show time

it is funny how often i put titles ahead of my writing. some people would leave it blank until he/she reaches end of  the paragraph and decides what title would suit his/her essay. it is comes out of my head just like that as if my head is synced into the computer. i rarely find any difficulty to fit a title for my essay, but of course no one is pefect. i did mention yeaterday that dad came talking to me over the internet that he had something to show us. well, he mentioned he bought chanel shawl after much of walking in his program of 'getting to know what's around me' kinda stuff. i am impressed by his determination to grab what is foreign to him and suprisingly, he remembers those maze like streets from anywhere in the world. he hasn't been living in the same country as we are but he still remembers exactly where to take turns and stop at the same time. he's a professional pilot and has been a pilot since bob marley sang his songs. my sister always says "dad's brain is nothing like human being. his brain is a world map with gps taking control". unlike some of us, he knows places and rarely get lost even though he has only been in the place once. when dad has gone and brought his stuff and attention to somewhere else, i usually will be the person who takes charge of getting my family home safely without going around aimlessly. when my brother forgets his parking spot, i will be showing him directions how to get there. and when both of my sister and mom trying to find a boutique, i will gladly be a tour guide. it doesn't happen everytime but mostly i will be the one who answer the call. growing up in a household that consists no  'real' elder brother, can really sting me in the ass. big gap between us dosn't mean he can be reliable and countable when things get tough. since 4 years ago i had to take that responsibility and carry it around my shoulder, so that i can keep my family intact. honestly, i want all that 'priveleges' out of my way and let me be myself once more. however, no one can turn back the clock and what's done is done. this habit of taking everything on my own hands creeps me sometime. for example, helping out. every morning my mom will do house chores, starting from brewing coffee, wash dishes, do laundry and so on and so forth. blessed with morning alarm i inherrited from my father, i usually will be the first to hear her steps bustling about in the kitchen. knowing that my sister is probably still holding her pillow tightly on her arms, i make my way to the kitchen. once i have ignored this and guilt was all over my head. i will always be the negotiator and decision maker at the same time although we usually do collective ideas before coming up to a certain solution.  this makes my life a bit of roller coster ride people...

lifting up curtains

i have shed a light on how happy i was yesterday and quickly averted to frustration in minutes. it happened again. there are those moments when i receive such happiness and soon, bad virus comes on me and pushes me over the edge. yesterday was another example of good comes with bad ones. a week ago i had the same deal and wondered whether this would be a habit. i don't have the answer coz only the Almighty posses the genuine answer for me, but i am not sure when will get the answer. sooner or later i have to deal with this matter and no matter how hard it is for me and my family, we will have to stay firm and strong coz weakness can never take us far. of course, he won't just be sitting around and wait for me to handover it this chrismas. he will push and push until nothing can be done. i have waited and this is my time to pay him back, in bad way. i sense urgency on his words and to me, he is in dire situation. i hate him with all i might but is it appropriate? i don't care and never will. i only pray this will soon be over and let me live my own life like it used to be.

cloudy

it has been like this since early in the morning. clouds seem reluctant to get out of the way and let the sun shining down on us. it was the most gloomy morning i have ever encountered since moving into this apartment and i can't explain why. like some people would say 'as gloomy as my heart'. it does portray my mood, though, at the time being and i am not sure when will all the things change. when i woke up at 9 this morning, i had found out that today wouldn't have been the same day as before. pressure came mounting on my shoulders and it was ready to snap the hell out of my arms from their hinges. come to think, i already blabbed something that is far from sane earlier on. i can still see huge mist covering on top of the hill even though it is already in the afternoon. in other words, rain is yet to say good bye. it may offend other people but i like it this way. i have always find peace when it rains. there were times when i was little i would silently pray to God that He would hear my wish for rain in the middle of my prayer time. it may not be sensible to others but it did to me. there was nothing like little downpour in the afternoon accompanied by good shows on tv. i hope it will stay like this, at least for another hours or so, therefore peace may be blessed upon me, amin.

big surprise

i wasn't even realized until i finally able to see the picture clearly in laptop. took only few minutes to download when it usually absorb entire joy time i have. the title was confusing yet clarifying that something was up, but still i was far away from catching the big picture. when it had finished downloading, it was the time for me to open it up. and voila! here it was, lying on the floor and ready to be taken away. it is, of course a brand new camera, well not exactly new as it is a used digital camera, my dad has bought for my sister. i don't know how to express my thoughts as i am extremely over joy by the sight of it. can't wait to try it....

it is amazng how joy and happiness could immediately be altered into something else far more ugly. the excitement has gone down the drain and i feel completely pissed off and outraged to an extent of crashing his head.

good comments

i found some of good comments on becks involvement in the team. not many would appreciate these people's view about becks capability both as player and leader. but who cares anyway. here are some of the words...

