i love wearing nail lacquer..

my sister even nag at me

coz i always change 'em often

harharhar..

feeling superiiooorr

peace out babe,

eisleyian.

f 'n' f

i have finally met with my friend *ex arch enemy i mentioned on earlier post*..unexpectedly we got on really2 well. before the stupid incident that happened in the past, we were what they called close friends (bffs are damn overrated). she was planning to held some sort of reunion *not sure if i want to make it*. at least we were being honest after soooo damn long avoiding each other. *the walls are finally crumbling down*

i chatted with a friend that i didn't get the chance to know better when we were schooling together *he was uber-cute 2 me..laughing all the time harharhar i wonder if he was being nice or being himself*. it feels really nice to be able to open up and be myself after being undiscovered for so long. can't wait to see good 'ol friends, it's been too long i guess. if only we spent the whole time being nice and cute.

i didn't hide because i want to but i was definitely undiscovered and when there was someone reminding me to stop being pretentious. i got the message..as he was the bestest friend of mine, he only wanted the best for me. i wish we could talk more often so he'd know what went on lately. i miss you deeply..*sobsobsob*. he's one of those guy friends i really2 trust right now, such a shame i have to share you *yikes!*

i also chatted with my junior just now, she was the ex to someone who was really close to me he called me his "mom" although he was older than me harharhar coz i was always the wise one. it's funny coz at the end of the day, she was closer to me than to anyone else even after she broke up with "my sunnyson". such a babe..she's very2 lovely. i miss you too lovely. we try to catch up everydayyaaaay..X)

it's been damn good, as i've said before this year's beginning to shine for me hmppfffhh after all this while. finallyfinallyfinally. alhamdulillah, no need for more words only gratitude.

bye sleepyheads,

off to sleep now babelicious-es.

eisleyian.

where's my lovely train? i have been left alone without your bright cars passing along the deserted stations.
arrogant sky scrapper triumphs against your tiny figure.
how am i going to keep you by my side?
no sights are able to be viewed.
however, you will always stay close to me, to my huge relief.
hissing inching to my ears as good as they tap my round shoulder.
will i miss your tangible solid feature?

can i be at your service?
pleased to see your happy face once more.
do we have something in common?
we are total strangers in the midst of a lonely world.
we have met somewhere foreign but yet so close to my heart.
your warm smile touches my heart as breeze pushing away stagnant hot weather.
we are so far apart, but i have you near my vision.
the scent of your perfume tingles my nostril.
familiar sight, different timezone.
standing closer to a platform, waiting for the train to stop its muscular figure.
bending a little to catch the sight of it; emptiness clouding my surface.
across the platform, you are standing seeking a way to fly out of the station.
train arrives with its usual dignity; cars as many as 4 winding their way to already empty station; blue and black covers the whole of scenery as the train halts.
yours too, arriving in the nick of time.
it's covered with jet blue sky.
sitting close to the side window looking sideway.
there you are....looking past through the tainted glass smiling toward myself.
we may head to different places at the same time, but i can feel you here.
the train beginning to tremble forcing its way to a very shiny morning, whereas, your train heading home to its depot surrounded by gleaming lights.
two different homes, one destination.
perhaps, we could see each other once more amidst all the odds.
a warm welcome celebrates my appearance, on the other side lights embracing your existance.
deep inside i honestly believe, we would be seeing each other. but not too soon.

flaming.damn random!

i had tons of fun yesterday, i went out wit my sist and my sist's friend (like a sist to me too). my friend was supposed to go out with us but she was out of town. we took 100 pictures of us harharhar i think it was more than that, we went to 4 places a day and it was phenomenal. the fact that everyone was in the mood for fun *especially my sist's friend* really2 made the day. my friend was damn jealous when she heard the news harharhar. i bet her anger will get even worst when she sees our pics..damn girl you missed such fun yesterday!

ok, time for family-quality-time aka meandmommy time..

bye babes.

eisleyian.

finishing touch

He let enthusiasm

got a grip to himself

never let it fade

the fire

that holds every hope together

confusion

salvation

endanger every self-belief

the meaning of it all

lead to more questions

do they have the guts

to put it all together

to scream in silence

(fade)

