cooling down..

so damn glad!! hee hee, alhamdulillah..can't stop saying that!

first thing you did this morning?

- woke up and met my mom

friends u've missed?

- those from my elementary days

who did u hang out with last saturday?

- today is sat..

what's annoying you right now?

- the inconsistency, doubts, questions, and fear

do you believe in long distancerelationships?

-sorry..but no, not for me i guess..hopefully never will because it's really2 hard to cope with.

where is the last place you went?

- toilet

who is the last person you called?

-my dad

who is the last person texted you?

- my dad

do you think that someone is thinking about you right now?

- hopefully =p

do you have a crush?

- as always hee hee

do you wish on stars?

- noo..i do love stars tho

when did you last cry?

- last month when i had a serious nerveous breakdown. luckily my mom was with me

are you keeping a secret from theworld?

- yeah, i do think that private stuff belong to me only!

do you have any pets?

- i had hamsters, birds, and fishes but they passed away respectively ="(

what is the color of your bedsheets?

- it's colourful

what were you doing at 9 last night?

- surfing net

last person you talked to?

- my sist

when is the last time you saw mom &dad?

- now i'm looking at them

are you a normally happy person?

- alhamdulillah, i'm grateful for what i have

what color are your eyes?

- dark brown

last person you hugged?

- my mom

how is the weather right now?

- cold

how about your breakfast?

- hot chocolate

how about your dinner last night?

- something extra special

do you love anyone now?

- yes definitely

cheese like the best food ever?

- i love cheeseeee

would you kill people if heaven/helldoes not exist?

- of course no..i don't have the heart

which is the best place to get an inspiration, bathroom or your room?

- my room!!the best!!it's comfeeeeeyyyyyy

do you ever think about the future?how you'll gonna die?

- to be honest no..i let God guide me i dun want to be extra bummed if i can't reach for something i want just go with the flow. secondly, i dun wanna know how i'm gonna die it's way beyond my imagination

miss school times?

- not really

how would you like to descri beyour friends?

- hopefully my true friends are loyal

Do you like anyone?

- yes

Waited all night for a phone call that never came?

- yeah! so damn pathetic, but i've come to a place where i

Sad and looked up at the stars?

- it's been too long since i did that

Do you believe in love at firstsight?

- no..

Who are you thinking of now ?

- someone worth my thoughts

How are you feeling now ?

- tired, sleepy, hoping to find answers

What are you going to do ?

- edit my blog, upload to imeem, search for more NFG videos

what were you doing before filling this out?

- talked to my mom

who would you like to see right now?

- JP!!!

are you friends with any of your exs?

- only with the first one..tho my Xs are jerks. if they were good they'd still be mine

if you could be with someone right now who would it be?

- JP..!! noone else but u hee hee

are you missing someone?

- yeah

most annoying thing about you?

- nothing hee hee

how about your day yesterday?

- good, full of surprises but i got over it

how about today?

- ok!hopefully 2moro is better than today

_lilmiss09_

wishes granted..

hmm, it's been complicated for me. but i know i have to be strong..Thank God i still have my family and i still have my faith in God. life is never easy but i still feel thankful because i'm still breathing and having my life on the right track. NFG songs keep me alive..heart 'em! i'm too busy to think about what people might wanna know/say/hear beacuse i have my own life and i think i have to balance my life with my priorities.

in case you haven't heard about mary higgins clark, try to read her book *daddy's little girl* it's light, sharp, and very entertaining. for me it's a good book. not only because i'm a daddy's little girl but the case is very much complicated. heart MHC! i'm reading the second time around also by her, and so far i love it. it's different from her previous books, and better! i love the way she portrays the main character. she's a champ!

thank God for youtube! i can see my fav band live at concert..longlive youtube!

owhh.. and one thing i'm so over my ex and my ex friend. mebbe theyre currently searching for my news which sadly NONE coz i've been staying low lately. so yes GTH will ya! i'm tired to be your fingger puppet. owh and for my ex friend *yes, u!* i had my hopes really2 high for us because i thought you were good but the fact is you're not. and now when i'm moving on why are you trying to fix it up..it's damn late just like what you did to me. you're dead to me. sounds harsh but that's the fact both of them doesn't deserve to be happy after what they have done to me. liars, deceivers, bitches, cowards, morons, and betrayers. owh and for my ex..u're such an idiot if you think you might getaway with your sins..i'm never gonna wish you well!hopefully you're not the one who's gonna get the last laugh scumbag!

enuff of swearing..at least i'm happy i did the right thing! thank you God hopefully i'll be better and of course with your blessings i'll do the right thing.

mistakes are lesson learn in time..never regret *though i regret for meeting people who have hurt me* because whatever happened in the past that's going to make you a very strong and determined person.

have a great life..

_lilmiss09_

finding *the one*

is like finding the right brush

for my hair..

why i said like that is mainly because as i grow wiser, it's getting more complicated to be in a serious relationship. i admit if someone propose me three years a go i might give it a go..but now, it's a heavy decision. firstly, i'd love to make both of my parents happy and proud of me. secondly, i'm definitely not ready for the big commitment because i still have commitments with my own life. as i grow wiser i think it takes more than love to make it work (it = relationship). life is never easy, so wake up and realize that life isn't always easy at times life can be bitchy. how can you be so sure he's the one? i think the only one who'll love me is God, almost second is my family.

marriage is not an escape..take it seriously. it's not about the wedding plans and honeymoon. it's about the responsibilities and the lifetime commitment. i totally disagree when young people are engaging in a very serious relationship because the victim is always the lady. take it easy, have fun *the positive ones*, and think with your brain not with your heart because heart melts but brain..it never will. i feel sorry when i read that most young marriages ended with divorce, mostly because the husbands are not ready to let go their lifesyles, their friends, and their egos. why when ladies are ready to be fully commited, men are still having the rights to have fun with their lame lifestyles? such a dissapointment. i'm not judging the women's right but i just want to know why are women rushing to be married when they already know the consequences and after few months they regret their decision. oh so L.A.M.E!