"He's a great leader," Klein told Sunday News.

"He's not a guy that's very vocal on the pitch but he leads by example.

"It's fantastic to be able to play with him, truly an inspiration."

 

"He lends his experience to the young guys in the team," Lewis said.

"He's great from a market stand-point but he's also a super player and a fantastic guy."

self note, this can be found in www.stuff.co.nz/4784837a1559.html

 

LA Galaxy vs Oceania all stars

espnsoccer net

Galaxy's Beckham shines against Oceania All Stars

LA Galaxy put together a strong performance to beat the Oceania All Stars 3-0 at Mt Smart Stadium in Auckland, with David Beckham looking in good form.

Beckham played a key part in all three of the first-half goals as the All Stars had little to offer against the Major League side.

The England midfielder played 80 minutes, pleasing the thousands of fans who had turned out.

Beckham had the first shot of the match with a volley which was tipped over the bar by former Manchester United team-mate Mark Bosnich.

The Galaxy were not to be denied a second time a few seconds later when Jovan Kirovski expertly controlled a long ball before blasting a fine effort into the bottom corner of the net.

Things soon turned worse for the Oceanic team when a great cross from Eddie Lewis was headed in by Alan Gordon in the 14th minute.

Play was called to a halt on the half hour mark when Beckham took a heavy fall after a tackle right on the edge of the area, but the 33-year-old picked himself up to attempt one of his trademark free-kicks.

The shot was deflected for a corner which Beckham took, finding midfielder Brandon McDonald on the far side of the box to head Galaxy into a 3-0 lead with only 32 minutes gone.

The opening 10 minutes of the second half appeared to be a practice match for the Galaxy with none of their previous urgency.

The only sour note came when midfielder Josh Tudela was sent off following a bad tackle.

Former Holland international Edgar David had a rare shot in the 79th minute, but his free-kick sailed high over the crossbar.

 

gloomy

well, it's not a sad day as everyone had presumed as they had a glimpse on very depressing state of word, not in a physical way actually. we had planned to go to the shopping mall today to take my lil sis 'sick' mp3 player back to its 'home' coz the one she bought was obviously useless. usually mp3 player comes with a player, so a person who uses it has no difficulties in regard of uploading songs from laptop or PC. this little rascal is actually a usb and has the capacity to hold approximately 500 songs in its drive. in spite of its limited capacity, my sis was determined to bring it home. i had a this little doubt that it'd do good to her. my immature assumption earlier proved to be true. it didn't work the way it supposed to be and now to add our frustration we had to walk back to the store and find a replacement to it. this thing could happen regardless, how much we pay for something, just like my lil sister mp3 player for instance. indeed, the more we pay the higher quality we get from it but it doesn't mean no faulty experienced. after much of planning, we decided to go to the place today and have it replaced. what i am about to tell is something so fictious that one could fall off from his/her seat. i have this weird assumption, not the only one of course, explaining a very odd ocassion that is actually happening in my life. i don't know how to put on words since i have difficulties to comprehend this event in sanity perspective. here it goes: i think rain is choosing the right moment to confine me in certain places. in other words, it tries to prevent me from going to places i wanted to. there they go, people. i really mean it and i am not even laughing at the moment. no one should. whenever i decide to go somewhere, it suddenly gathers around and surrounds me like i'm a prisoner. somehow, those grumpy clouds know i am about to leave the house and decides to go along with me. well, the fun part is, i won't get sun burn. i probably going to talk about this some time later since the sun is already shining and i am about to leave. ciao everybody...(051208)