(fade)

fading in silence

the night crawls

the sun sets deeply

no more cloudy days

no more sunny days

it's silent

it's creepy

welcome to every brain's nightmare

welcome to his life

as ive been posted earlier that becks sits comfortably on the 1st spot as the most sexiest footballer. i didnt know there was a vote being conducted, if i had i wouldve said yesss. anyway, there were few articles stating about yesterdays match and england won by 2-1. well, i still think its too early to say anything as switzerland are not in fight of a title. its a friendly game and im 100% convince that it wouldve taken goliaths to beat swiss at their own turf. sad to say, i didnt watch the game myself so i cant give a fair comment on their performance. i hope becks can prove to the haters how he can do more than just lip service. i have never seen a player who can talk as much as david bentley, well except jermaine pennat of course. he has been blabbering about how good he is and ready to replace becks coz hes so much better than the star himself. he feels that hes far better on his feet as well as his looks. well, if he says so. time will tell. if lets say, capello ditch becks and turn his head toward a much more young players, we cant say anything until he faces a problem like ste-c had last term. im glad becks is ready to play for competitive matches this march and has something to do this summer while his teammates bite their tongue watching other nationals play their part in EURO 08. go becks....we count on you....*sigh* wish there was coverage on LA Galaxy matches....

its a always been a good news if becks sits on top of anything. according 2,500 female football fans (conducted by the people's club) becks is still the sexiest footballer around. there are numerous names both young and experienced players such as francesc fabregas, joe cole, francesco totti etc. well, lots have been said about him but we still think hes the hottest around. i'll tell about it later....

"Your Guardian Angel"

When I see your smile
Tears roll down my face
I can't replace
And now that
I'm strong I have figured out
How this world turns cold and it breaks through my soul
And I know I'll find deep inside me I can be the one

I will never let you fall (let you fall)
I'll stand up with you forever
I'll be there for you through it all (through it all)
Even if saving you sends me to heaven

It's okay. It's okay. It's okay.
Seasons are changing
And waves are crashing
And stars are falling all for us
Days grow longer and nights grow shorter
I can show you I'll be the one

I will never let you fall (let you fall)
I'll stand up with you forever
I'll be there for you through it all (through it all)
Even if saving you sends me to heaven

Cuz you're my, you're my, my, my true love,
my whole heart
Please don't throw that away
Cuz I'm here for you
Please don't walk away and
Please tell me you'll stay woah, stay woah

Use me as you will
Pull my strings just for a thrill
And I know I'll be okay
Though my skies are turning gray

I will never let you fall
I'll stand up with you forever
I'll be there for you through it all
Even if saving you sends me to heaven
[to fade]

By The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus

random feelings

i love reading other people posts on their blogs, they very much inspired me in some ways. i love bloog-oh-ging as much as i love taking photographs and listening to music. well today i've finished watching ocean 13 and silent hill *for the 4th time* and currently still reading the 37th hour *by Jody Compton. the book is my fav genre, thriller detective kind of way *in another life i must be a very talented cute-detective harharhar*.

i remember the last time i visited my hometown *always glad to be back there*, i had tons of fun..the best laughters, the best daring gossips, and the best culinary-hunt ever. no matter how the government deal with lots of things i'm still in love with every inch of my country. i didn't choose this current loser-president so don't put the blame on me sickos put the fingers back to you.

blah, i hate when i talk about politics, it's damn complicated and pretty much full of filths and lies. sorry for the lack of photos..maybe next time i'll post some photos of me and my sist's faces and of course some of it will be about our daily 'boring' lives. ^_^

i'm out of ideas, my friends are getting married..hahaha they even asked me when am i going to follow their steps? hmm i have to say it's not my priority BUT never say never. my parents' happiness is definitely on top of my list, if it makes them happy insya allah i'll do it. maybe my wed-ceremony will be so much fun..having someone loves you back is definitely worth all the sacrifices in the world. i love the feeling of being loved, it's an amazing feeling.

i feel blessed *alhamdulillah*, hopefully i will continue feeling thankful.

off babes,

eisleyian got new bangs!

heart-sound

you fall
i catch you
your heart's broken into pieces
i mend it all for you
you crawl
i crawl behind you

you're ecstatical
i'm in no mood for a grin
you're happy
i'm completely forgotten
you're sleeping gracefully
i lie awake

do you see
the difference
between being there
and being invisible
but actually there?
i guess you're too busy to notice

promises
promises
promises
keep selling them
i keep denying them
they're bogus

why can't you and me
communicate lively
so explanations will come in handy
so we'll see deep inside of things
me and you keep on taking chances
that someday'll be regretted

confusion
starvation for truth
begging for mercy
will there be another chance to change?
do i know you?
or do i know you this much?