a friend of mine has already married with children, a friend of mine is having a baby without a husband, a friend of mine is eager to get married while i'm still the same 'ol girl but wiser and with better attitude. i know someday i'll be ready for marriage but not today or tomorrow. everyone's entitled to different opinions so am i. i don't like to discuss my status mainly because i don't feel it's the right thing to do it's just when the time is right maybe i'll do the honor to grab the microphone and tell all the people that keep asking me, the answer. i'm sorry it's just that for me what's private stay private. i'm not gonna kiss and tell because it's a SHAME!

my advice is, please think clearly and be wise..it's more than i love you, it's more than just the two of us, when you're married it's beyond your imagination! but if u're ready be my guest afterall i'm the spectator not the player. it's never easy, the sweet taste is only for one night the next day is still a big question mark. i'm definitely not a party girl so that's not the reason why i object premature marriage, i can cook, i can clean the house, do the housework, etc but for me marriage is something sacred. it's not something you can regret or take back your decision. it's final the moment you say yes to someone who proposes you!

my mom had my bro when she was 22, but that doesn't mean my mom freak out when i reached my legal age few months a go. she's very calm or even better she's very2 easy going. for her it's about meeting the best quality in someone not getting married at young age. i still have projects to do..though i don't plan but i hope i can settle down someday after i meet the right person just like i found the best brush for my hair heehee.

my grandma told my mom that giving birth is easy but raising your children is something extra hard. so please..make the right decision, think twice, at the end of the day it's your oqn decision. i believe God has given us the brain for us to think and decide which path we're going to pick. it's your choice leave God behind because if you fail it's not God's fault it's yours for making such a stupid mess. i believe God has created doors for us to pick, that's why we're being tested to be a better person. God has created different path, fate, and luck for each everyone of us. i hope i'm lucky enough to be a better person each and every day.

peace out,

_lilmiss09_

the love story

between moi

and NFG

i'm a hardcore fan of NFG (in case you don't know it's New Found Glory). the first time i know about them existing was when my ex gave me their cds. he dedicated a song called "dressed to kill" and i just laughed at his foolish act. so on the road home, i listened to the cd and instantly i fell in love with "my friends over you", "sonny", and "forget my name". but i didn't care about their whereabouts or even their names. so i kept the cd elsewhere, until few days before i graduated HS my ex gave me another cd. he thought i had already forgotten the song, but i still remember. on 2004 i saw NFg on TRL and i told my ex about their new song and their new album and he laughed at me beacuse he never though i'd still remember his fav band (he was amazed). love NFG

one day in 2004, i saw a lil bit of NFG's second single i don't wanna know. i was totally into that song..i had a crush back then and that song's definitely the anthem. though i was crushed by my crush, that song's definitely my fav of all their songs. i always love that video and the lyric, i was obsessed with the song. my sist hates NFG..though i know deep inside she sings to their song hehe. Thank God for NFG!

one day in 2006, i donwloaded NFg's songs coz i only have their stick and stones cd but it was in a poor condition coz it was kept carelessly (sorry!). and i listened to their latest single (on that time) which was it's not your fault and instantly it became my new anthem..because it pictured what happened to my sist at that time. i think since then i became officially NFG's biggest fan..heart NFG!

one day in 2007 (at some mall), i bought their coming home cd coz i couldn't find it elsewhere. and i was ecstatic even i still remember the shopkeeper might have thought i was another teenage girl who doesn't understand music. but when i paid the cd suddenly he tried to give the warm welcome (isn't a bit too late??). i love their new concept and i'm crazy for the songs in that album. heart NFG!

after boyzone, spice girls, limp bizkit, korn, slipknot, adema, etc..now it's NFG's turn to have all my attention! heart NFG

_lilmiss09_

when i'm mad

1. Your 'ex' and You
= are just part of the miseries that happened in the past.

2. I am listening to
= head on collision by nfg

3. Maybe I should
= be more grateful for what i have and stop dwelling for what i'm not having, be wise and have more patience so i can be a better person

4. I love
= God, momdadsistbro and those who're loving me each and every second

6. I can't understand
= why, how what, and who

7. I have lost my respect for
= those who are careless and those who have hurt me along the way

8. I last ate
= tako2 and i'm damn full

9. The meaning of my display name is
= the greatest invention by me..a mix between me and my sist

10. God
= is the best, loving, the One who'll always love and care about me no matter what

IS YOUR/ARE YOU

01. is your hair wet?
: nope

02. is your cell phone right by you?
: it's with my mom

03. do you miss someone?
: yeah, badly =""(

04. are you tired?
: a lil bit..i get tired easily

05. are you wearing pajamas?
: yeah and i'm sleepy

06. Are you mad?
: yes, with circumstances, and chances..
though i can't question God but still i'm mad at myself

07. are you upset?
: yeah..but not that upset

01. recently done anything you regret?
: mebbe

02. ever lied?
: yeah definitely

03. ever stuck gum under a desk?
: yes..

04. ever kicked someone?
: hehe

05. ever tripped over your own feet?
: uh-huh i'm the master of falling down to the ground easily

TODAY HAVE YOU:

01. have you cursed?
: not today, actually i don't really curse that easily except for something extra foolish

02. have you gotten mad at someone?
: yupp

RANDOM-

Q: is there a person who is on your mind right now?
: yes somebody someone i miss badly

Q: do you want children?
: hopefully i'll be ready by then

Q: do you smile often?
: of course i'm the sunflower

Q: do you untie your shoes every timeyou take them off?
: i hvn't wear shoes in ages.i always wear flats or wedges

Q: do you like your handwriting?
: kinda

Q: are you a friendly person?
: not really..but hopefully i'm

Q: who's bed other than yours do yousleep in?
: only mine but usually i sleep at my parents bed too

Q: what color shirt are you wearing?
: red

Q: what were you doing at 7pm yesterday?
: eating

Q. I can't wait for...
: all of my wishes to come true..

_lilmiss09_

it is one good article taken from everton FC (thanks to david beckham fans online), saying bout how becks cope with all the pressure he is now receiving. i can understand his admiration coz considering what he has experienced in the last few years has been overwhelming. does he deserve compliments? i guess he does. alan stubbs has somethin to say bout becks.