becks gold performance and arsenal's slim win

becks performance was above par during a match between LA Galaxy and oceania all star. although it was only a friendly match, becks had put everything right in its place since the beginning of match. he had numerous efforts to send the ball into the penalty area and successfully assisted his team mate to get the third goal by sending a good cross from a corner. this will be a strong signal to capello and other england team mates that david beckham is not giving up easily and ready to fight for his place no matter what. he may not be playing all matches, but at least he can still give something to the squad. i remember clearly when everything was fall apart, becks was recalled from the bench to replace shaun w.p in the beginning of the second half and helped his team to get an equaliser for england. england may have lost but one thing is lingering in everyone's head, becks can still do it. no matter how hard everyone hit him, he never backs down, instead he put up a fight and finally, win the battle. it's not easy for becks to get to be in the starting line up every now and then considering his age. but an experience player is always nedeed especially in dire situation. later on, i will post a good comment on his performance based on a report by espn soccer net. before i forgot, i need to mention one of article i came across yesterday. it was from a local newspaper and i have no idea where did it get the news from. was it reuters, afp or simpy their own report. it mentioned about becks incapability to be 'crowd puller' in his recent visit to NZ. while he attracted more than 30,000 people last year, this year statistic stood about 20,000 supporters in the stadium. i do not mean to be over defensive, but current economic crisis could have been the cause. there might have been other issues that newspaper failed to pick up before his arrival, we can never know that. i am not sure though about the ticket price, there must have been some logical reasons for lower turn up in NZ. at least, he performed well in that match so guys, shut up already.

moving on to arsenal. they won their match against mid table wigan yesterday and helped the team to get their worthy 3 points. arsenal need to start win again or they will not be able to put pressure on league leaders, liverpool. although the win didn't help arsenal to be in much closer range with their top two rivals, it could be an important stand point for everyone else to see that arsenal are starting to pick up pace. i hope the other three slip up, therefore we can gain some points and eclipse them to win premier league title. i don't remember when was the last time we held the cup up high? it must have been right before former captain patrick vieira departure to inter milan. it is by far, the worst league result for arsenal in 4 years. i don't remember seeing arsenal crumbled to man c by 3 goals to none. anyway, it's already behind us and i do hope for better results up ahead. 2 weeks from now, arsenal will be facing top leaders, liverpool. i don't know what to say or write because i actually don't. the last time i thought about humiliation, pride was all i get. beating chelsea at their home was big. but i didn't see it coming honestly. liverpool are totally different from chelsea on the other hand. not only for quality of their players but also their mental strength. many times i had seen liverpool were nearly defeated but they bounched back to win the match and not just loking for a draw. this sort of thing wenger needs to look into. i don't mean arsenal are mild or anything but so far, we haven't got the attitude to win despite conceading. playing at home has always been an advantage but failing to turn it into a result can only cast arsenal away from the league title.

inbox

this time i changed the color but not the font. anyway, i haven't checked my email for weeks now and it stood to 272 new messages! creepy that is. when the last time i checked lingered about 70 something, finding out to be 200 plus is somewhat frustrating. where do i have to start? i may end up shoving them to trash bin anyway. and with the internet speed as slow as traffic in NY, i may have to delay inbox checkings at this time. so, pals if i don't get your emails i am trully sorry but you can always reach me through fs and fb. my sis will check them from time to time, yay!

maddening week

i usually change the font and its color but this time, i won't be bothered. i have been checking some celeb news in the internet and found good pics of suri cruise and eva mendes. both of them are my favorite people in hollywood. well, actually suri cruise is an exception coz she's not an actress and all. she happens to be a daughter of one of the famous actor in hollywood, tom cruise. contrary to what other people say, she's adorable and has style of her own. i don't agree with some of the critics claiming that cruise's career has far from rejuvenating. don't worry tom, you can learn everything from becks who had similiarly been dubbed 'failure' after his transfer to LA Galaxy. i found cute pics of david beckham and his sons too. mummy is away to home soil england and it seems the boys can take time off watching basketball with their dad. although they don't seem to care about the game but the pics clearly tell that the beckhams are loving each other no matter what other people say. i can't wait to see him off to AC Milan this winter and play some football there with stars like ronaldinho, kaka and sheva. he won't be treated as superstar that's for sure but he has never asked to be treated like one. he can get a glimpse of italian football and i hope he can use this as an opportunity to improve his deadly ball skill, although he may be down in the pecking order since Milan have already 2 other players who can swirl the ball to the corner. i found as well that LA Galaxy forward landon donovan is due to join bayern munich this close season to get his match fitness checked. now now, gentlemen is it not an inspiring figure of david beckham? while many criticized his loan move to Milan, his teammate has taken it as an advice. MLS isn't running as long as other leagues in europe, so it will be impossible for becks to join england team without actually playing any regular match. tot spur boss harry redknapp has put a light over injury list in england camp. it seems there will be an absence in the next game as theo walcott is nursing a shoulder injury and won't be back in the nick of time. he said that aaron lennon is ready to take the winger's place. since becks is considered by many as, marginalized, lennon will definitely answer the call. my call is, let's just wait and see.