please don't despise, notice that something's terribly wrong. everything's always been under rug swept as if they were not old enough to communicate properly using their much-functioned brains. life goes on, this has been going on since they first met. the key to this maybe communication..but how to communicate when they don't even talk no more, no hi-goodbyes only feelings thats best kept inside they say. by keep on arguing in silence, sudden make ups, and keeping everything wrapped inside it's unhealthy no more it's sick!

second thought

i'm having a sore throat.
that means flu too..
all of this suffering
because of allergies.
i truly hate this..


i've got new bangs that currently under tight-wrapped.
wonder what others will say?
hmmppffhh,
i'm bored
i'm going to take a shower
well to me that's a hard work
is it?
or a m i being too self-conscious?
blablablalalalala

take care,

eisleyian.

he may have been discarded, but he still david beckham. he had been rejected before but nothing could have stopped his passion for football. how many times we read from the headlines of newspaper all over england regarding his fitness and age. but no one doubted him when he replaced shaun wright-phillips after halftime during qualifier against croatia. peter crouchs equalising goal in the 2nd half (courtesy of becks brilliant cross from right wing) put england on a comfort seat. after that second, the crowd was growing louder and confident england would be going to austria-switzerland after all. nightmare befall upon them and none shant forward. his life goes on and contrary to what people say, he will never die crying on something like this. england might win matches without him but i doubt becks will ever be jealous of his teammates unlike some of them on him. its never been about 100th cap to him. his prioriy of course, helping his team to qualify WC 2010. however, some people might misjudge his intention and quickly claiming him as ego maniac. but to many brits despair, this summer EURO 08 will take place and they can do nothin except sitting in living room watching tv with their hands both cupped against their ears while becks is busy playing his part with LA Galaxy. hopefully, he will be able to play all matches unlike his first season which he had to sit out watching his teammates crashing down. i just wanna say....happy summer for all england players...

well, im back but not too pleased with things that happen at the moment. connection has been really slow and havent been able to do much. i am trying to upload photos though unsure whether it'll work. theres a warning sign below stating my unstable connection and soon it disconnects everything between my world and the others. i know i must act before it crashes down; once fallen, we are well drowned below. i can merely guess what will happen in the next few days. temptation holds me close and ready to pounch everytime i turn my head sideways. i hate the feeling of being pulled in two different directions; turning hard left and find myself against gigantic walls along the line; choosing right path isnt the best way of goin away from all hell loose. decisions cannot be made in a day and certainly isnt possible to be taken far off from the deadline. difficult but yet so simple. all are fading away....your image is also glowing at the same time. those tingling touches remain steady on my skin; never goes away....dashboard confessional....

i am deep down in **ithole. what can i say? i am, a person who is far from perfect. in times, i'd scream out of rage. and other times i'd sit back and watch people passing me by. its no secret i'd love to see my wishes come true esp when it comes to my passion. its true that nobody should go beyond limits, but im not finished; not just yet. ive been denied few times before and i wont back down, esp now. anyway i have read an article from goal.com and had to grimace a couple of times reading so many headlines about becks exclusion from the squad. heres a good response from becks before the announcement and brilliant comments from managers in premiership...

The 32-year-old insists he will not call time on his international career. Speaking before the announcement of his omission, Beckham said: “I have always said I want to be available.“That’s what I did when Steve McClaren dropped me.
“Deep down, I did not think I would ever play for England again.
"So to be on 99 caps is great. It’s more than I dreamt of. If I am not in the squad, I will carry on working hard and trying to get back in.
“I won’t get bitter and twisted because I am old enough and I have got enough respect for the manager to realise that if it does not happen, life goes on.
“I have been lucky enough in my career to come back from tough times and disappointments.
"If it doesn’t happen [winning a 100th cap], I will come back from it again, in my way. If it does, then great.”

But speaking on Friday, four Premier League managers begged to differ.
steve bruce

"Most would say he deserves it," said Wigan boss Steve Bruce of a potential 100th cap.
"I've known the lad since he was boy and I'm sure David won't give up the ghost and will still be determined to get that 100th cap.
"I'm sure many people will feel the way he's led the country and been a good ambassador and what he's brought to English football means he deserves it. I do sincerely hope he gets the opportunity to get 100 caps.