Everton’s Alan Stubbs has told evertonTV of his respect for David Beckham.
The former England captain is massive news over here in Los Angeles since moving across the Atlantic from Real Madrid and Stubbsy revealed that he is a big fan of what Beckham has achieved.
“All credit to him because he’s done everything really well since he came over here,” said the Blues defender.
“When Steve McClaren left him out of the England squad I think a lot of people thought that would be the end of him but for to come back after a lot of negative publicity, including being dropped by Real Madrid, is great credit on him.
“He’s had a massive resurgence in the last three or four months and he seems to be the type who thrives on people writing him off. A lot of players don’t have that in them but he’s proved all the doubters wrong and I really respect that.”

Stubbsy also insisted that he has every respect for the sheer consistency of Beckham over the years and also for the way he handles himself despite spending a large chunk of his life in the showbiz-like glare of constant publicity.
“I think there are two bits to him,” he said. “There’s David Beckham the footballer and David Beckham the personality. As a player, he has been top notch for fifteen years and he’s respected throughout the world.
“His lifestyle now is just the way it is and I think he’s used to it now whereas some players would hate all that. But he has adapted extremely well and he speaks fantastically well.
“He comes across as very humble and he seems to know where his roots are. I think him coming across here is a way of giving a bit back to football.”

HARRY POTTER THE FINALE


i put all my strength to write this post. it isnt easy to let go my true feelings toward jk rowling last masterpiece. i am not trying to be too emotional but i have been reading HP for the last 7 years and knowing there wont be any HP in the future has made my heart numb. do you wanna laugh? i think this isnt the best for it. true, i feel sad and disappointed but i know theres always an ending for every story written.

and the entry goes like this...


finally, i finished reading HP7. despite my packed schedule i finally be able to finish it in less than 3 days, but it is still way too long from my desired time line. i was expecting 2 days only as i had done with the 5th book. anyway, on the 21st of july 07 the book released and as we all know die hard fans have anxiously been waiting this moment. WB have anounced that they received less amount of ticketing sales during weekend coz many people decided to lock themselves out for few days to finish reading the book. i dont mind though, coz i have watched the movie and dont think it isnt one of the best movie i ever watched. it may be due to the unseccessful story of itself. it isnt one of the best book ever written by her, not my favourite either. when i got home i quickly grabbed the book and isolate myself from other being. i wanted to finish reading the book as quickly as possible coz i couldnt wait to tell my view to my friends. however, after finished reading it i felt horrible and a lil sad coz knowing that there will be no HP books in the future no matter what i'll say. she ends it with so much dignity. she doest disappont me at all and hopefully, the rest of the world. stories and secrets are unravelled as we go along and i can promise you that this last serie will not make your day as grey as london weather. i am completely saisfied with the story and encourage others to read it as well, if you havent got one already. i will not review HP7 today, at least not just yet.

probably i will spend the next two days thinking how my days ahead will not be cherished by the excitement of the next HP books. my only hope is that WB will not disappoint the fans on how they visualize precious masterpiece like what they have done to the last movie (order of phoenix).

so the entry ends here...

yihaaaa....harry potter 7th and final edition is available today!!! i have in my hands a pre order coupon to collect a copy of the 7th book. will i be satisfied by the story? i dunno and right now all i wanna do is to get some sleep coz tomorrow, we all be greeted by the sun shining down on my window pane. harry potter...get ready coz we are coming to get you.....

we'll be telling our views after finished reading the book......let the game begin.....

Hollywood breathlessly awaits Beckhams

An exclusive bash this weekend to be hosted by Tom Cruise and Will Smith will welcome L.A.'s newest celebrity couple to town.
By Claudia Eller, Times Staff WriterJuly 19, 2007

Global soccer icon David Beckham has made it clear he wants to be a star on the field — not on the screen. Nonetheless, Hollywood is expected to be scrambling like a striker chasing the ball to get some face time Sunday night with the Brit-turned-Beverly Hills estate owner and his glamorous singer wife, Victoria.Two of Hollywood's biggest stars — Tom Cruise and Will Smith — are hosting a private, welcome-to-L.A. bash for the Beckhams at the Museum of Contemporary Art's Geffen Contemporary in downtown Los Angeles.The 600-person, invitation-only list includes Oprah Winfrey, George Clooney, Jim Carrey, Anjelica Huston, Steven Spielberg, David Geffen, producers Jerry Bruckheimer and Brian Grazer, Warner Bros. President Alan Horn and Universal Pictures chief Ron Meyer. Not invited inside: the paparazzi that have followed the Beckhams' every move here."This is the hardest party to get into," said one person with knowledge of the affair, "It's A-list only. And, no press.

"Beckham's name was up in lights before with the 2002 independent film "Bend It Like Beckham," but he was not a member of the cast (an airport sighting at the end was played by an actor). He did appear in file footage, and received a "special thanks" in the credits for lending his name to the title.Beckham's sold-out debut for the Los Angeles Galaxy is set for Saturday night, although a tender ankle could limit his play.However, he should be fit to party by 8:30 p.m. Sunday for what is expected to be the hottest ticket in town. While event planners are trying hard to keep all details under wraps, no doubt the next few days will bring some major last-minute dribbles from those hoping to attend.Invitations were sent out earlier this week.Cruise and his wife, actress Katie Holmes, who have befriended the Beckhams and are their neighbors in Beverly Hills, are said to have initiated the party. Smith's wife, actress Jada Pinkett Smith, helped Holmes pull the event together. To attend the affair, Cruise will fly in from Germany, where he just began shooting his latest film, the World War II drama "Valkyrie."The Hollywood coming-out bash caps more than a week of Beckham-mania sweeping Southern California, with TV ads proclaiming his arrival, a mob of photographers greeting him at the airport and more than 700 journalists attending a news conference Friday at Home Depot Center in Carson, the Galaxy's home field. On Monday, Creative Artists Agency, which represents Cruise, Smith, Holmes and the Beckhams, and other hosts including Galaxy owner Anschutz Entertainment Group held a reception for the celebrity couple at CAA's posh, new Century City headquarters. Most of the guests were sports industry figures.In a deal valued at a potential $250 million, Beckham signed a five-year contract with the team in January. Of that total, the soccer star will receive $6 million a year in salary. The rest will flow from endorsements from such advertisers as Adidas, Pepsi and Motorola.


