DERITA...

Saat itu kan datang

Bila tangis tak lagi menghampiri

Tanpa kepastian

Kan selalu kutunggu

Hidup yang tak selalu indah ini

Memang milikku

Walau kadang tersakiti

Ku tak ingin melepaskannya

Dinginnya hati

Saat luka yang terdalam

Tak mampu tersembuhkan

Terus terluka tanpa inginku

Jika saja kuingin bercerita

Takkan berakhir

Hingga esok menjelma

Tapi bibir ini tetap mengatup rapat

Rahasia yang ada

Tak mampu kungkapkan

Segalanya kusimpan sendiri

Didalam hati

Semua yang menanti kata-kataku

Hanya ingin menyaksikan kehancuranku

Walau kutertatih

Kutakkan membiarkan itu terjadi

Ku kan membiarkan waktu yang berbicara

Tuhan kan menunjukkan jalanNya

Dan rahasia itu kan akhirnya berakhir indah

Penderitaan menjadi kebahagiaan

dunno why i wrote this maybe coz i went thru a disasterous moments in my life. six years back i'd hv never expect those things would struck me but that's life "expect the unexpected" and yeah i'm much more mature and wise. i used to be a peson who liked to talk about my probs to my close friends but now i've learnt how to shut my mouth and to live my life without complaining. i keep my secrets with me i only open up about my feelings to God, my family and my very closest and dearest loved ones.

i bet most ppl out there wondering what have happened to me or what am i up to. but hey, i keep it ll to myself because i know it's the best for me. there's no point in talking about other ppl..sometimes when i think it over how hurt it was to be the victim of so many liars, i feel angry to let them come into my life just to ruin everything. but after all without the suffer where'd i go?it's funny to think those liars pointing finger at me to blame when deep inside i know and they know who's the one responsible for all those mess. sometimes i wonder who exactly the victim was me or those ppl and who was the mentally ill one? but i've realized they made me think i was wrong but the fact is i didn't do anything wrong..they accused me but no prove i was the one acting crazy. if i was the mentally ill one why i was left alone in the dark trying to buy my way to be at the same level as theirs, not forgetting how they embarassed me in the hallway, talking shit about me, they said stuff that aren't true it hurts you know! , and of course pissing me off in every way. they even had their own batallion just to messed me up. pheewww how lucky iam that everything's over and i dun hv to see their faces when they mock me..

forgive sounds good

forget..i'm not sure i could

they say time heals everything

But i'm sill waiting

i think talk is cheap. how you react and reflect is the most important essentials.

my advice is, be gracious!life is all about balance so keep the balance and your life won't be a mess. think twice before you talk, i'm still learning new things everyday and i feel blessed to have such a supporting family and beautiful loved ones. When there's no one you can turn to family is always there and God also! patience, generousity, and have faith to God & yourself. You can have a blast without cigarettes, alcohol, stupid-oh-so-lame party, and drugs!! It's time to step up and be sober..drunk isn't cool!!love your life no matter how hard life is, there's always a beautiful rainbow waiting for you at the end of every darkness spot.

*missc-reyshafabrista*