You Are The Fool

You are a fascinating person who is way beyond the concerns of this world.Young at heart, you are blissfully unaware of any dangers ahead.You are a true wanderer - it has be difficult finding your place in this world.Full of confidence, you are likely to take a leap of faith. Your fortune: You are about to embark on a new phase in your life.This may mean changing locations, jobs, friends, or love status.You are open about what the future will bring, and free of worry.You have made your peace with fate, and you're ready to start down your new path.

http://www.blogthings.com/whattarotcardareyouquiz/">What Tarot Card Are You?

You Are The Chariot

You represent a difficult battle, and a well-deserved victory.You tend to struggle to get what you want, both internally and externally.You excel at controlling opposing forces, getting down the same path.In the end, you bring glory and success - using pure will to move forward. Your fortune: There is great conflict in your life right now, either with yourself or others.You must find a solution to this conflict, which is likely to be a "middle road" between the two forces.You posses the skills to triumph over these struggles, as long as your will is strong.You are transforming your inner self, building a better foundation for future successes.

http://www.blogthings.com/whattarotcardareyouquiz/">What Tarot Card Are You?

You Are The Magician

You are powerful and wise - beyond what anyone can see.Deeply complex, you have the resources to connect to the spiritual and material world.You posses the knowledge to manipulate your life and the lives around you.You also have a great healing power, should you choose to use it. Your fortune: You have unhidden powers that you have yet to tap into. Soon, you will better understand how to use your intellect and intuition. Believe it or now, you will discover how you can manipulate yourself and others for good.You are at the beginning of a path of spiritual enlightenment.

http://www.blogthings.com/whattarotcardareyouquiz/">What Tarot Card Are You?

You Are The Lovers

You represent ideal love: innocence, trust, exhilaration and joy.You demonstrate the harmony of opposites, two sides coming together.At times, you also represent the struggle between what is right and what is tempting.Control is an issue for you, especially when you don't know your reasons for choosing something. Your fortune: You have an important choice you need to make about love, and it will be a difficult choice to make.You are likely struggling between the love you crave and the love that is right.In the end, you will choose what you crave, even if it's bad for you.Because without what you crave, you will feel empty and incomplete.

http://www.blogthings.com/whattarotcardareyouquiz/">What Tarot Card Are You?

haa haa haa!!!! it's funny with the same name i have different tarots everytime i submit my name (just go back and fill your name another again). well at least i had the best laugh because of this. anyhow i only believe if it's already happen or God let that happen in my life, beside only God knows me not some tarot cards..but at least i get to humour myself. no offense, but we have different views rite?

see ya on my next boring post tarxans,

*gooners4Life*

bloo-blooo-bloog-blooog-bloooging!!!

HHOOOORAAAY! God blogging is so damn addictive. there were days when i didn't feel like writing but the last few days until today, i've been busy with lappie just to update or even put some pictures on my blog (well i'm sharing with my sist but it's considered mine anyway haha). maybe it's because that i'm romantically linked with this blog, from freelance blogger -) quite fulltime blogger hee hee. my sist is currently eating all she can eat (she's no ogger but she craves for snack a lot hee hee). on tv currently is a political programme that mom and sist are watching, and yes i'm not like other ignorant cows. i do pay attention to what goes around me. i hate when girls are flashing off their bellies just to search attention or to look good in front of boys. it's nasty! really, girls should have pride (doesn't mean you have to be egocentric) and they should love themselves. i feel sorry for them, because what they're doing might they regret in the future (hate to say those words).

growing up, i was very normal. i wanted to do this and that, i wanted to know what are the consequences if i did that or even what happened if?. luckily i have the best pair of parents, i have a very discipline sist. my dad had a very busy schedule so all the learning lesson was with my mom and my sist (doesn't mean i didn't learn anything from my dad), my mom was very much open minded. there were rules, there were consequences, but i enjoyed my youth..my sist was even more normal than me. i was rebellious and i did more mistakes than her. i was fortunate she was always there just to get mad at me or even to cover up my mistakes. until now,i feel proud i never rush my youth just to be older than i was. i enjoyed my life, i struggled to have fun but at least i have tasted the good and bad sides in life. i lost few best friends (i believe due to inconsistency, fate, and of course our tender age had made us strangers).

in the middle of growing up from teenager to adolescent, i was busy falling down deeper so i had no time to waste my time in clubs, making a scene with guys, or even do what teens are doing right now. i had my freedom without even asking to my parents, i had no problems with my family coz they mainly said yes to me during weekends. right now i fully understand why my mom always had some rules that i had to abide or why she made me promise not to do evilish things. because my grannie always said to her *no matter how far someone touches your feelings don't let your virginity be taken by that person*. she must be proud coz both of us have grown with self-pride and deep faith in God, and our love for family.

