Wednesday, October 31, 2007
Saturday, October 13, 2007
i'm very much tired and sleepy, for odd reasons. i want to listen to my ipod but it's basically prepared for 2moro (me and my family are going for inter-city round trip). in less than few days i'm going (again!) to have my nearly dead-brain relaxed for a while. haha. it's so funny, while i'm busy writing my mom's waiting for her pasta to come from the kitchen (my bro's a ogger and he eats EVERYTHING!!). i have this new digicam and it's the cutest thing that ever came to my life. mwahmwah!
now everyone in my family is eating pasta, my bro's eating his 2nd plate hohoho. and i'm still busy reading eisley's journal. i love their posts, especially sherri's not only she's the only one who posts almost everyday but she's so funny. heart EISLEY! owh gosh i'm so damn sleepy and i haven't packed my stuff for my escapade. the temperature is very much low these days, pheeww, hate this. hope i'm not catching cold soon. am i the only one who's having problems with myspace? i miss my page, tho usually i don't check it very often but still i have few friends there.
i still feel surreal that i have friends that are either no longer single, still single, married, having babies, or even divorced (sadly, but life must go on rite??). i still feel like the same old disneyprincess girl but grown wiser of course. someday i believe i will get married with the right man who deserves me and who truly loves me for eternity. haha true disney fan don't you think? but deep inside i believe that life isn't always sweet but life surely is tasty! i just want to have my happiness lasts for lifetime..haha evens shrek had bumps with fiona. but still with my own puzzle made of brain i still think that marriage isn't on top of my list (sorry!). still have my own priorities in life, however if my mom ask me, then i'll do it haha as if! i will try to do anything to please my parents (including using my dad's lappie instead of mine in my room just to be sighted!).
i'm very sleepy rite now, better signing off before my dad uses his ogger power just to make me go to bed hihihi. hopefully i can pos something in the next few days before i'm off to a very relaxing escapade. and for those who haven't heard eisley go check them out on youtube!
Thursday, October 11, 2007
as i read one of sherri's post on her band's site and it was about her sist (stacy) 19th bday , i was inspired to write somethng about my lovely sist.
Tuesday, October 09, 2007
Your favorite motto these days:
// getting older is a GUARANTEE but getting wiser is an OPTION, every single thing that have happened/ is going to happen in my life no matter if it's a good thing or a low key i take it step by step coz it could be a blessing in disguise.
What is important today?
// my DONUTS!!
Song most repeated today:
// eisley's songs
Song that makes u sad lately:
// i had tears in my eyes when i listened to i don't wanna know yesterday. it's inexplainable, i hate to admit it was unpredictable that thing happened in my life.
Song that makes u smile lately:
// vintage people by eisley, it's a cute song
Person you miss the most:
What kept you awake last night:
// csi vid-game
What wake you up this morning:
// my dad woke me up
What did you have for breakfast:
// choc pudding specially made by my mom
What do you want for dinner:
// beef and chicken terriyaki..sluurrp
What are you enjoying at this verymoment?
/ / my life, my family,my loved ones and every blessing God has given me. my ipod, my digicam, my cellphones, and everything in between
What did you wear yesterday:
// play vid-games
What youre wearing now:
What youre thinking to wear for the next party:
// my LBD
Lately Ive been doing:
// some thinking and soul-searching
Lately Ive been busy planning:
// my next crime scene (on csi vidgame)
Last concert I went to:
// some concert few years a go
Ne xt concert I want to go:
// eisley or NFG!!
Last gift you received:
// my red-cam (it was the best surprise i ever have in my life)
Last gift you gave:
// in few days me and my sist will be giving some gifts for our friends
Place I go the most these days:
// myroom, my mom's room, different malls,etc
Place you want to go:
// emirates stadium, disneyland in calif, and backpacking through europe with my sist.
I am looking forward to:
// my dad buy new lappie hahaha
// i can always be hopeful, honest, patient, and up to my parents expectations.
ONE OF YOUR SCARS, HOW DID YOU GET IT?
// i have two scars on my left arm, i fell from my sist's bike when i was 6.i had four ops because of that luckily i survived. but inside, i have scars that will never be healed that's why i have trust issues with ppl from my past and i'm paranoid on certain hopefully i can fix it before i get too old haha
HOW ARE YOU FEELING TODAY?
// great tho i didn't get my DONUTS!!!!
WHAT SONG ARE YOU LISTENING TO?
// golly sandra by eisley
WHAT DO YOU WANT MORE THAN ANYTHINGRIGHT NOW?
WHAT DO YOU MISS?
// having a long conversation mith my other bro
WHICH DO YOU PREFER HOTDOGS/BURGERS?
THE LAST ALCOHOLIC DRINK YOU DRANK?
// nope don't drink alcohol
THE LAST PERSON YOU WENT OUT WITH?