O'Neill

Speaking to BBC Radio 5 Live, Aston Villa's Martin O'Neill agreed. "It would be great for him to get 100 caps, he deserves to," said the Ulsterman, who had five of his own squad called up by Capello.
"I'm sure the chance will come around again. I take on board Mr Capello's view that he has not played for a considerable time and I know that the idea of just earning caps for the sake of it is not in Capello's nature. Having said that, if there is anybody in the last decade who deserves 100 caps for England then it is David."

Redknapp

Harry Redknapp, meanwhile, opined that if Capello did have doubt's over the players fitness there was surely no better time than to award him the honour of the international century than in the forthcoming game against Switzerland. "I thought this friendly would have been a great chance for David to get his 100th cap. He deserves it," said the Pompey boss.
"He's been a terrific player. There is a problem because he's playing away (in America) now but I don't think it would have done any harm to play him. It would have been nice to give it to him in a friendly and if the manager then didn't fancy him we could have moved on from there."

Wenger

Beckham has been voluntarily training with Arsenal during the American close season in order to maintain match fitness, largely with a view to participating in February's Switzerland friendly. And having had the chance to see Beckham at the Gunners' complex in Hertfordshire, Arsene Wenger believes it's only a matter of time before he rejoins the England fold. "I hope he does get it because he deserves it and he works extremely hard," said the Frenchman.

i am deeply disappointed with capellos decision to leave out becks for upcoming match against switzerland. his reason was simply bcoz he has other options who he feels deserve to be appointed and 100% match fit. becks as we know hasnt had any offcial match since october 07. anyway, capello has hinted that becks still has a chance to prove himself as capello is ready to pick becks back in the squad when hes ready and 100% match fit and that means he has to wait until MLS season is starting. but it wont guarantee becks inclusion in the first squad. he has to, yet again, wait for capellos view about MLS league which many people regard it as a lower level compared to european football. well, i am devastated but becks has ample time to give his best for his team. if hes not picked, he already has 99 caps under his belt. not many players have the privilege to do so. he has to move on if lets say capello disagree with us, becks fans. whenever england facing trouble, becks has always been the scapegoat. perhaps, for the first time in many years becks will finally have his days off the headlines, from football perspective anyway. i understand he will not be playing for england for the rest of his life but, there it is. im gutted all the way to timbuktu. another article from skysport website (thx to beckham-fans online) noting arsenal players response after capellos announcement of his squad this week. enjoy...


Cesc hits out at Becks axe
Gunners star says Beckham should have won 100th cap

Arsenal star Cesc Fabregas has hit out at Fabio Capello's decision not to include David Beckham in England's squad against Switzerland.

The former England captain currently sits on 99 caps for his country and had hoped to use this month's friendly at Wembley to join an elite club.

However, with LA Galaxy in their close season, Capello has opted to omit the 32-year-old for his squad due to lack of match fitness and sharpness.

Beckham had been training with The Gunners in a bid to win a place in the squad and Fabregas believes it is a shame his ability has been overlooked.

Shame

"It's a shame you know because he's been training with us for a month now," Fabregas told Sky Sports.

"He's been working hard and it's a shame.

"I think there should have been a little more respect and the honour of 100 appearances given to him.

"Not a lot of people so do it, so it's a bit of a shame."

bored like hell.excited for tomorrow.chai-maniac.feeling stupid.tomorrow will be 'A' day.

songs will keep playing

reminding of every love

reminiscing the minute

that changed everything

take care tarxans. lovelovelove.

eisleyian's going to change the 'do!

time has played me as a fool....im running out of time....now i will be left behind by all those who are lucky enough to climb they way up to heaven. each day starts and ends in a way i never expect it to be. i am is what i am....cant accept defeat....unable to head start....finishing bottom and im drown to every sea im passing. im lost...what do i have to do....is it the way everything meant to be....once again....i fail to fly sky high....nothing i can do but cursing till the end....i have to start all over from the very beginning....is it worth all the tears....walk all the way around the world just to feel my fingers touch the wind blows

dodgy.sooo random.