i didn't have any real friendship that i can be proud of in the past. if not them leaving, one of us must had had beef and then fell out. even, during my last senior year noone wanted to be friends with me, with stupid reason! although at times i admit i miss the ambience, the laid back schedule, but with memories like that i bet my patience can't be tested TWICE! thanks for the offer but i'll pass on if there's even a real reunion. noone wanted me near them why should they bother to say hi to me now? it's not even near rage but as we all know tarxans i had had enough with them and their blabbering mouth! well at least i'm all grown up, prefer not to meet them or even hear what happen to them coz it will only signal my scars. and i really-really don't want to be the one end up reminiscing what they did when they're already moving on.

finishing, i don't do drugs (never except painkillers only after meeting my dentist), i don't smoke, i don't drink, and i don't practice free sex. pheew, i feel proud of myself because of what i went through i still stand tall in front of my haters and i still hold my pride and dignity close to my heart. being woman doesn't mean any guy can intimidate me. Thank God for protecting me from evilish actions, and from hatred.

see ya on my next boring post tarxans,

*gooners4Life*

a letter filled with belief.

every prayer

every thoughts

goes out to you

scream out

every hope

every fulfillment

if theres a will

maybe theres away

no matter if its the high way

or the street kind of way

beneath the same sky

we continue

our journey

you to the west

me to to the east

it''s contrary

it's never easy

don't stop

don't fade

the human side of you

let the joy
brings out your smile
let the harmony
brings out the best in you
let the faith
brings you home
let the fate
brings you life
let the path
brings you another phase

another again, will it be decided soon enough?

hopefully it will bring back the happiness

once fade away, wiped by emotion and rage

the horrorscope,

tele-scoping through another glass,

a flower soaks in a bathtub made of

hope.

The Bottom Line
The level of romance in your life is about to go up, up, up! Anything is possible.



In Detail
A hot romance that is going on in someone else's life could be causing you to turn a bit green with envy -- but why? Take a look at what you've got going on right now and you'll soon see that the grass is not greener on the other side of the fence. Stop obsessing about what is missing from your life, and start appreciating what you have. You have a lot, and there are plenty of people who wish they were you. Your time will come, but in the meantime you must live in the moment.

_______________________________________________



a horrorscope, i took from a page that i rarely gave attention to, but it's very interesting comment about my horrorscope. anthing is very much possible hee hee..maybe it is! i don't (want to) believe in horrorscope BUT if it's a good one for me i always highlight them (LAME!). i'm in a stage where i feel very much GRATEFUL for what i have, altho i know that so many boulders on the road i have to go through. as long as i have GOD, and my loyal supporters i believe that no matter what i can always lean on them.

it's not about searching for the missing pieces

BUT

it's about being grateful for what i have in my life

if i continue complaining about what i might not have in my life, that's a waste of time which is a SIN. i might not have everything i want BUT i still feel grateful that i have special unique things that not many possess in life. feeling grateful is the only thing i can do (beside sending my every prayer) to repay GOD's gifts to me in life. maybe with being a good human being (with marvellous attitude) around other people, and loads of gratitude in my heart someday eternal happiness will come to me. suffering is the only door to happiness so i don't mind to suffer (first) and have endless smile after that. i'm not ambitious, i prefer to enjoy my life as it is. just like my mom, i go with the flow..

it means nothing

if i haven't got you..

life is full of surprises so let it unwrap thousand of surprises for me without me planing 'em. life is a process of growing up, learning how to be tough, studying how to do this how to do that. but my life belongs to me, i enjoy every bit of it, i enjoy making mistakes coz by making loads of mistakes i will learn in the future how to avoid making mistakes. if one of us was born prefectly, maybe we'd be nowhere near the ground.

btw, this is the third time i have to log in to blogger due to internet explorer problems (tell me once again why do i still have to stick with ie?).

see ya on my another boring post tarxans..hee hee

*gooners4life*

this is an interesting article from tribalfootball.com. i was quite surprised reading this as all people already acknowledged, WC 06 was indeed a match of all time. however, i was wrong as statistics showing below, more and more people are watching english premiere league. arsenal and man utd are no doubt the center of attention since only God knows when. especially when both teams were captained by controversial patrick vieira and roy keane for arsenal and man utd respectively. matches involving both teams have always been a good match to watch. yesterday, arsenal were showing the visitors how serious they are to retain champions this season and will not back down as easily as man utd thought would be. its goin to be a tough season as we knew it would be and i am pretty sure wengers rotation policy will excel.


Arsenal's Man Utd clash drew bigger audience than World Cup final tribalfooball.com - November 04, 2007

Yesterday's clash between Arsenal and Manchester United was watched by more people than last year's World Cup final between France and Italy.

The Times says the battle of the Emirates was watched by an estimated one billion people, the highest ever TV audience for a Premier League game. A spokesman for the Premier League confirmed that the match was available in 600 million households in 202 countries. As Sir Alex Ferguson said after the 2-2 draw: "No one will be asking for their money back".
If those figures prove correct, more viewers tuned in to watch the Gunners v the Red Devils than switched on for the 2006 World Cup final, which reportedly drew 715.1 million viewers across 214 countries

From The Sunday Times

November 4, 2007
England recall for Beckham

Joe Lovejoy

David Beckham will be restored to the England squad next Friday and is due to win his 98th cap in the friendly international against Austria in Vienna on November 16.
Steve McClaren, whose position as head coach is in jeopardy, is to recall the former captain in the hope that he can inspire the against-the-odds revival England need if they are to qualify for the finals of Euro 2008 next summer.

