult math problems, said Mark Ashcroft, a psychologist at the University of Nevada Los Vegas who studies the problem.
"It turns out that math anxiety occupies a person's working memory," said Ashcroft, who spoke on a panel at the annual meeting of the American Association for the Advancement of Science in San Francisco.
Ashcroft said while easy math tasks such as addition require only a small fraction of a person's working memory, harder computations require much more.
Worrying about math takes up a large chunk of a person's working memory stores as well, spelling disaster for the anxious student who is taking a high-stakes test.
Stress about how one does on tests like college entrance exams can make even good math students choke. "All of a sudden they start looking for the short cuts," said University of Chicago researcher Sian Beilock.
Although test preparation classes can help students overcome this anxiety, they are limited to students whose families can afford them.
Ultimately, she said, "It may not be wise to rely completely on scores to predict who will succeed."
While the causes of math anxiety are unknown, Ashcroft said people who manage to overcome math anxiety have completely normal math proficiency.

i came across this article in yahoo! this morning and found it to be true as this always happen to me when it comes to exams. i know the formula and been doing the exercises far too often until my head hurts; instead giving me a clear pathway, i usually end up daydreaming in the exam hall coz of a simple reason, too anxious. i really should have done better last time but notihn i can do to make things better off. at least i know myself.......

lost one..

it's been tough for me but in a way i could accept this..arsenal goalless draw last week, real madrid goalles draw last week, and dave-b sent off drama last week!! gosh this is really2 hard to digest, and of course i've been receiving bad news about ppl i used to know and it's driving me INSANE! i've been saying that my past is no longer a part of me anymore, i don't know which one of what is part of me. i guess the truth is i'm still finding a way to heal myself *God this is so daamn hard* well at least i'm enjoying myself lately, i've bought Qiu Xialong 3rd book *when red is black* and i think it's going to be great. just when i was going to pay the books that i had in my hand i saw this newest Qiu Xialong's inspector chen latest book and i feel devastated my heart crushed *exagerrating!* i pulled my sister and cried my heart out because the book was the hard cover one and the price was expensive twice than the usual one coz it's bigger and cooler.

i just hope next time they'll have the normal size and the cheaper one he-he. and i just finnaly open the Qiu's book gosh it felt good to unwrap, most of the time i find it amusing just to sit down read a book listening to ipod while my mom sit beside me watching tv. me and my mom are closer than ever she rely on me and i lean on her. we're inseparable, mebbe it's because i'm much wiser and i know what to do/say and what not to do/say. my mom knows me better, i like it when she shares her experience and when she gives me advice. no one knows YOU better than your MOM! that's why i trust her opinion everytime i need someone to talk to *beside my sist*, after what i've learned and achieved i think it's impossible to have finaly reached a better place with a better mind without her love and support. mebbe people who likes to mock me will never believe how much i've changed, for me it's about *do you really want to or this is just another show?* it's useless when you want to change for other ppl coz those shits will never last. i'm not saying i'm better than everyone else but at least i'm not saying bad things behind other ppl and pulling off masquarade around town ha-ha.

i'm happy and in a way better lifestyle not because i said so but mainly because i want to. Thank God for bumps in the road i've been in five years, without God's tireless guidance and my family's love and support i'd definitely have chosen the wrong path to end the drama. i can't wait till 2moro, someone i really2 care is coming to town *can't wait..miss you dearly!*it's good to know that i'm breathing the same air with all the people who love and care for who iam not how i look. i hope i can stay with this healthy lifestyle i'm currently living in. i don't have to think about doubts anymore all i have to think is the balance in my life. without losing something/someone i'd never feel the desire to want something/someone. shout out to my sist who knows how to make me smile and she def knows how to make me pull my face! *duh* thank you for sticking with me even after the aftermath. and saying good things even when i'm not myself and esp when doubts inside my head banging the door to my veins.God has given me such a beautiful sist with amazingly stoneheaded on the other side.

signing off,

*miss-c*

i chose to let this go and end this now, i have to stop thinking about trying to explain and pretending nothing ever happened. i wanted to start all over coz i thought it'd be better when lights had finally come our way unfortch not a single word could make it work. i fear that you'd go and leave me all alone thus you've gone so far away long a go before i realize and you've gone further with this trigger in my hand i need to pull. it's painful as if i had just been stabbed, therefore i better go and heal myself before i realize that i'm only making fool of myself. the desire had slipped away and the hatred seem far away mebbe emptiness is all i have inside. it's way too late for redemption coz the door had finally shut itself the moment i shut myself from hipocracy. it's never meant to be...emotionless, brainless, too much in our way it's difficult when one has too many branches without me in any of them.

gunners get moral boost from the Queen

Arsène Wenger and his Arsenal squad finally got to meet The Queen on Thursday, February 15 when they visited Buckingham Palace for afternoon tea with Her Majesty.