Beckham's publicist, Glenn Lehrman of Rogers & Cowan, reiterated what his client recently stated publicly: "He really has no intentions in Hollywood. He came over here to play soccer and work with kids, his two big passions."The publicist added that Beckham had "no intentions to do TV shows or movies — it's just not his ambition. Ten years from now, he may change his mind, but I don't think so."Such talk won't discourage Hollywood agents, executives and filmmakers from hoping that someday the dashing, 32-year-old Brit might consider a life in show business after soccer.After all, they say, he's got what it takes to be a leading man."He's certainly handsome and has movie-star looks," said Bruckheimer, one of Hollywood's biggest producers. "He's a big enough celebrity that TV will love him and, if he can act, he'd be a major player in the movies."Bruckheimer, who's never met Beckham and will not attend Sunday's party due to a prior commitment, was invited by his pal Cruise, with whom he made the movies "Top Gun" and "Days of Thunder."But fans who want to see Beckham will have to settle for the small screen — in a commercial he shot in Madrid with former USC Trojan football player Reggie Bush, now with the New Orleans Saints.

this is totally insane. i know they are famous but welcome party? unbeliveable. what next? a parade? hope not. i just wanna see beck back on his daily training and weekly matches. unfortunately for me, MLS may not be aired in here and it looks like i'll be missing his actions for another year or so. unless, ESPN asia decides otherwise. anyway, good luck to him and his new team.

i know i shouldnt be saying this but i really miss seeing becks running and playing around with his ex team mates. it really hurts for him leaving his dream team with the situation like he had this early year. thank goodness i saved some good pics while he was in real madrid. i know deep inside he is missing those golden moments with ex team mates but nothing he couldve done to make things better and now he is ready to embrace new challenges with la galaxy. hopefully, he will have some good time in LA even though crazy paparazy wont let their life go easy.

Beckham given hero's welcome......
San Diego.com


July 14, 2007

CARSON – If there were any doubts about David Beckham's true value to the Los Angeles Galaxy and American soccer, they were answered in a matter of seconds after he was formally introduced as a member of the Major League Soccer club yesterday morning, before he so much as opened his mouth or swung his golden right foot.

With blue and yellow confetti erupting from cannons on either side of the stage, with a worldwide television audience watching live, with an estimated 3,000 fans and 500 journalists jammed into one corner of The Home Depot Center stadium, with a news helicopter pounding overhead, Beckham dramatically stood and made his first official act with the Galaxy:
Holding aloft the club's newly designed jersey with “BECKHAM” and No. 23 on the back.
Already, club officials claim, orders have been accepted for 250,000 jerseys (they cost $92.99 at the club's stadium store) since they went on sale Wednesday. And in case you weren't paying attention, Galaxy General Manager Alexi Lalas closed the half-hour ceremony by saying: “I want to remind you that the brand new Galaxy jersey and other Galaxy apparel are now available.”

About the only people who weren't at the lavish ceremony were Beckham's new teammates. In an almost surreal scene, they were on a back field at The Home Depot Center complex, holding a practice while the echoes from the stadium washed over them.
In a series of interviews with international journalists afterward, Beckham insisted he is here less to sell the sport than play it – that “my priority is the football, er, soccer” – although when he will actually step on the field is suddenly an uneasy topic. An exhibition next Saturday against English club Chelsea at the HDC has been billed as his grand debut, but Beckham and Galaxy management conceded that is not guaranteed given the uncertain status of the midfielder's left ankle.
It figures to be the first of several confrontations between marketing and matches, between the almighty dollar and the beautiful game, between the demands of an expectant public and the frailty of a 32-year-old body.
For weeks, ESPN has been promoting its live coverage of the Chelsea match that will have 19 cameras, including a “Beckham cam” trained exclusively on him. It is preceding the game with an hourlong documentary on Beckham's move to the States. And the HDC is nearly sold out with fans who, you presume, didn't pay up to $500 per ticket to see Ty Harden (annual salary: $30,000) play right back.
Beckham injured the ankle with the English national team in early June and it bothered him enough that he exited early from his final few matches with Real Madrid in the Spanish league. He has had the past month off and was spotted during a family vacation in the south of France cycling but, significantly, not running.
Beckham admitted he jogged on the ankle, or tried to, for the first time four days ago.
“It felt slightly unstable and there was a little bit of swelling,” he said.
He reports to Galaxy practice Monday, though he indicated he might not join regular training until midweek. A few days later, he'd be facing a hard-nosed Chelsea side that rates among the top teams in the world.
“The ankle is of concern,” Lalas said. “We don't want to sacrifice the long term by having him play in the short term. . . . The ankle is not 100 percent. This is not a robot. This is a human being.
“We're going to play it by ear and see how it goes.”
It was the only part of the day that wasn't meticulously orchestrated.
A few minutes before Beckham and league officials emerged from the HDC tunnel, Victoria, Beckham's pop-star wife, walked out gingerly in her 6-inch stiletto heels and posed for the legion of photographers, sticking one knee in front of the other and placing her left hand on the hip of her electric fuchsia dress.
The loudest cheers were for Beckham himself, decked out in a gray suit with a gray silk tie.
“I think soccer in America has a lot of potential,” he said. “It's just that something is missing to take it to another level, and I'm hoping I'm going to be part of that.”
The loudest boos were reserved for Los Angeles Mayor Antonio Villaraigosa, the subject of a recent scandal involving an extramarital affair with a TV news reporter. When the boos subsided, someone yelled loud enough for everyone to hear: “Is your girlfriend covering this?”

