face of many colors

i found janet's song titled "together again" that was very famous during my last year of primary school. this song was my theme during the last few months before i started my higher level of education. the cool part is that i have successfully downloaded many oldies tunes ha-ha. i feel like my back is cracking..

still, i have to write a story i need to mention in here. it's confusing coz i still feel very much confused how to say, how to deal, and how to overcome such complicated situation. well at least i was the spectator not the player. or was i in the middle with no power to judge nor applaud her?

a friend of mine cried her heart out, blaming on everything she could mention, and feeling sorrow for what she's going through. it really melt her heart, she went from heart broken to heart stomping (ha-ha). she needed me and as usual i gave my shoulder for her to cry on, being a good listener as i always have.

from what i understand, loving someone at our age is different. the context is far from fairy tale. i'm afraid she hasn't learned a damn thing since her last breakdown, whereas i have learned so many things when she broke up and became sour for such long period. girl, don't whine if you think you can handle the pressure.

it's a pity for her to have such pain in her heart..love is complicated as it is i'm afraid everything i'll be saying to her will make her feel even farther down. i believe when her bf calls there goes the make up and lalala etc, she'll have all smiles and start forgetting what she had said to me. hmmpphhhh, love sure makes the world go round.

embrace this kiddo..

don't feel broken

the rushes won't be count

if this keeps reoccuring

think more

speak less

coz what may lay in front

still unwritten

still undecided

please reconsider

please stop hurrying

from what i'm seeing through my own eyes..her relationship right now is no different with what she had before. once again she let her selfish side aappeared, and it's not healthy. but it's her relationship so i can't put too many ideas. i hope she'll learn that pushing things around won't solve anything.

that's why i didn't like the idea of she getting too serious with this guy, no offense he might be good or he might be super-nice but is he worth all of her love and time? it's the connection, the willingness/ability, and the honesty that really counts. no matter how hard you try, if it's not meant to be then it's not going to happen.

(puzzle-head, eisleyian)