The 80-year-old monarch was due to attend the official opening of Emirates Stadium in October but she was forced to pull out after suffering a back injury.

The Duke of Edinburgh performed the opened ceremony in her absence.

The Queen was disappointed to miss her appointment at Arsenal's new home and extended an invite to the Club to visit the Palace.

Arsenal are the first football club to be invited to a reception at the royal residence.

Wenger said: "It is a big honour. It was a frustration that she could not come and see us that day. I always like to go to the end of things and to see that happening is great.

It is a fantastic mark of respect for Arsenal.
It is a good experience for the group and for the Club."

Thierry Henry added: "I had the chance to meet Nelson Mandela in South Africa, the French President in Paris and it is very special to meet The Queen as well.

"I am going to talk about this to my daughter and everybody.
I asked my wife if she had ever been inside and she said ‘No’.

So to go in as the captain of Arsenal Football Club is more than an honour."

courtesy of arsenal.com

it's really2 good to see my gunners get the once in a lifetime chance to meet Queen Elizabeth II in Buckingham Palace. especially after she couldn't open emirates stadium back in october. hopefully gunners can reward her kindness by playing above par and winning trophies *uefa champions league, fa cup, and carling cup* for her majesty.

*mis-c*

*blisfully happy*

it's been a great day, i'm lovin this for me money isn't necessary when i'm feeling happy with myself, my loved ones, and my life. i feel blessed *thank you dear God*. i know i still have to face loads of setbacks in the near future but as long i have my loved ones support and of course my almighty God guidance i know i can face those setbacks one by one. for a lot of people money is the essential but for me nothing can buy me a happiness including wealth. of course money is a basic necessity *to pay bills and buy groceries* but without love and support from my loved ones how can i be happy?

watching football *soccer* also one of my ways on making myself happy. my sister was the one who introduced me to soccer *and the gorgeous soccerstars*. she's in love with david beckham since she was a kid i think it's been 10 years. my grandma was a big fan of local soccer too so sad she had to leave so soon. we hadn't been able to share tips yet hehe. my dad is also a big fan of soccer, and he likes to watch gilmore girls with me just to accompany me *love u dadda* when we're waiting for the game to start. me and my sist have 6 jersies *3 of them are gunners*, and we're planning on multiplying them hehe. because we have found the best store to check out some jersies.

reading books can also boost my mood. currently i'm reading james patterson's violets are blue, it's my sist's book. she has loads of great books, she has encouraged me many times to read one but i thought the books were hard to understand. honestly, it's the best advice my sist has given me all this time. my fav books are by patricia cornwell's kay scarpetta, james patterson's lidnsay boxer, qie xiaolong's inspector chen *i hope i spelled correctly*. and of course i alwasy love everything by mary higgins clark. my sist dislike danielle steel because it's a romance but i have six of danielle steel's novel because my friend encouraged me to read danielle steel's novel. my favourite danielle steel's novel is granny dan, i think it's the most entertaning yet classy. i wish i had been reading since i was a kid coz i've been missing out quite a lot. i'm planning to continue collect more good books so i can recommend those books to others. insya allah i will have my own bookstores or open my own crime-stories library *amiien*.

listening music while i'm writing is a very2 good therapist especially during my poem time. i've always loved music and movies all my life, i have two ipods and one jbl speaker that makes me feel complete everytime i need some entertainment. i think music really2 helps me getting through the rough patches. for me music will never die in my heart it will always and forever be my top priority!

last but far from bottom least, being around my family and loved ones really2 give me strength to move on and living my live. they give me peace and of course the warmth i feel everytime i hug my mom. i hope other people can also feel grateful for what they have although it's far from perfect. be proud of what you have and don't forget to be grateful because the more you bow yourself the more you'll get.

signing off,

*miss-c*

FANS NOT INTERESTED

IN PUPPET SHOW BY STE-C

The FA could be faced with the embarrassing prospect of empty seats in England's away section for games against Israel and Andorra. Only three-quarters of the ticket allocation for the games has been taken up, and the FA have made a direct appeal to the supporters' group englandfans.

England are famed for taking a mammoth contingent of fans to away games and tournaments, but the news comes on the back of a dismal run.

Steve McClaren's side are without a win in four games, and were booed off after a pedestrian 1-0 friendly defeat at home to Spain this month.