Villaraigosa immediately launched into damage control by – you guessed it – slipping on a No. 23 Galaxy jersey and shrieking into the microphone: “Who loves Beckham?”
Boos magically turned to muted cheers.
Sitting not far from Villaraigosa was MLS Commissioner Don Garber, who later admitted the best part of Beckham's arrival is that he won't have to sit “next to people on planes so much who say M-S-L.”
But even Garber cautioned that Beckham, as mega a soccer star as they come, would not transform the sport by himself.
“My biggest fear is that people look into this too much,” Garber said. “It's still a sport that has a generation of development in front of it.”
And that's fine with Beckham, who has always fashioned himself as being just one of the guys in the locker room – never mind that he now lives in a $22 million, 13,000-square-foot mansion in Beverly Hills, or that he'll make $6.5 million per year while some of his Galaxy teammates make as little as $12,900.
“I've tried to live my life as normal as possible,” said Beckham, who noted that he drove himself to The Home Depot Center yesterday.
“I've tried to make my children's lives as normal as possible. After I do all this today with the people and the press, I'll go home and jump in the pool with my kids.”


i took this article from san diego.com which tells us a lil bit more bout the hype mr david beckham made during his presentation in front of 3000 fans and 500 journalists. im really glad americans didnt push him aside just bcoz hes more popular off the field. but im more concern with the outcome of his games in upcoming months. if lets say, LA Galaxy failed to win trophies, becks would definitely be the scapegoat. lets hope this is not the case.

here for you..

1. what did you do last night before you slept?
* had the best laugh

2.what did u do this morning when you woke up?
* went to toilet

3. what song did you recently hear?
* here to stay

4. did you sleep in your room lastnight?
* of crz

5. what's your day like yesterday?
* gloomy, happy, tired, insecure, and missing someone

6.do you enjoy being alone?
* depends..

7.are you a daydreamer?
* abso..

8.where's your favorite place to daydream?
* anywhere

9.what was the last thing you drank?
* water

10.if you were a shirt, what color would you be?
* dunno..mebbe black or pink or even dark blue

11. describe a favorite moment.
*staring at someone..

12.describe your favorite weather?
*rainy days..it's quite scary but lovely at the same time

13.can you eat anything?
* not most of the things..food allergies etc

15.are you going to take a bath today?
* check.

16.who do u wish to spend the rest of your life with?
* around ppl who love and care about me (vice versa)

17. who do you adore?
* first and foremost God, nearly second my family

18. if you were alone in a cafe whatwill you be doing?
*listen to my ipod, read a book, sippin my iced caramel macchiato

19. would you rather be having a cup of tea or coffee?
* a cup of hot milo made by my mom

20.do you believe in wishing stars?
* i do believe God will listen to every wish even if it's only inside our heart

21.which do you believe the most, fairy or wishing star?
* God

22. do you like chocolate?
* yes since forever..though i only eat 'em when i crave 4 'em


signing off,

*missinguw*

coming again,

(For a girl who's finding

new friends, new love, new beginnings...

drama is never far behind!)

yet again, i feel dizzy. my heart jumping around hehe i feeeel so damn glad. i was having *emotional breakdown* for quite a while. and still i feel a bit hollow everytime i think about it. i had the best therapy which was *chocolate therapy* haha i feel lucky to have my mom by my side everytime i acted stupid. dear someone, i miss *u* badly..it's ok i'll live thru this. i admit i have made stupid decisions all this while, but i have also made the good ones, and now i have decided not to let the memories fool me. i had my hopes higher than the tallest tower in the world but when i try to make it possible i was dissapointed *once again* by the fact that i shouldn't have put my hope that high coz i only hurt myself by keeping stupid hopes. i cried a lot these days, i missed so many people in my life, and the moment i feel scattered (as if those weren't sad enuff) i found out that i was diagnosed with....!! oh God it was hard for me to accept because i was going through such hell and suddenly i had to face more bumps. i had to let some parts of me go, i was more than just sad..i was devastated..i asked to God..why..why..and why. but i'm better off now maybe there are brilliant reasons behind this, behind every tears i've cried. looking forward to next month..where i'd have a better days with bright smile on my face.

though it's been hard 4 me to digest,

i still thank you for your never ending blessings,

every lesson to learn, sad goodbyes, and i love my life.

THANK YOU GOD!

mom, i could never-ever say enough thank you because uve been the most inspirational person in my life. you always said nobody's perfect, that's why we need other people to complete us. i love you mom! we'll have the best future together with dadda..and dad, no matter how painful it is you always manage to ease my pain with a smile in your face for me i love you to death!

Thank God for I-POD! i'm loving every bit of it..my playlists..my vids..and my pics..really2 ease my feeling for not seeing him.

signing off,

(me-lovin-blue)

this is the most recent photo of becks in london attending princess diana bday celebration. the party was attended by many celebs and singers from both US and england. becks coming on stage introducing take that as the next act. it was mesmerizing moment for him as he took the stage and claimed a very stunning applause from the crowd. i almost thought he would become the next PM considering the huge applause. thank goodness we chose to stick to the end of the show, if not we would have missed his speech. unfortunately, i didnt get the chance to see joss stone on stage. but i gotta say, that the concert did make our day. i wanna say somethin more about the dear princess, unfortunately my time is short and the connection didnt seem to bless my pure intention...so be it. i could probably write a lil note in a memory of the late princess diana. may God bless her soul.....