// my famz
WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE COLOGNE/PERFUME?
// gosh..this is hard!! ilove chanel+jean patou+versace red jeans+hermes+oscar de la renta coz those resemblance mymom and her beautiful personalities, marc jacobs, miss dior cherie, bvlgari, etc
WHAT KIND OF HAIR/EYE COLOR DO YOU LIKEON THE OPPOSITE SEX?
// anything will do ;)
COFFEE OR ENERGY DRINKS?
// swedish coffee
WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE PIZZA?
// beef pepperonni
IF YOU COULD EAT ANYTHING RIGHT NOW,WHAT WOULD IT BE?
DO YOU SPEAK ANOTHER LANGUAGE?
// depends haha
DO YOU LIKE SOMEONE?
FAVORIT E CLOTHES?
// my soccer jerseys!
WOULD YOU FALL IN LOVE KNOWING THAT THE PERSON IS TAKEN?
// usually no..hopefully never
WHAT IS THE BEST WAY TO TELL SOMEONEHOW MUCH THEY MEAN TO YOU?
// show them that u really care by being sincere, honest and kind.
SAY A NUMBER FROM 1-100
WHO IS THE PERSON YOU CALL OFTEN?
// noone coz i don't really call ppl usually ppl call me haha
WHAT ANNOYS YOU?
// bumps in my journey but i know with God with me nothing can stop me if He wants me to continue my life
// indecisive, impatient, moody well my sist can tell u the rest *she'll never stop*
// being a good daughter hohoho
EVER DONE A PRANK CALL?
// when i was in elementary
WHAT WERE YOU DOING WHEN YOU FILLEDTHIS?
/ / listening to my ipod *it's eisley btw*
IF YOU COULD GET PLASTIC SURGERY, WHATWOULD IT BE?
// i feel blessed with what i'm currently, and my mom'd definitely kill me if she finds out that i want to do a plastic surgery
WHY DID YOU FILL OUT THIS SURVEY?
// better than doing nothing.
WHAT DO YOU WANT FOR YOUR BIRTHDAY?
// happiness that will last for lifetime, blessings for me and my family, and...
WERE YOU NAMED AFTER ANYONE?
// some gorgeous artist/model
WHAT DO YOU DO MOST WEEKEND?
WHAT IS YOUR PLAN?
// nothing in my life is mapped out. i prefer to take it step by step.
WHEN DID YOU LAST CRY?
// few months a go
DO YOU LIKE YOUR HANDWRITING?
Monday, October 01, 2007
i'm very much confused with people out there. they seem eager to jump into uncertain commitments that i as a person would think 1000x. i keep on telling myself that it's their views not mine and of course i'm not the same as them. mebbe it's because i've gone through lot more worst than what others might even have gone through in their lives. sometimes i think i'm paranoid, but if it's the best for me, why bother? being commited into your life, work, and family is very much hard to deal.
i'm still young and i never think too much about commitments, it's just that i'm holding back too much. i don't want to be the one ended up crying and regretting. if i'm going for a future together with someone, i'd love to have full preparation. i don't want one of us to regret our decision, mebbe i've been living in a big city too long so my mind-set is very much different from others. it's very2 complicated as it may seem, a commitment that sounds very hard to explain.
i'm in a process of growing up therefore i believe that throwing my young age for something useless is definitely not an option. i won't rule out getting married at young age tho..as long as me and him both are ready to be fully commited, and we have the blessings from both families. coz i won't turn my back from my family and i hope he's wise enuff not to turn his back too.
i've seen too many divorces, break-ups, and letdowns, i guess that's why i'm holding back too far. i'm focusing on my own life with my family and loved ones right now, i want to spend my time making them happy. it's not easy to search for the perfect one but i do believe if i'm a good person then i deserve a bright future with someone who's destined to be with me for eternity.
i understand why my sist's always advise me not to rush things, let it flow and be patient. i wish i could say the same thing to my colleagues, but it's not easy when you're blinded with your own feelings. i have a friend who's quite close to me, i'm very emotional and she on the other hand is very calm. we've known each other for quite some time now, but she went abroad and we're separated miles away. i do care about her, it's just that she never listens to me mebbe because i tell her the real deal and she can't accept that reality (does) bite. we've had our problems, somehow we managed to solve it by sweeping it deeply till i'm tired to keep it under rug swept. it's very much dysfunctional isn't?
i've never called her in 3 months, and we only chat online..i've missed out so much about her. mebbe it's the commitments we both made in our respective lives, we have to sacrifice our friendship. too many letdowns between us, she made her speech to me about her side of story. i stopped and listen, it's hard for me to digest i didn't expect for her to go through such pain. she wanted me to meet her, but i wasn't ready. till now i think i'm basically not ready for our reunion after years apart. i don't know why mebbe i'm waiting for the right moment just to look ate her and spill out every bean in my life.