this is the way...

and it's happening again *sic!!* chelski vs GUNNERS..gosh i'm freaking out!! i know my gunners quality isn't enuff to beat chelski and i know chelski are a very patient team when it comes to winning games. yesterdays's result was even worst they can only managed to get a draw with porto. and to be honest porto deserve 3-0 against gunners, gunners played a very2 weird game yesterday *haha*.but luckily they drew against porto although i saw many great chances came from porto not from gunners. blah..they suck *oops*!!well at least they're on top of the table which they could meet any of the following teams: MAN UTD, AC MILAN, CHELSKI, GUNNERS, BAYERN MUNICH, LIVERPOOL, VALENCIA, LYON, ETC. God, the journey isn't finished yet gunners and los blancos must fight all the way.

sadly i couldn't watch los blancos match last night, i felt bummed actually. but this morning when my sist told me the scoreline and what a great game was last night i felt happy and relieved. i wish i could see the game but yeah what can i do i'm not staying in europe or whatever. i'm a big fan of ronnie not inly he's a big superstar but i like his cool attitude and his cuteness hehe. i'm hoping that capello will be playing ronnie along side ruudtje and also beckham. beckham and ronnie understand each other so damn well that's why they had a marvellous game last night. guess my sist had written enuff story about los blancos so i'm not gonna repeat what she had written. i'm currently listening to juanes "volverte a ver" it's a very2 good song so if you need a song to lift you up this is the song the melody is amazing and his voice is kinda REFRESHING.

i just watched laguna beach *the newest version without lc hixhixhix* and i saw this kyndra having a relationship with tyler *dysfunctional as they called*. it's really weird when you commit yourself to a relatinship yet you hook up with someone else. it's always been the same mistakes and they keep repeating it. i was a big fan for the first team *kristin, stephen, lc, jason, jessica, alex, etc* but my sist wasn't really into it we only had 1 cable tv, take note she can be rally2 annoying if you ask her to watch sumthin she hates, she'll talk rubbish and try to manipulate you to do what she wants *haha* now i'm watching it no matter how my sist hates it i still talk about it to her. just to discuss about what happened in laguna and talk abput their stupid acts.

maybe they call me old fashioned or whatever but for me i'm not gonna be the one who's gonna ask the q and say i love you but the next day i'm hooking up with someone else. it's rubbish!! in fact if i'm in a relationship with someone i'm going to commit to my relationship. it's not fully commited like i'm married but i hv to know where's our direction at my age now it's not the right time to mess around or just having fun. i consider going on a date is a must before i'm ready to open up to someone. i hv to meet his family and he must meet mine too, i'm a family oriented kind of girl home is where i belong and my family is my everything so i trust them with all my heart. i like to think that i'm seeing someone and i can't lose his faith in me by hooking up with an idiot. what i've learned from my experiences is that i'm not gonna tell everybody outside who's my bf or who's the guy i'm seeing currently. only my family and my loved ones deserve to know, why i'm saying this is because i dun want ppl to take advantage of me or my bf and let them mess my relationship around. and i hope i'm not gonna cry for boys haha i did cry for someone but it wasn't for my stupid childish Xs..i know it's wrong to share my personal stories to public coz deep inside i definitely know that ppl can use it as a weapon that will go back against you. that's why ppl still guessing what had happened or is happening in my life, i keep it as a secret. too many to tell i guess, i'm still growing up and so many things have happened in the process that made me wiser. i'm a bit wiser and i'm keeping it to myself hehe if you're close to me then i'll fill you in. i just can't simply trust everybody coz of my past i hv to be more careful. maybe 2-4 years a go i'd say different stuff about relationships and commitments but now i know what i want and i've learned thru my own experiences and ppl around me. i'm still learning, and i can't wait to know my opinion in the next few years about relationships and commitments. thanks to my mom and my sist who teach me all this, stuff about life and the after life. honesty, dignity, patience, generousity, and faith are the main essentials i've learned from my mommy. as i've said before life is all bout balance and karma, i believe in God and i believe in fate. God created doors for us and it's our responsibility to pick the right door!even when we pick the wrong door God is still helping us find our way back to the right direction. i'm tired of ppl mocking and i know i belong to my family. no matter what they say the only one who can judge me is God, human make mistakes so if you still making mistakes and trying to cover it up don't judge me coz i dun judge you!

signing off,

*miss-c*writing about relationship makes me missing you more than ever..