McClaren travelled to Los Angeles to speak to Beckham yesterday, and intends to include him in the squad he names on Friday.
The season in the US has finished for Beckham’s team, Los Angeles Galaxy, who failed to qualify for the playoffs, and the plan is use the friendly in Vienna to bring him back up to speed in preparation for what could be the decisive Euro 2008 qualifier, at home to Croatia five days later.

England will have effectively been removed from contention by then if Russia win in Israel on November 17 – their final match is at the group’s whipping boys, Andorra, who have lost all 10 of their qualifying matches – but McClaren clings to the belief that “the Israelis will do us a favour”, and has turned to Beckham with that eventuality in mind.

McClaren dropped Beckham immediately on taking over from Sven-Göran Eriksson after the 2006 World Cup, explaining at the time that he was looking for more pace and mobility than the 32-year-old could provide.

Beckham made his England debut in Moldova in 1996 after England’s successful Euro 96 campaign, in which they reached the semi-finals.

He joined a team that still had Paul Gascoigne, Alan Shearer and Paul Ince as part of its make-up.

During that time he has scored 17 goals, although the two sendings-off have been a red mark against his name, particularly his pointless dismissal against Argentina during the 1998 World Cup finals, the repercussions of which made him enemy No 1 at football grounds in England.
Last year’s finals were expected to be the last time that Beckham put on an England shirt, but the coach was forced into a U-turn after a series of disappointing results. Beckham was restored to the team for the friendly against Brazil, England’s first match at the new Wembley.

He kept his place for the qualifier away to Estonia and another friendly, at home to Germany. The next day he played all 90 minutes in LA Galaxy’s 3-0 defeat by Chivas but sprained his right knee in the 33rd minute of the SuperLiga final against Pachuca a week later and was out for six weeks.

He returned as a 68th-minute substitute in Galaxy’s penultimate match of the season against the New York Red Bulls, making it a total of 145 minutes of football in the 10 weeks since the Germany game.
McClaren is looking to him for salvation after the 2-1 defeat by Russia in Moscow last month, which left England’s fate in the hands of others. Beckham is earmarked to replace winger Shaun Wright-Phillips, who was unimpressive in the defeat in Moscow and is no longer sure of his place in the Chelsea team.

McClaren refused to comment on his intentions last night, but informed sources at the Football Association confirmed that Beckham was back for one last hurrah. Well, we assume it will be a last hurrah.







i read this article from the sunday times and found it a lil bit depressing coz it didnt highlight becks achievements at all. there must have been an error while printing, anyway i doubt it anyway. from my point of view, england chances of qualifying is deadly slim. and if you have forgotten already, england only have one games left while their rivals still have an advantage of 2 remaining games. croatia already won their first encounter with england by 2-0. playing at home will get stec's boys all the supports they need, however, a win doesnt make england position even better. if russia won their game against israel they would crash englands hope of participating in euro '08. last match will be against andorra which have yet to obtain a win either at home or away. becks participation is obviously a stunt to save stec's face in front of englands fans. how far this would go? nobody knows. i am tired listening all those non sense already. becks has always been the scapegoat for all england losses. i am afraid he will receive one if england lose or russia succeed. well, i better wait and see. just cant wait to watch the game....best of luck to him and his team.

when will i see your face

(*jamie scott and the town*)

(Verse)

Here I Am, Everyday,
Since You Said, You'd Come Again,
But It's Not Fair, Cos You're Not Here,
I Wait In Vain, But Nothing Has Chaaanged,

I'm A Flower, Soaking In The Rain,
If I Could Wish One Thing, I'd Hear You Call My Name,

(Chorus)

So When Will I See Your Face Again,
When Will You Touch My Life Again (ohh yeah),
When Will I Breathe You In Again (ha),
I Think I Love Youuu...Will I See Your Face Again,

(2nd Verse)

Little Thing, Like The Rain Coming,
She Looked At Me A Certain Kind Of Way,
Tell Me Girl, Where Are You Nowww,
'Cos I Don't Know How Much Longer I can Waaait,

I'm A Dreamer, Waiting For The Sun,
When You're Coming In, I know My Life's Begun,
Tell Me Girl...