One member of englandfans told the Daily Telegraph: "Maybe fans are voting with their feet or their wallets.

"It's surprising, really, because England fans have usually bankrupted themselves following England all over the world."

Security concerns have been cited as a reason why fans are staying away from the crucial Israel fixture on March 24, with 1,000 tickets unsold.

Meanwhile the trip to face Andorra in Barcelona's Olympic Stadium has even more places available, with 3,000 of the 12,000 allocation still up for grabs.

COURTESY OF EUROSPORT.COM

perhaps by sacking ste-c *current england manager* would boost up the ticket sales. BRING BACK BECKS!! we as fans want to see the greatest set piece by the only one set-piece master DAVID BECKHAM!!none of the midfielder in england could be like him!!

who should i blame? *hmm*

1. Who would you want to be tied to for 24 hours?
*someone who can make me laugh and feeling lucky all the time

2. Who do you blame for your mood today?
*i'm on a happy mode -happiest- thanks to yesterday's arsenal vs bolton 3-1 away win.

3. Have you ever seen a dead body?
* on tv, yes

4. What should we do w/ stupid people?
* teach them!

5. How long do you think you will live?
* dunno only God knows the answer.

6. What was the first thing you did this morning?
*looking for my mom.

7. The color of carpet in your bedroom?
*usually it's pink now it's a black

8. Last person you went out to dinner with?
*my mom and my sist

9. Are you spoiled?
*maybe it's a yes

10. Do you drink lot of water?
*i have to part of my healthy diet

11. How do you express your anger?
*by cursing to my sist or making poems while listening to itunes

12. The last compliment you received?
*dun realy remember

13. Do you look more like your mother or father?
*i wish i had the looks of my mother but we do have the same personalities, yes i was born looking like my father

14. When was the last time you threw up?
*dun remember..i almost throw up most of the times -yikes!!-

15. Who are your best friends?
*almighty God, my family and my loved ones

17. What theme does your room have?
*dun hv any themes it's a normal room with a very2 big david beckham's picture hanging on an expensive frame -blah-

18. Are you a momma's child or adaddy's child?
*kind of both..i'm extremely close to them

19. Would you ever join the military?
*my mom would never let me even when i was in girls scout my mom freaked out

20. The last websites you visited?
*perez of course the best goss-blog ever

21. Who was the last person you took a picture with?
*my sist, yesterday when we were trying to pose different in taking pictures

22. Last person you went to the movies with?
*my sist i guess it was few months a go

23. The last person you stared at?
*my mom b4 i went back to my room

24. Number of pillows on your bed?
*loads

25. Is anything alive in your room?
*mebbe dave-b is alive

26. Today, would you rather go back aweek or go forward a week?
*forward-forward-forward

27. What is your current goal toachieve?
*none...it's boring to have certain goals to achieve i like surprises i live my life the best that i could, mebbe because i went through so much till the point where i let God lead me in this life.

28.Define love:
*L.O.V.E is complicated i can never explain it as time goes by the meaning is getting weirder and stranger to me love is not only by words abut also by what you're doing it's something i always have even when i was single or taken, it's deep inside of me, how i respect someone, being totally honest, and taking a good care of myself and people that i care.

29. How is your hair?
*inexplainable -is that correct?-

30. What are your current worries?
*my stomachache

31. Do you have plans for holidays?
*i do have plans for holidays but the prob is -when?-

32. which is the best place to get an inspiration, bathroom or your room?
*in my room all alone in front of my comp with itunes on

33. do you prefer "white lies" or"painful truth"?
*always truth i'm a realistic person i don't care if it's painful or whatever i only have heart for truth

34. let say you meet a new friend that(in your point of view) perfect, will you leave your old friend?
*why shud i leave my old buds? i will befriend with this new bud and stay connected with my old buds

35. how if one of your friend cheat on you?
*it had happened a while a go and i've gotten over it it was hard and part of me was totally damaged but at least i've learned so many beautiful things since then

36. why do you think people always fight about religion?
*it's a damn politic!

37. will you dare to tell that you are in love w him/her in front of them to have a free concert tickets(from any of your fav band)?
*gosh i'm a shy person i'm not gonna tell-all about my feelings if i happen to like him but it will be a great chance to get to know him plus i get to se my fav band. but the truth is i'm not gonna go to a concert even if i have to -traumatic incident-

38. do you ever think about the future?how you'll gonna die?
*i think about my future but how am i gonna die pheww that's awful

39. miss school times?
*nope hopefully never.i've reached a better place with a better me i'm not thinking about my past anymore.

40. how would you like to describe your best friends?
*reliable, honest, silly, lovely.

*miss-c*