it was a difficult season for real madrid, nevertheless, la liga title is on their hands now. unfortunately, real BOD dont think capello is the right man to handle real madrid for another season. he made mistakes in the past and it is too late to be undone. but doesnt a team need consistency and stability in order to achive success. there are reports that bernd schuster to replace him for the next season. do we think hes the right person to coach a persistent team such as real madrid?. we do not know for sure. he has indeed achieved great success with getafe however not as great as juande ramos, sevilla coach. we do think hes the right man to head real madrid for years to come coz he has had all experience needed as a manager. but the decision isnt in our hands, so nothin much we can do. although we, the fans, strongly disagreed with BODs decision not to renew becks contract, we still have to bade goodbye to the famous star. i really gonna miss seeing him in real madrid coz he is the most prolific football player ive ever seen.

another devastating news came from arsenal camp. thierry henry finally agrees to sign 4 yr contract with barcelona. the news broke our heart and we nearly throw our jersey down to the drain. soon we realized that players come and go and nobody can say something for certain coz anything can happen in football. our hopes and prays go to arsene wenger in achieving more success with arsenal in more years to come. hopefully he'll find his desired players before transfer window closed this august. good luck to them......

the upcoming weeks will be fantastic, hopefully. its been a while since i came home and i feel estatic just to smell the poluted air. everyone may think its funny how i express myself in a bizzare way but when it comes to the word of home i feel like a banished princess from an unknown kingdom being welcomed as a goddess. only certain ppl would know how it feels to be somewhere foreign. as weak as i am, i learned so many things without being taught. sometimes lesson are tutored without a presence of lecturers. how it goes? not many can answer. these lessons give me the strength to walk pass by my own weaknesses. im always wondering how many times do i have to fall into the same hole to only realize that something doesnt exist stay as an impossible term. my emotions ruining my clear path to avoid any lunatic effort to conquer someones heart and soul and its killing me deeply. i am unconsciously falling even deeper. God gives me his mercy and sending a brigade of comrade to pull out of a black hole. as hard as they try to reach, without my hands they will not be able to see me in the sunlight. confused, i may or may not grasp their helping hands to clear out of trouble. i may decide to stay inside the gloomy hole and be drowned forever for the sake of my emotions. however, the sound of sanity knocking on my door and send me to the real cruel world. i slowly but hesitantly hold on to their strong and solid grasp hoist me onto ready-to-gallop unicorn. soon i'll be home. a lesson hard indeed but effectively pushing away bad thoughts. theres always someting for ppl to hold on to and by not giving hope we may all survive and find the right piece of puzzle to complete invisible parts.

"Lil Star"by KELIS

There is nothing special about me

I am just a lil star

If it seems like I'm shining brightly

It's probably a reflection of something you already are

I forget about myself sometime

When there's so many other around

When deep inside you feels darkest

That is where I can always be found

That is where I can always be found

That is where I can always be found

Just keep trying and trying

It's just a matter of timing

Though the grinding is tiring

Don't let 'em stop you from smiling

Just keep trying and trying

Sooner or later you'll find it

It's surprising how inspiring

It is to see you shining

Cause in the dark of the night you're all i can see

and you sure look like a star to me

There is nothing special about me

I am just a lil star

If you try to reach out an touch me

you'll see I'm not really that far

I may not be the brightest nor am

I the last one you’ll see

But as long as you notice, that’s just fine with me

Everything’s just fine with me

Everything’s just fine with me

Just keep trying and trying

It's just a matter of timing

Though the grinding is tiring

Don't let 'em stop you from smiling

Just keep trying and trying

Sooner or later you'll find it

It's surprising how inspiring

It is to see you shining

Cause in the dark of the night you're all i can see

and you sure look like a star to me

There is nothing special about me

I am just a lil star

I’ve been running and jumping, but barely

Getting, getting over the bar

I plan on being much more than I, am but that's in do time

But until then I'm guilty, and being humans my crime

Being human that is my crime

Being human that is my crime

Just keep trying and trying

It's just a matter of timing

Though the grinding is tiring

Don't let 'em stop you from smiling

Just keep trying and trying

Sooner of later you'll find it

It's surprising how inspiring

It is to see you shining

Cause in the dark of the night you're all i can see

and you sure look like a star to me

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bully..

i have so many things going on, my love for new games *such as BULLY!!* and WINNING ELEVEN+PES. i've been doing extremely well, especially when my old bud suddenly contacted me and we chatted till we didn't realize time had flown away. God it feels great just to make peace with my past *though only some parts are forgiven*. i think letting some parts in my miserable past * so-called friends* go are not easy believe me it's easier said than done. mebbe it was a bit hard because i still have questions on why they did something barbaric like in the past..and of course i still remember how they managed to put shame on my face everyday oh well we were young back then mebbe that's the truth of my youth. i guess after all that said and done, i'm ready to end the sickening disputes and put it behind. well i hope theyre also sincere to make peace with me and not talking shits about me anymore. but at least i learned precious things while i was being treated badly. God is full of grace, and i'm one of His followers who feels damn grateful just to be very much alive and blisfully happy. God has given me more than just much so i guess he's also the One who opened my heart to realize so many things that i thought had dissapeared long time a go.

don't hold any grudge..it's awful although a lot of ppl used to hate me but i didn't/don't hold any grudge towards them because i wasn't raised that way. my mom told me that no matter how hurt your feeling is always have patience and have faith in God coz he'll give u the best way to heal ur feelings.

gossips are nasty, take it from me it's all about karma. if u don't want to be mistreated by other people then treat others nicely. because the good deeds never goes unpunished. good effort will come back to u not as punishments but more as rewards.

*lilmisssunshine*

its been a while seeing becks football actions in la liga. hes been plagued by knee injury that might keep him out of actions for another week or so. i really hope he can be fit to play this weekend match against celta vigo, but it may be too soon for him to comeback this week as he only manages to work his sweat out in the gym and have yet touches the field from weeks ago. anyway, lets get our topic underway. in most recently, england failed to get the results they wanted and could only hope the following match will get better. they lie 3rd in the placing and could face the axe following major failures in their campaign for euro 08. whatever reasons ste-c implying, england fans all over the world are fed up with promises. only a win can brighten up ste-c's days ahead. already facing mounting demands of becks return in the squad, and failing to win qualifying matches could be a sign of his era to end. it was unfortunate becks couldnt get his fitness right back on track before qualifying matches started. he might have gained his fitness right on time but he couldnt have gotten his way easily to the squad coz of ste-c policy to wipe off sven ericksson era away from his radar and becks was considered one of svens trusted allies. now, the story changes. becks is allowed to be taken back as 'english player' whilst ste-c still insists he decides who will play and who wont be picked to safe his sorry sad face in front of media. if england should failed to win against andorra they need to fight 100 times harder and collect all 3 points of remaining matches to get #2. it looks like ste-c's job is on the line.....