(Chorus)

When Will I See Your Face Again (ohh yeaaah),
When Will You Touch My Life Again (ummm um),
When Will I Breathe You In Again,
I Think I Love Youuu, Will I See Your Face Again,

(Bridge)

You Know That All My Life I've Been Waaaiting,
Waiting For Sooome, Someone Like You To Love Me,
You Can't Come By Like An Angel, Into My Life,
And then Fly Awaaaay, Flyyyyyy Away,

Oh Honey, Cos I, Uh Baby, Ba Ba Doo Yeah, Ohh ohhhh,
Sing, I've Only Seen Youuu, Oh, I Said, Uh huh, I Said I Said, Yeah (woo)

(Chorus)

When Will I See Your Face Again (I Wanna See You Once In My Life),
When Will You Touch My Life Again, (Wanna See You Twice In My Life),
When Will I Breathe You In Again (ohhh),
I Think I Love Youuu, Will I See Your Face Again,

I said, see Bap pa da doo ba ba (ohhh),
Bap Ba Doo Yeah, That's What We Do Yeaahhh (ohh),
When Will iii See Your Face Again My Friend,
Oh Yeah, I Think You Gotta Let Me Know Yeah,
Ohh Yeahhh...

the weight of my stare

1.) Whats worse: a one night stand or a bad relationship?
// both

2.) Is it easier to forgive or forget?
// fiuuuuhhh, it's easier said than done! it's never easy, i've been there and it was difficult. altho time really helped me got through it. when it comes to healing the pain time really helps me. but the scars never gone just to remind me what i went through in life.

3.) Can men and women be just friends?
// depends

5 .) All expenses paid vacation towhere?
// backpacking through europe with my sist (def!), have a relaxing vacation with my famz, and wherever which makes my mom happy.

6.) On the way to the electric chair -whats your last meal?
// scary q!!

9. ) Is flirting cheating?
// if he's single and i'm too why not BUT if we one of us/both are in a relationship it's not ok!

10. ) Would you rather have 1 greatfriend or 5 pals?
// prefer to have my loyal, honest, and sincere family with me

11.) If someone called you an assholewould you be offended?
// of course!

12 .) Are you ok with your significant other being friends with otherguys/girls?
// depends

13 .) Would you live with someone without being married to them?
// i prefer to get married first

14.) Favorite sports?
// soccer

15. ) Is toilet paper hung over or under?
// not both

16 .) Do you squeeze toothpaste from themiddle or the end?
// depends on my mood haha

18. ) Do you believe in angels?
// not really but i believe that someone can be angelic in some ways

19 .) Have you ever flirted with someone?
// someone did

20.) Ever kissed a random person andthen walked away?
// krazeeeee!!

22.) Is it ever ok to ask out your ex's best friend?
// aske my bff first..is she ok/what caused their separation?

23 .) If you could play any sport professionally, what would it be?
// my sist suggested for me to play soccer as a defender

24.) Ever broke up with someone and regret it?
// thank God no, they became me Xs because they deserted me.

25 .) Are you a jealous person?
// depends, i'm trying to be more sincere and patient

26.) Would you ever have plasticsurgery?
// hopefully no coz i got no intention

27 .) Has Chuck Norris ever come to yourhouse?
// neveeeer

28. ) Are you a beach, country or cityperson?
/ / cityminded, countrysoul, beachheart.

29.) Where do you spend most of yourmoney?
// i try to save it as many as i can

31.) Have you and your friends evergotten a piercing at a piercing party?
// not yet

33.) Can you change a car tyre?
// with my sist around i bet i could give it a try.

34. ) Would you consider yourself adventurous?
// not really

35. ) Can you shoot pool?
// no

36 .) Would you sing karaoke in front Of co-workers/friends?
// no thanks

37 .) Ever skipped school and spent theday at the beach?
// nope

38.) Single or ready to settle down?
// depends with my guy

39.) Have you ever sat and hoped for aphone call?
// maybe in the past

40.) Who's most important in your life ?
// Beside the almighty GOD, my famz, and hihihihiM

it's all brand new, maybe there's hope after all..

signing off,

*gooners4life*

deep inside, i realized its hard to imagine my life without ps2. even though ps3 is much of the news lately i still find my old lovely console irreplaceable. i bought 5 or 6 new games but didnt get a chance to try them. my fav still bully and currently looking for new candidates. '05 was the year of RE 4 and i agree (i usually do) with gamespot that it was the best game in that year. bully was next in my list and stayed there for about a year. but then came along new games that i havent had time to play them up till the end. i played god of war till halfway through the session before i had to stop coz cd wasnt working as it supposed to be. didnt help by cursing though coz i wont be able to play anyway. moving on to the next which is CSI: crime scene investigation. well, i must say it doesnt take my attention at first but as soon as my sis got so fuss about it i changed my view. i suggest to everyone who wants to try it to take training case first before goin to the real case coz you dont have to ask hints from senior CSI from time to time. we did badly on the first case but went on from rookie to master in the end. there are glitch of course, just like other games but overall i have to give them 6.5 out of 10. it was pleasant and unpleasant at the same time. anyway, i didnt give a glimpse my overview about god of war and i know its unfair to leave it that way. god of war, i believe, is much better than POP (prince of persia). it is better designed and written. gamers showered by numerous options on how they want to use their weapons and it is easy to use them too. i must say this is so far the best adventure-action game after resident evil of course. talking of which, there has been an addition to the series of RE. the new sist is titled Resident Evil: Umbrella Chronicles and from what i can say based on the new trailer posted in gamespot.com, is that it is a compilation of previous RE games. however, capcom takes us to see the story from a different angle. for some fans who are dying to see their fav heroes capcom is kind enough to let us once again playing those characters...hurrraaayyyy. one hero is missing which of course our fav character, leon s. kennedy. but most probably hes far too young and has yet to join the team...hehe. PS3 is in my long term list and while waiting for it to 'surrender' in my arms i can find something far more affordable. wii is one of the solutions apart from new ipod classic. the best solution above all is of course, save all my dimes till its the best time to spend them. well, i can say im not the best person to resist temptation in most ways. new cell phone, new ipod classic, new game console are the words circling my head right now and i cant help it. hopefully, i'll get over this spending syndrome soon rather than later. anyway, day by day i continue thinking of how am i goin to live my life without my game console. ooohh my gosh the words repeat themselves. i better be goin before i break myself loose.....