camera, wedding and all the hectic schedule

dad had a mild idea of asking us to go to the 'fine' country while accompanying him taking exams and we unsuprisingly agreed with him. having the idea of going to spore and shop till we drop is fun, thinking the trip won't be as much thrilling make us down  bit. we intended to stay for not more than four days and go back on the fifth of the day of our stay. but this is the catch, we have to pack up again as soon as we reached home to get ready for our next trip to hometown. and this trip will take place right on the 2nd day of our arrival from spore. good eh? record breaking in our own way. thank goodness, our plan to spore has been canceled, so we will be able to rest before the D day. a friend of mine will get married this december and guess what? i have to wear kebaya in her wedding day. surprise to everybody, i can't question her decison and make her to accept that I HAVE NOT EVEN ONCE wear kebaya in my whole life. looks like i have to learn from now on, i won't know what will be coming in the future. learning is never fun but it is worth all the pain. anyway, my dad is planning  to buy me a dslr camera as a birthday gift, hopefully this december. and i can't wait to see it materialized in front of my eyes. i have been wanting to own a dslr camera for some time and been going to several places asking and touching them just to make sure i'll make the right choice. i still have lingering doubts over the performance of the two contenders. one thing is for sure, what is life without even taking a risk. so, i will brace to the end and whatever the result might tell me, flaw is evidently real.

presumably

some people might have doubts over my affection toward francesc fabregas. it has started 3 to 4 years ago when he was around 17 or 18. it wasn't much appearance for him as he came in only to replace legendary midlfielder patrick vieira. but there was something of his performance made me realize that he would become a great player someday. his ,then, immature passing but quite accurately to forwards only to get better after vieira's departure. i had to admit his cute face did help me to him notice, but cuteness seems out of my judgement since a long time ago since i am favoring footballer not a model. and now, few years from that match he became captain for arsenal. did i see it coming? well, yes absolutely. but i didn't know it would come so quick. it's about time to lead arsenal to glory. go captain cesc!...

almost a happy day

i am left frustrated with my bb. it doesn't actually let me down in any way, but the fact i cannot post all of my recent thoughts made me distraught even further. i wrote many things that shrouded my mind these past days, including world issues, such as riots in thailand and terrorists attack  in mumbai, india. unfortunately for me, those notes can only be sent via email and messaging services. with me out of coverage, it seems the more realistic way to post them is having my sister read the notes and i am the one who type it to laptop.  *sigh* how could this happen to me?. anyway, arsenal won their recent encounter with league leaders, chelsea and closing the gap to 7 points. sadly, liverpool had won their match as well so it won't make any difference since the crown is temporarily held by the merseyside. manu utd had also clinced a win facing their derby rival, man c. i knew man utd would have beaten man c although robinho was on the line up. they are currently too strong to beat by struggling man c. back to my beloved arsenal. when the odds are against them, arsenal have always managed to prove them wrong. for example, the man utd match few weeks ago. arsenal were badly bruised back then but had managed to steal 3 points out of their rivals, the red devils. while some bad comments were thrown into their side, wenger's young guns undeterred by all those sentiment and held their heads up high. coming to stamford bridge have always been difficult espceially when chelsea are riding up high at the moment. but it seems nothing is impossible for everyone. i have always  had faith for arsenal even though they tend to disappoint me number of times. hopefully, they can go futher...

adjusting

my eyes need a bit of adjustment. i am not used to see cesc wearing captain armband in the presence of william gallas. anyway, i found a new fansite dedicated to cesc fabregas by chance. it's new and most importantly, updated every day. i have been digging for this kind of fansite for quite some time and disappointed the whole time. but now, i know a place to be. the site can be found in http://www.4cesc.com. go ahead fellas add in to your bookmark.

the picture above is showing cesc as captain quite a while ago. i believe he was captaining junior side in a league cup. one thing can be derived from that picture above: he has always been a leader even in a very young age. i read an article today that suggested, wenger is trying really hard to cling on to his superstar after one and another has left earlier in the season by making cesc captain for the team. adebayor had also been linked to big clubs such as AC Milan during summer window transfer but wenger had managed to shoeed away those irritating clubs. much has been said and these inexperienced players need to prove themselves. there is nothing better than to "speak" on the field.