READ THROUGH MY MIND



ive been reading james pattersons serials and wondering if i ever could turn my head off his masterpiece in the future. hes been brilliant all the way and no doubt he has scored #1 bestseller in many newspapers around US to this date. my first pattersons book was violets are blue and it completely blown me off. since birth i have been given a gift to read most of things. my mom says i read every billboards ever exist along the street since been thought how to read. amazing as it is, i do not hang around in bookstores for nothing. my mom always whining about books i buy. it is not that she discourages my passion in reading, most proabably she wishes me to spend my dime on somethin useful for young woman. i admit, i dont splash my cash on fashion items such apparels and accessories but i do love them, who doesnt?. but i do find myself drown and surrounded by books and novels as soon as i enter a bookstore. do i blame myself for it? i dont think i can. i can spend hours scanning, browsing and finally finding the right books to my taste. i am not afraid to 'touch' somethin new. pendragon is for example. i didnt notice it would be that good. although it could be a little childish since its aimed for young readers, but im not upset. i can be very patient and tolerable in terms of reading. however, theres one things i cannot overcome up till now, my anxiety reading romance novels. i read one book a very long time ago and i was pretty upset with the way things went. there are things that just dont fit into my mind. among others, i enjoy reading gone with the wind. cliche, some may say but it is a good love story although it was written decades ago i still find it creative. i dont condemn all romance novels are absurd and pointless, i must admit there are stories out there deserve the best. probably i need to look hard and be less prejudice and bias. i'll try to do that by the help of my friends who have alwasy been trying to push me into a romance section. all your efforts have been turned down pals, but who knows what comes next?................


resyhafabriStaz

failure's not flattering

yesterday once again i was disspointed by the result from arsenal's game hixhix luckily real madrid won against gymnastic..here iam feeling bummed and listening to my ipod, gosh it's do hard to see my fav team losing their grip!pheeww..to bad they didn't win i was hoping they'd win WHATEVER!!

so i have this other friend that just broke up *again!!it's a CURSE!!* haha just like my other friend i mentioned before. but she also didn't tell me the exact incident that had taken place before so i can't really comment on them. i just wish she had told me so i wouldn't feel left out, what can i say i feel like i'm one of her disposable assets hixhixhix. she didn't tell me either when she hooked up with this guy. and i was there supporting her. mebbe when ppl being careless to her then she'll go back crying to me.WHATEVER!!

well at least the new songs on my ipod amuse me..loveiloveitloveit..and of course i'm finishing my *2nd chance* written by james patterson. to be exact i'm going to finish it by tonite. hopefully there will be a great movie or tv show so i'm not going to bored and all time low..WHATEVER!!

signing off,

GOONERS4LIFE*HOPEFULLY*

broken hearted..*duuh*

a friend of mine just broke up with her bf..guess dats kinda sux aite? especially my friend is a very2 vulnerable kind of person. it's hard when she has to go all this shits by herself coz she lives in a far-far away land. i bet it was the toughest decision she had to make. i know she must be very2 devastated with this separation, she must be feeling low down there. and coincidentally, she studies in the same college with her x-bf, she met him from her friend and suddenly they were a couple. i'm sorry to say but i was angry with her coz she made the decision kinda hasty after she broke up with her X. i was dissapointed coz i knew her decision was wrong. *it's not that i was afraid of her getting rid of me but it was because i cared about her*. but i realized that it was her call not mine so why did i have to react foolishly? i didn't want her to be hurt again coz i've seen her devastated before. i love the feeling of falling in love to someone, even when i keep it to myself i feel happy. but to keep falling in love with the same guy is the hardest thing on being in a relationship.

awwhh enough of my stupid words about relationship..gosh it's been a long time since i wrote stuff here. i've been devastated by my fav soccer team ARSENAL N REAL MADRID and then i was busy, i was ill, i was on a trip, i was tired, and here iam writing off what's on my mind. and one more thing, i've been busy searching you tube just to find NFG songs live hihihi my X gave me their cds just to show me how the songs related to what had happened between us few years a go but i didn't care. i kept the cds somewhere and suddenly i remember so i put the cd to my comp and copied it to my itunes library VOILA now i'm a fan although my sist hates them soooo much!! i'd love to see them live i guess it'd be so much fun. but i only love their last 3 albums coz i don't have their other albums..*stick and stones, catalyst, AND coming home*. huhu feel so sad why didn't i like them earlier hixhixhix

i just bought two of my fav mags, Jane Magazine and Teen Vogue and i realized that i've read most of magazines and i think it's really2 important for teenagers to choose what they read. since i was a kid i've been reading a lot of kids magazines, and then teens magz, and now i'm not yet reading women's magz but i love to read magz that's not only about fashion and latest trends and also about knowledge in life. i love to read other people's experiences so i can learn from them. experience is something we can't buy it's something we learn in this life. CHOOSE WHAT YOU READ coz it'll guide you to find what you want out of this life and to be who you are. i want kids to understand that it's not only about being cool and accepted in society but it's also about who you're not about what people want you to be. just remember that not those popular girls in school that get the attention in showbiz but they're normal people who has talent and dignity.

signing off,

*gooners4life*

hes always been a professional in whatever things hes doin and im sure thousands of fans in old trafford agree with me. he never said a thing against Man Utd and always praise his former team whenever he has a chance. he left MU bcoz of his manager misbehaviour 4 yrs ago and 2 days ago was the right time to patch things up. he will leave european football for good and the match was a perfect time for becks to say goodbye in old trafford. unfortunately, his knee injury prevented him to do so. nevertheless, red devils had the chance to listen what he had to say in his final appearance at old trafford.