goo..goo..gooners4life

(arsenal4everyone)

so many stories i wanted to share BUT, i didn't have my internet with me for quite a while so i was disconnected from the cyber world haha. i'm grateful my bruises that was caused by my clumsy-ness+goofy-ness few days a go are geting better each and everyday. my dad was eager to call my mom after that incident haha and yeah i learned many things because of that although i fell easily during this life of mine but only this time my brain works. as the lil princess in the family, everyone takes a good care of me to make sure i don't break things, fall down on my knees, or being goofy in front of other people. i suffered a lot because of this bruises, but i got through it and finally i learn that what people said about bruises are true! it will heal just give time a chance. though the scars will always be there for half of your life, you'll pull through. at least i have funny behind the scene story to tell everyone who'll ask me about the scars. (my dad'll fill you in on every detail!).

i'm listening to here we go again by paramore, and it's awesome. i can't stop repeating it. my sist is confused where do i get all this new bands, somehow i love exploring every aspect in music, i love exploring my passion in music although i don't play instruments i still have deep bonds with music, i love every genre..i'm excited to see how far my music has gone forward since my spice girls days. (still love spice girls!)

i'll post my thoughts the next few days hopefully, coz i'm currently busy with stuff.

God, bear with me..please guide me!

signing off,

(gooners4Life)

music isn't always like what you see on mtv

music is beyond borders

music is about being honest and sincere

What are you doing for today?

// i went out in a super heavy rain, it was worrying yet fun at the same time.

Last Valentine's day?

// dun really remember coz i didnt really celebrate it

Learn something today?

// many things, i love the fact that i'm learning different lesson each

and every day with every breath coming out from me.

Last song you heard?

// many! i love music...i'm listening to every beautiful music in life. i have different tastes in music, i don't categorized my kind of music at all.

Are you a vegetarian?

// noooo

The one thing you try to doeveryday?

/ / be a better person with better attitude

Best thing in the world?

// God, my family, his smile, patience, love, and kindness.

What would you do with 1,000plastic spoons?

// give it to my mom, she'd know what to do

What is the best thing about your job?

// being the only princess in the house is so much fun

What was the last conversation youhad about??

// some politic crap

Wh ere do you see yourself in four years?

// i dun want to hope beyond today,

my future's still a mystery to me and i like to keep it that way.

hopefully i'll be the best i can be.

still have Faith, God, my Family, and my loved ones with me (including himhimhim)!

Have you ever liked someone and nottold them?

// yeah, and it was the best for me anyway.

i learned the hard way, but it was all worth it.

Have you ever had a crush on your sibling's friend?

// who doesn't?

What does your shout out means?

// being grateful.

What does your default photo means?

// sisterhood

What ' s your current problem?

// obstacles in life: many. but with God,

and my supporters by my side i know

i'll get it through in the end with a big grin on my face.

What ' s the name of the song that's stuck in your mind right now ?

// love many songs, especially songs by eisley, nfg, paramore

(here we go again acoustic version), beirut, vampire weekend, one republic, stereophonics, kate nash, etc.

What was the last movie you watched?

// fracture..it was awesome

Last words?

// just to let you know that i'm alright

can't say that i'm sad to see you coz i'm not.

music saved me from sadness

music brought me back to life

music never stops

music is my life

(gooners4life)

love...love...love is in the air. lovestoned as it is. the gunners leveled the game with liverpool and now arsenal are sharing points with man utd although arsenal have slight advantage with a game in hand. huge disappointment clouding me coz missed lpool vs arsenal match and most probably will miss the next important match against man utd. i strongly disagree with christie ronaldo statement that whoever wins the game on saturday will be the champions. noting barca unbelieveable performances midway through the season didnt make them champions. it all depends on luck and how key players playing their part throughout the season. well, i guess i have to wait and see how the result goes. i still have faith though with arsenes army they have yet to disappoint me, hopefully not.