 

arsenal are facing one of their fiercest rivals this weekend. chelsea will play without mercy in order to get full points and stay on top in the league. there is no such thing as draw for both teams as they, especially arsenal, are keen to win back their fans' heart after disappointing performances. chelsea did not get the result they wanted on champ league, while arsenal have been shadow of themselves lately. arsenal are currently 5th on the league and 10 points behind league leaders, chelsea. i somehow shocked, being weeks apart from premier league, seeing my arsenal are way below their usual performance. the standing says it all. but it is not too late for them to redeem themselves as the league is far from over. arsenal can't afford to lose points anymore considering their current league position. it is seldom to happen in football but nothing is impossibe. they are, indeed, sitting on 5th position but they still could win premier league title if they can focus and win every single match they'll play. it is tough, but who says life isn't?

somebody help me

as blue as my mood. my hands are shaking in a way that never happened before. i don't know what to do now since everything is not right. it is nearing end of the month and God knows what will happen when the day greets me. i should take it easy and don't dwell on my problems too long coz it will only take me down instead up. but i can't help to think about everything that has been coming my way since dad's departure from his old company. some people would say, 'it's your turning point buddy no doubt about it'. they may be right but not always. i can say that prior to his decision to leave, we had lived quite a normal life. i went to school and did my homework etc etc. there had been bumps along the way but they were only tiny turbulence compared to what i am experiencing. one false decision can take away everything in our life. life has never been the same.

life teaches me to be grateful on whatever conditions i may have. AC adapter for example. it may sound strange to a lot of people but not to me. it has served my family for nearly 5 years now and has not given us any trouble although we didn't give the adaptor a decent treat it surely deserved. and it chose to break down in a very wrong moment. we are currently tighting our budget due to an expected "visit" of an old foe in coming weekend, thus we want to stay away from over spending. but it seems the adapter is anxious to get itself a bit of attention from us. it needs a replacement as simple as that. a crude statement that goes beyond our own imagination. it probably wants to spend its spare time relaxing in a dump site. oh well, i guess i have to be patient anyway. why on earth it had chosen the wrong timing to retire? one good question.

God knows how to give. after so much agony i feel in my heart, He gave me some entertainment to enjoy. Thank Him all the way...God help me out...

one good news

it's been a while since my last post and i am really happy to spread the news i just heard. william gallas has been stripped from his captaincy starting yesterday. i think this is a good news since arsenal embarassing defeats these past 2 weeks. i had always felt that gallas isn't suitable as captain in arsenal especially when he was only freshman while there were other appropriate candidates. only a couple of weeks ago i told my sister that gallas should be replaced by emmanuel almunia and now, newspaper brought daylight into my life. my sister even suggested to post my thought in famous gunner's blogs all over the world, so that arsene wenger would hear my brilliant idea. somehow, wenger heard my desperate cry. I AM NOT LYING claiming to have this thought 2 weeks ago right before my trip to my hometown. and now, almunia is already captain. i hope this change will bring freshness and new spirit into the team and not otherwise. we had seen the worse from arsenal, but it doesn't mean it won't hapen again. thus, this is the right time to make amends. go arsenal!! never underestimate our capability. the leaders beware, because we have many games to go before the season ends. nothing is impossible.

missing all the fun

i haven't been able to watch live premier league matches due to my irresponsible act. those matches are only available on cable tv which is sucks. counting days to the day when all football fans in the world will be able to watch those matches free of charge. last week Arsenal were facing their archest rival man utd in emirates stadium, which Arsenal won by 2-1. i can still remember clearly, on how i was so excited everytime my heroes coming out of the dressing room and fought for their life on the field. there were times when i was so disappointed with their loss, i control myself against reading sport news from any sources. but grief and sadness did not always dominate my weekends. i once flew out of my seat, or window, after seeing arsenal beat their opponent. same goes with international matches. when ste-c, the former england coach took a bite of sea salt, he grudgingly agreed to let david beckham back into england squad. i watched the second goal with ease which becks helped peter crouch net his goal that night. soon after, the winning goal for croatia came just before the injury time added. as expected, england failed to capitalize their point and lost against determined croatians and sent them packing to swiss/austria. when england got their second goal i was hysterical and jumping with joy. nothing can prevent me from celebrating, but when the third goal came, i was so devastated and out of words to describe my sadness. it was unthinkable not to see england in EURO 08, let alone watching it. all those hysteria, curse epidemic and shouting mania have ceased in the past few months. i guess my mom is happy that she doesn't have to bear those non sense every weekend all year round. nevertheless, i do miss those moments of my life, how can i not? a match between Arsenal and man utd is one of those matches i will miss out and not mentioning those champ league matches every weekdays. o dear, i better pack up my bags.