Old Trafford witnessed a very public love-in on Tuesday as David Beckham and Sir Alex Ferguson seemingly buried the hatchet amid a multitude of compliments.

Ex-United star Beckham was in Manchester to watch his former club take on a Europe XI in a charity match and used the opportunity to lavish praise on the Scot.
"Everybody here knows you've got the best manager in the world at this club," Beckham said on the pitch at half time. "I just want to say that the time I spent at this club was the best time of my football career.
"I've waited four years to actually come back and say thank you to the fans and the people at this club."
Beckham, who started his career at United and was part of the treble-winning side in 1999 before moving on to Real Madrid, was well received by the 74,000 fans packed into Old Trafford who enjoyed a 4-3 home win over Marcelo Lippi's star-studded side.

"I'd expect he'd get a great reception," said Ferguson. "Even teams, when their managers have played for our club, always get a fantastic reception, quite rightly too."
Beckham's United career came to an abrupt end after falling out with Ferguson - who once famously kicked a boot in the midfielder's face in a fit of anger - but there seemed to be no grudges held as the fiery manager repayed Beckham's earlier platitudes.
"He had great years here. He came as a boy and all his formative years were spent here," Ferguson added.

"It was a great foundation here before he went on to Real Madrid. He was a great player."

IN NOT SO GOOD MOOD......


its very funny how things work out themselves, not in a good way of course. first, football. seeing real madrid qualify to next round other than 16 group would be amazing, it didnt happen though. i was putting my hopes for arsenal although they have a slim chance to qualify but at least playing at home would be able to give arsenal a slight advantage. my hopes falling to pieces and hope no more to see both of the teams win somethin worth than gold. hurt, sad and disgraced by the way things unraveled, i quickly decided not to post anything in our blog. to add more salt to the wound, beck was declared not fit to play for another month. i'd love to see him play against barca this weekend and Man Utd on the 13th of march. ppl are eager to see him play once more in old trafford for the last time; this game will be considered as his final salute to his fans in england since real madrid has already lost to bayern munich there will be no chance seeing beck play against other teams in old trafford. our pain is getting deeper and heavier. i really wish things would have gone completely different, but who am i to decide?. i can only wish beckham would play again soon rather than later and bounce back from this madness coz its a round world.

i have aleady talked about my first pain and its time to reveal the second. goin all the way only to find nothing but a dead end. goin backwards always be a good option despite the setback. all around the world looking for dimes and gold but ashes are the only thing she can find. disappointed, she decides to leave her sadness behind and breakway to other direction. her efforts come to nothing as, again, empty spaces are all over the walls.

thank YOU almighty GOD *ALLAH SWT*

for granting my wishes

and for listening to my every bitter story!!

without your SUPER-MEGA POWER

none of this would have happened

with such a bless on the other page..

tears, sad stories, feeling bummed/gutted

are just pain in the ass

but knowing i can always lean on YOU

is such a wonderful feeling!!

forgive me for all of my mistakes

lead me to YOUR blisfully-path..

have me on your good-girl list!! l.o.v.e YOU GOD!!

people can say what they want
but i know you know me better..

ps:ARSENAL couldn't have won

without YOU!!

*gooners-4life*

DERBY GETTING UGLY......

i dunno what were they thinking, throwing objects or materials to referees, opponents and their coaches staffs arent part of the game. we should applaud all the effort of the fans have been doing ever since football was born. but seeing this incident in front of millions of people? a shameful indeed. i hail sports ministry effort to pin down the culprits so this kind of incident will not happen again in the future. i know there are many reasons to hate 'accross street' opponent but it doesnt mean to end a match such as this one. spanish football federation need to do something before its too late. i have seen a lot of kinds provocations but involving a material as a 'chanting spirit' isnt welcomed. sevilla is known for their aggressive crowd and most of the times opponent players have been the target as well as referees. hopefully they WILL do something to make football stadiums a safe place where others have been dominated by hatred and politics.

The Copa del Rey quarter-final second leg between city rivals Real Betis and Sevilla was abandoned when Sevilla coach Juande Ramos was hit by an object thrown from the crowd.
Ramos was carried off the pitch unconscious on a stretcher shortly after Sevilla took the lead 1-0 on aggregate when striker Frederic Kanoute fired home 12 minutes into the second half.
Video footage showed the Sevilla coach had been hit on the head by a two-litre plastic bottle full of liquid thrown from the stands.

Betis medical staff said later that Ramos, who used to manage Betis, regained consciousness as he was put into an ambulance.
Sevilla medical staff said the 52-year-old would spent the night in hospital under observation.
The normal procedure in Spain when matches are called off is for the remaining minutes to be played at a later date.


Last season, the Cup quarter-final second leg between Valencia and Deportivo Coruna was abandoned after a linesman was cut on the head by a coin thrown from the crowd.
The remaining 46 minutes were played behind closed doors a week later.
The build-up to the Seville derby was dominated by arguments between the two clubs over whether or not Sevilla president Jose Maria del Nido would be allowed in the VIP box at Betis' Manuel Ruiz de Lopera stadium.


After mediation by the Andalucian regional government, Betis finally allowed Del Nido to attend the match although a number of fans threw objects at him as he took his seat.
There was further controversy because Betis had placed a bronze bust of Del Nido's arch-rival, Betis owner Manuel Ruiz de Lopera in a seat just behind the Sevilla president.
Spain's sports minister Jaime Lissavetzky said he would be calling for immediate action from the Spanish Football Federation.


"This was a shameful incident," Lissavetzky told Radio Marca.
"We will be calling an emergency meeting of the Anti-violence Commission and will ask the Spanish Football Federation to deal with this with maximum rigour.
"We must stop incidents such as this or those that happened recently in Italy occurring again."


courtesy of eurosport.com