//umbrella for the ladies//

i'm very much tired and sleepy, for odd reasons. i want to listen to my ipod but it's basically prepared for 2moro (me and my family are going for inter-city round trip). in less than few days i'm going (again!) to have my nearly dead-brain relaxed for a while. haha. it's so funny, while i'm busy writing my mom's waiting for her pasta to come from the kitchen (my bro's a ogger and he eats EVERYTHING!!). i have this new digicam and it's the cutest thing that ever came to my life. mwahmwah!

now everyone in my family is eating pasta, my bro's eating his 2nd plate hohoho. and i'm still busy reading eisley's journal. i love their posts, especially sherri's not only she's the only one who posts almost everyday but she's so funny. heart EISLEY! owh gosh i'm so damn sleepy and i haven't packed my stuff for my escapade. the temperature is very much low these days, pheeww, hate this. hope i'm not catching cold soon. am i the only one who's having problems with myspace? i miss my page, tho usually i don't check it very often but still i have few friends there.

i still feel surreal that i have friends that are either no longer single, still single, married, having babies, or even divorced (sadly, but life must go on rite??). i still feel like the same old disneyprincess girl but grown wiser of course. someday i believe i will get married with the right man who deserves me and who truly loves me for eternity. haha true disney fan don't you think? but deep inside i believe that life isn't always sweet but life surely is tasty! i just want to have my happiness lasts for lifetime..haha evens shrek had bumps with fiona. but still with my own puzzle made of brain i still think that marriage isn't on top of my list (sorry!). still have my own priorities in life, however if my mom ask me, then i'll do it haha as if! i will try to do anything to please my parents (including using my dad's lappie instead of mine in my room just to be sighted!).

i'm very sleepy rite now, better signing off before my dad uses his ogger power just to make me go to bed hihihi. hopefully i can pos something in the next few days before i'm off to a very relaxing escapade. and for those who haven't heard eisley go check them out on youtube!

signing off,

dad'slilprincess

my bff 4 ever..

as i read one of sherri's post on her band's site and it was about her sist (stacy) 19th bday , i was inspired to write somethng about my lovely sist.

happy bday stacy!!may god bless you and keep writing good stuff!

so her words remind me of my own half/soulsist/dnarelatedsist/bff4ever/myeverything. and yeah i feel blessed having her with me coz she was the only one who stood by me even when my friends turneed their back against mine (well my mom didn't know and i didn't tell her coz i know she'd FREAK OUT!, my dad was busy working all around region, my bro was always invisible haha). ok it's a lame issue but still it happened, and i can't just say im over it can i?. we both shared EVERYTHING, i really mean every single thing in our lives are shared. we both are very well connected, sometimes i feel like both of us are twins when the fact is we're not(sadly). well i'm a nosey when it comes to her private issues haha, (now she's been calling me names coz i'm ruining her sweet time with my dad's lappie hohoho).

2moro i'm going to see my sist's friend after long time no see, we intend to have dinner together and spend hilariously good time together. i'm very close to my sist's friends.. we have special bond i guess..like she with my old friends. there's special connection between me and my sist's friends, the funny thing is we have known each other since i was in junior high but i seldomly spend my time with them. i was shy and quiet around them until 2/3 years a go when we first went to a sport tournament (or maybe before that but i don't really remember).

we both argue (a lot) every single day, we have differences that's why sometimes we're incompatible but at times we're also inseperable. i don't trust anyone like i trust her (beside God, and my mom), she's still mad to most of the people who've hurt me and i can't stop her from getting mad. it was very personal and very much damaging to me, my sist knows exactly how i felt and how i had to deal with that back then. she's very honest, sincere, humble, kind-hearted, funny, moody, KRAZEEE, annoying, stone-headed just like my dad, very nice, and (i had to stop coz my mom asked me to got to kitchen to pick somestuff be back in a sec) wait..where was i owwhh, yes about my sist..she's not the most patient person, she's XTRA funny when she's in a goood mood but don't come near her when she'snot in the moood (except for me coz i always bug her even when her good mood button is off/damaged haha). the best thing about her is she's very loyal, and of course she's the best advisor in the world (beside my mom+dad, and almighty God).

she's my mentor in soccer, she knows everything about soccer, she's amazing! tho i have my dislikes list about her but i won't disclose it for now (keep it for later hoho). i've always been the nosey and centerofattentionlilmiss, but she's never ever for once get jealous with me. it's good to know that i have my own fans that'll never turn their back on me hahaha..

lovvveeee y'aaall!!!!! i love my God, my parents, my sis, and my bros.

thank you God, i'm speechless now i truly believe that everything's in Your hand.

peace out!

"thenorthlondoner aka the lilsist"

usually i'll put down some notes about football but nothing comes to mind at the moment although i do have something bothering my head lately. its been two weeks astro hasnt managed to telecast live of real madrid matches. i was hoping to watch their match soon after arsenal big win against derby county. however, my hope was dashed and felt anxious coz astro has never failed to air real madrid matches since becks arrival 4 yrs ago. and now suddenly, they have been scrapped off the list. i hope astro can give better answers this time. i still a fan of becks but i do like watching real madrid play their games as well. anyway, england will play against estonia at home and win the game, as predicted by most ppl. and then, fly over to russia to have a visit. they won the first match against russia and hopefully they can win this time. russia is a lot stronger at home than visiting. england form is pickin up lately but without the in form striker michael owen, i doubt they can make a bigger scoreline. some ppl will say there will be replacement for injured players, however, will they be as good as the injured? no one knows. i just despise seeing carrick playing on the center. he doesnt fit to play for england coz he loses possesion to much. again, becks will miss these two matches and i am not sure whether or not i am goin to watch those games. i just hope they will win so becks can still play his part in next matches. no, perhaps it will be good if england lose against russia so becks can play bigger part. still, i am not sure ste-c will play him. best wishes to him....hopefully he can play his final game with LA GALAXY

ten cent blues

Your favorite motto these days:
// getting older is a GUARANTEE but getting wiser is an OPTION, every single thing that have happened/ is going to happen in my life no matter if it's a good thing or a low key i take it step by step coz it could be a blessing in disguise.