anyway, becks is now on loan to AC Milan for over 2 months; while i will be given a chance to see him in action after so long, i am here with no real answer whatsoever, the last time i saw him running on the field was with england and not his club. considering MLS popularity isn't so hot in other parts of the world, no channels are willing to fork deep into their pockets to pay the royalty. other reason for not having MLS in other continent is that the fact their play time is in very odd hours. so, it doesn't help to figure out how to see my favorite football player in action every weekend. when he joins AC Milan this december, i will certainly be able to see him running and crossing the ball, that is if he succeed climbing up pecking order in the squad, against competitive teams in europe. unfortunately for him, there will be no chance to come face to face with his old clubs as AC Milan will only play in UEFA Cup instead of champ league. it'll be interesting to see him playing against one of them. although i preferrably choose man utd rather than real madrid. i guess fate has its own way to twist the life of human and God will be the leader who's in charge. well, life is nothing without challenges.

a fan

i am a fan of numerous celebs in hollywood that is also include some of the most talented singers scattered all over LA. but none of them could beat my obsession, although i don't quite agree with this term, toward david beckham. i have been a fan of him since i was in junior high school, while he was playing with his old club man utd. i even  remember cutting an article from a magazine portraying a young becks holding an award. but i can't recall what kind of trophy was he holding. in that particular article, he wasn't embarassed admitting that he had a crush with posh spice who was a year older than him. although some people had begun mocking him as a fortune seeker, he had not backed down a little and continue dating the singer. eleven years passed from that moment and i am still a fan of david beckham and not planning to stop anytime soon. he had played for two different clubs and currently occupying as a captain in his new club LA Galaxy; his third club of course. i've seen him crying, laughing, frowning and so much more throughout his years in football but one thing i cannot erase from my memory when he was sent off from 98 WC. my father told me the incident and i was gutted to see him off. i was avoiding any newspaper in the day after, so i don't have to bother to read all those non sense headlines and able to continue with my own life. i know it was really hard for him and his family after the horrendous incident in the world cup, however as a fan nothing i could do to offer such hospitality except to support him all the way. he was lucky though to have a beautiful family and wife. together they overcame the horror and triumph those challenges.

his first memorable achievement of many was of course, to win treble with man utd. his contribution to the club had been recognized even by the manager himself. two years later he brought england to the 02 WC after slotting home a free kick that was agreed as his best moment of all. a year before that, he received an armband from peter taylor to become england captain. unfortunately, england had failed yet again to grab the title from the french and went home with their heads down. the following year, he went from the golden boy to the unwanted player. huge misunderstanding between him and the manager had led him to a tough decision. in 2003, david beckham signed for real madrid with a contract that sealed him for four years with los blancos. deep down i was 100% sure that he never had any intention to leave man utd if he hadn't been treated badly by the manager and the club.

three years without success in real madrid had made him a target from overwrought newspapers all over spain. most of them claimed he was a failure and overpaid galacticos. in the end, he proved them wrong. in his final season with real madrid, he helped his team to win the long-awaited la liga trophy. few months earlier though, former real madrid coach fabio capello had banned him from playing until his contract expire in june, so that means he could no longer be on the pitch as well as on the bench. it was started from the moment becks signing a deal with a californian club LA Galaxy. it such a pity that both the club and coach failed to see everything in order. becks wanted to stay but real madrid failed to deliver their promises. so, he had to move on as simple as that. since then, becks had never failed to attend every trainings and matches his club were having. he even made a quick stopped over in the dressing room to bid good luck for his teammates which is something noble considering his position at that time. comments and strong suggestions from real madrid teammates and of course, his dutifully trainings attendance had earned him a place in the team once again. the reinstatement paid off, real madrid won the title.