1. If I looked on your bed right now,what would I find?

// my sister with her psp, pillows and bolsters, newspapers,



2. Do you go to the bathroom with the door open or closed?

// closed of course, you never know X)



3. Are your clothes ironed?

// yes



4. Sleep on your back or stomach?

// back



5. Are you a cuddler?

// could be



6. Are you single?

// singing-jingle? read my older posts, i don't blabber about my status HAH!!



7. Does someone love you?

// of crz many people are loving me harhar



8. What were you doing before this survey?

// went to toilet



9. What will you do after the survey?

// chat mebbe



10. Marriage or living together?

// MARRIAGE!



11. What shirt are you wearing now?

// nightdress



12. Do you believe in love?

// yeahyeahyeah



13. Do you de-label your beer bottles?

// i dont drink, next Q



14. Do you talk about your feelings or hide them?

// depends, privacy is something i hold dearest



15. Is there something you regret and wish you could take back?

// regret is like a sin the more you commit it the more you feel the heavy pressure. so no i try not to live everyday of my life thinking which is the most regrettable moment and wish i could take back.



16. First thing you do when you wake up?

// smile to my mom



17. What are you excited for?

// many.



18. What is the most adventurous thing that you did?

// being a girl scout once gave me adventurous opportunities



19. Who's the last person you texted?

// noone, i'm a bit lazy when it comes to texting harhar sorry..



20. Do you hate someone?

// don't hate, it's a complete waste of time



21. Do you tend to rip the paper off water bottles?

// no, better things to do



23. When you shut off your alarmclock, do you tend to fall back asleep?

// not really coz the alarm clock is ticking inside my head



24. If you were given the chance totake care of a monkey for a weekend,would you?

// no thanks



25. What is the current advertisement on the side of the screen?

// some sort of food advertisement



26. What are you looking forward to inthe next few months?

// my friends are coming from abroad in few months



27. When will you turn 50?

// harharhar i'm still young!



28. Are you ticklish?

// hixhixhix yes



29. Where do you wish you were rightnow?

// right here right now



30. What song are you currently listening to?

// tv adverts



31. Have you ever passed out fromdrinking?

// always sober ^ ^



32. Do you believe in cheating?

// disgusting!



33. What time did you wake up thismorning?

// right before my dad went to work



34. Do you have any cousins?

// many. huuuh



35. What makes you smile?

// it's simple, happiness kindness and good food



36. Who was the last person you talkedto on the phone?

// daddy..



37. Are you happy?

// no need for words



38. Are you hungry?

// had my dinner, and oranges



39. What was your dream this morning?

// don't remember



40. Do you like to shop?

// yeahyeahyeah



41) What side of the heart do you drawfirst?

// right



42) Can you dive without plugging yournose?

// cannot



44) What is your blood-type

// OMG!



45) Who would you want to be tied to for24 hours?

// lovelies..



46) What is a rumor someone has spreadabout you?

// many! the fact that i don't spread my own defensive lines made the gossips spread wider wilder and weirder.



47) How do you feel about carrots?

// nothing, it's good especially with soups



48) How many chairs are at the diningroom table?

// 4, but we usually have our dinner in the bar table



49) Which is the best Spice Girl?

// baby spice *hah!*



50) Do you know what time it is?

// late at night

take care,

eisleyian loving chai jelly tea!

GOODBYE SMILING GENERAL

He may have done things that others dont understand, but he had certaintly brought indonesia to success even though he had received allegations from around the world. he had passed away this afternoon; a leader whom we would certainly miss. your contributions will always be remembered....goodbye and may your soul rest in peace.

And now they have no chances
They fill the empty caskets
And leave you with your tears
And, oh, now we take our chances
We all will take more chances
Before our lives end, too

How could you have left us here?
You had friends, you had us, goodbye
Goodbye (break, break down)

Many Funerals - Eisley. heath ledger passed away tho i don't consider myself as a fan but he was famous for his controversial role in brokeback mountain. it will be a be a big loss for hollywood but he'll soon be replaced by new actors, no offense that's just how it goes there. after brad renfro's death, i was hoping other upcoming actors would learn that drugs and unhealthy lifestyles are the silent killers. even bodyguards can't save you from them. but tinseltown never learn a damn thing as usual. theyre the idols and they behave hideously, no wonder world has gone into a big wild jungle with so many loudmouth tarxans. i'm curios what's his cause of death. any suggestion?

stay away from drugs,

Eisleyian