What is important today?
// my DONUTS!!

Song most repeated today:
// eisley's songs

Song that makes u sad lately:
// i had tears in my eyes when i listened to i don't wanna know yesterday. it's inexplainable, i hate to admit it was unpredictable that thing happened in my life.

Song that makes u smile lately:
// vintage people by eisley, it's a cute song

Person you miss the most:
// granny

What kept you awake last night:
// csi vid-game

What wake you up this morning:
// my dad woke me up

What did you have for breakfast:
// choc pudding specially made by my mom

What do you want for dinner:
// beef and chicken terriyaki..sluurrp

What are you enjoying at this verymoment?
/ / my life, my family,my loved ones and every blessing God has given me. my ipod, my digicam, my cellphones, and everything in between

What did you wear yesterday:
// play vid-games

What youre wearing now:
// pyjamas

What youre thinking to wear for the next party:
// my LBD

Lately Ive been doing:
// some thinking and soul-searching

Lately Ive been busy planning:
// my next crime scene (on csi vidgame)

Last concert I went to:
// some concert few years a go

Ne xt concert I want to go:
// eisley or NFG!!

Last gift you received:
// my red-cam (it was the best surprise i ever have in my life)

Last gift you gave:
// in few days me and my sist will be giving some gifts for our friends

Place I go the most these days:
// myroom, my mom's room, different malls,etc

Place you want to go:
// emirates stadium, disneyland in calif, and backpacking through europe with my sist.

I am looking forward to:
// my dad buy new lappie hahaha

Hopefully :
// i can always be hopeful, honest, patient, and up to my parents expectations.


ONE OF YOUR SCARS, HOW DID YOU GET IT?
// i have two scars on my left arm, i fell from my sist's bike when i was 6.i had four ops because of that luckily i survived. but inside, i have scars that will never be healed that's why i have trust issues with ppl from my past and i'm paranoid on certain hopefully i can fix it before i get too old haha

HOW ARE YOU FEELING TODAY?
// great tho i didn't get my DONUTS!!!!

WHAT SONG ARE YOU LISTENING TO?
// golly sandra by eisley

WHAT DO YOU WANT MORE THAN ANYTHINGRIGHT NOW?
// DONUTS!!

WHAT DO YOU MISS?
// having a long conversation mith my other bro

WHICH DO YOU PREFER HOTDOGS/BURGERS?
// depends

THE LAST ALCOHOLIC DRINK YOU DRANK?
// nope don't drink alcohol

THE LAST PERSON YOU WENT OUT WITH?
// my famz

WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE COLOGNE/PERFUME?
// gosh..this is hard!! ilove chanel+jean patou+versace red jeans+hermes+oscar de la renta coz those resemblance mymom and her beautiful personalities, marc jacobs, miss dior cherie, bvlgari, etc

WHAT KIND OF HAIR/EYE COLOR DO YOU LIKEON THE OPPOSITE SEX?
// anything will do ;)

COFFEE OR ENERGY DRINKS?
// swedish coffee

WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE PIZZA?
// beef pepperonni

IF YOU COULD EAT ANYTHING RIGHT NOW,WHAT WOULD IT BE?
// DONUTS

DO YOU SPEAK ANOTHER LANGUAGE?
// depends haha

DO YOU LIKE SOMEONE?
// yeah

FAVORIT E CLOTHES?
// my soccer jerseys!

WOULD YOU FALL IN LOVE KNOWING THAT THE PERSON IS TAKEN?
// usually no..hopefully never

WHAT IS THE BEST WAY TO TELL SOMEONEHOW MUCH THEY MEAN TO YOU?
// show them that u really care by being sincere, honest and kind.

SAY A NUMBER FROM 1-100
// 9

WHO IS THE PERSON YOU CALL OFTEN?
// noone coz i don't really call ppl usually ppl call me haha

WHAT ANNOYS YOU?
// bumps in my journey but i know with God with me nothing can stop me if He wants me to continue my life

YOUR WEAKNESSES?
// indecisive, impatient, moody well my sist can tell u the rest *she'll never stop*

FIRST JOB?
// being a good daughter hohoho

EVER DONE A PRANK CALL?
// when i was in elementary

WHAT WERE YOU DOING WHEN YOU FILLEDTHIS?
/ / listening to my ipod *it's eisley btw*

IF YOU COULD GET PLASTIC SURGERY, WHATWOULD IT BE?
// i feel blessed with what i'm currently, and my mom'd definitely kill me if she finds out that i want to do a plastic surgery

WHY DID YOU FILL OUT THIS SURVEY?
// better than doing nothing.

WHAT DO YOU WANT FOR YOUR BIRTHDAY?
// happiness that will last for lifetime, blessings for me and my family, and...

WERE YOU NAMED AFTER ANYONE?
// some gorgeous artist/model

WHAT DO YOU DO MOST WEEKEND?
// soccer-time!

WHAT IS YOUR PLAN?
// nothing in my life is mapped out. i prefer to take it step by step.

WHEN DID YOU LAST CRY?
// few months a go

DO YOU LIKE YOUR HANDWRITING?
// yeah

GOONERS4LIFE!!

(opening up)

i'm very much confused with people out there. they seem eager to jump into uncertain commitments that i as a person would think 1000x. i keep on telling myself that it's their views not mine and of course i'm not the same as them. mebbe it's because i've gone through lot more worst than what others might even have gone through in their lives. sometimes i think i'm paranoid, but if it's the best for me, why bother? being commited into your life, work, and family is very much hard to deal.



i'm still young and i never think too much about commitments, it's just that i'm holding back too much. i don't want to be the one ended up crying and regretting. if i'm going for a future together with someone, i'd love to have full preparation. i don't want one of us to regret our decision, mebbe i've been living in a big city too long so my mind-set is very much different from others. it's very2 complicated as it may seem, a commitment that sounds very hard to explain.



i'm in a process of growing up therefore i believe that throwing my young age for something useless is definitely not an option. i won't rule out getting married at young age tho..as long as me and him both are ready to be fully commited, and we have the blessings from both families. coz i won't turn my back from my family and i hope he's wise enuff not to turn his back too.



i've seen too many divorces, break-ups, and letdowns, i guess that's why i'm holding back too far. i'm focusing on my own life with my family and loved ones right now, i want to spend my time making them happy. it's not easy to search for the perfect one but i do believe if i'm a good person then i deserve a bright future with someone who's destined to be with me for eternity.



i understand why my sist's always advise me not to rush things, let it flow and be patient. i wish i could say the same thing to my colleagues, but it's not easy when you're blinded with your own feelings. i have a friend who's quite close to me, i'm very emotional and she on the other hand is very calm. we've known each other for quite some time now, but she went abroad and we're separated miles away. i do care about her, it's just that she never listens to me mebbe because i tell her the real deal and she can't accept that reality (does) bite. we've had our problems, somehow we managed to solve it by sweeping it deeply till i'm tired to keep it under rug swept. it's very much dysfunctional isn't?



i've never called her in 3 months, and we only chat online..i've missed out so much about her. mebbe it's the commitments we both made in our respective lives, we have to sacrifice our friendship. too many letdowns between us, she made her speech to me about her side of story. i stopped and listen, it's hard for me to digest i didn't expect for her to go through such pain. she wanted me to meet her, but i wasn't ready. till now i think i'm basically not ready for our reunion after years apart. i don't know why mebbe i'm waiting for the right moment just to look ate her and spill out every bean in my life.


Signing off,

_lilmisssunshine09_

greeting from all grown up kid

1.Your name plus "o"?

// something with 'O'

2. Two feelings at the moment ?

// blessed and grateful

3. What are you listening to rightnow ?

// the beat of my heart singing kiss me

4. A part of a song lyric that's inyour mind right now ?

// i'll get over you i know i will..from the king of wishful thinking covered by NFG

5. Describe where you are right now ?

// my comfy bedroom, it's a bit crowded rite now

6. What is your highlight of the week ?

// the gadget week!! yaayy!!, full of soccer week, and of course NFG's week!!

7. What are you craving to have rightnow ?

// watching NFG in concert..

8. Any unforgettable childhood memory ?

// everything about my childhood is memorable and unforgettable!!

9. A not-so-good childhood memory ?

// prefer not to disclose that

10. What are your nickname?
// so many

11. Any plans fortomorrow ?

// nothing..trying to be more patient!!

12. Your two plans for today ?

// be good and happy

13. Are you thinking of someone right now ?

// hehehe

14. Do you like party ?

// nope..don't do drugs, don't smoke, and of course i don't drink. hopefully i can live my life to the fullest in a healthy way.

15. Do you like twins ?

// uh-huh..soo adorable

16. Fill in the blank "I am ..

// what i am

17. Anything black in front of u?

// ps, pda, my sist cell

18. Say anything you like to say
// i want my NFG!!

19. Anyword you see in your pc ?
// hp pavilion

20. Who do you miss ryt now ?

// my dearest

21. Last friend you saw online?

// as usual -golly-

22. Are you in love?

// what more can i say

23. What do you like about night ?
// relaxing

24.If you were in a farm, what do youwant to see ?
// cute farmers haha

25. Last person who gave a comment to you ?

// -thegollykid-

26. Did you like it ?

// it was a plain one

27. Do you play an instrument ? Whatinstrument ?
// used to..i wish i could play tho

28. What song describes you now ?

// taking control by eisley..i'm a fan of eisley..theyre such a wonderful musician

29. What is your current annoyance?
// my ankle..it hurts!

30. Say it out loud!

// heellp..my ankle hurts badly

_lilmissloveeisley!_