He arrived with injury and spent most of his time on the bench in his first year as Galaxy player. the next season though, he was able to conquer those injuries by playing every match he was scheduled for. the only matches he missed out were the ones that collided with his international duty schedule. however, everything hadn't been right for him as again LA Galaxy hit the bottom of the league. fragile defence and low rated players were the ones to be blamed for Galaxy's terrible performance in 08. Galaxy doesn't have rio ferdinand as their CB and certainly lacking the intelligence in CM. they have brilliant forward but everything seems worthless without the power of team work. this year,  La Galaxy slumped to the lowest yet again.

being a 33 years old player can only place him in one position, replaceable. he has been overlooked before but not as fierce as it is today. with many young players knocking heavily on the door, david beckham has no choice but to keep his match fitness in check. he can no longer be the first choice, so he has to measure himself carefully or being risked to be dropped permanently by the manager. his experience is surely the key here and armoured with it, he can rest assured that there's always a place for him in the squad. but nothing will be taken for granted. MLS season is over and england will be having  a couple of two friendly matches in the next few months. becks has no option but to stay match fit. and in order to achieve that, he is going to AC Milan on loan. the deal was to stay on the club for merely three months and play every eligible matches for the italian club. there was a rumour claiming that AC Milan were seeking for a permanent deal but it won't be a reality i pressume. it won't be easy for him as there are other talented players in the club and he is thought to be ready to fight for his place.

first premier league, and then la liga, after that he is venturing to MLS and lastly, i do hope so, serie A. it seems becks is never afraid to challenge himself more than any other players, except nicholas anelka of course. playing in different leagues has not made him a changed player. he is more of the same and probably will not be kaka or ronaldinho after playing for AC Milan. but at least, he can spend his off season with a club which is known in the entire europe for producing huge amount of talent and perhaps becks can be the next although i must admit he is a little too old to become a star player in the making. one thing for sure is to believe that he wouldn't be david beckham we know today if he hadn't been sent off in the 98 world cup. and he wouldn't have been as determined as he is today if he had not endured tough seasons in real madrid. all comes with good reasoning and only God knows why. david beckham will only get bolder and tougher because he is simply david beckham.

DC

i haven't been able to digest this reality. as hard as it seems, i may have to accept it as a fact and nothing else. woman at my age, usually holds so much of potential. and by completing a degree, she can directly send her CVs to companies interested on hiring fresh apel. while it sounds so beautiful, it really is a fantasy for myself. i am quite frustrated by this never ending issue and intending to run away from it. but come to think of it, i have nowhere to go. no matter how far i will take myself to other parts of the world, i will never strive to a success without achieving it first. i have always in tears thinking about how strange things are going and hurting my own head by putting it into perspective. no matter how hard i try, nothing is close to reality. it is a total domino effect from the beginning till the end. one bad decision led to more disastrous ones. i am tangled up and showing no sign of recovery. can anybody tell me why i am here sitting with no real answers?. the more i ask questions the heavier my head is getting. probably i will be receiving some kind of enormous pushover by some people, claiming that sitting is never the solution. it is better for me to run and chase the answers sraight from their source. unfortunately, i haven't got a clue as to where to find the source. it may be hiding under the bushes or vanishing to a wardrobe. it might be just under my nose all along without me noticing its simple feature. go ahead, tease me because i am not finshed just yet. leave me in my own state of mine and you'll see what will come out in mere seconds

amazing day

there was nothing significant happened today as i was mostly spent my sunday time at home watching some news. three bali bombers have been shot to death as to uphold the decision made last month. capital punishment is not unheard of in indonesia as there were other cases involving death penalties before, but mostly were passed out to drug dealers and not terrorists, so this would be the first death penalty for extremists. a lot of people flocked in to each bombers' houses today to pay respect for the dead and pray only good thing will be blessed to their empty souls. i am angered and disappointed with the government as why had taken so long to execute these men? more and more people are getting restless and some, anxious by the government lame reaction on this matter. these people have no understanding of quran and certainly living on their own fantasy. on what ground these people are having to claim that God will permit any such cruelty to His other creations?. God will never tolerate violence and certainly condemn genocide. He obviously states in quran that He creates human in a different race, tribes for them to know each other. it is a clear sign that God wants human to be nice to each other and strive to the best by helping one and another. let God decides what is best to human race.

please God, hear my prays. guide us from this damned sickness and come out as champions. give us clear guidelines as to right and wrong. show the wrongdoers their punishments for being God in the world by eliminating one another. i beg to You to give me answers and let the truth prevail

gruesome

i had to write it in red. it happened when i had my late supper. i saw this a very happy news from my beloved arsenal. they won the match with 2-1 scoreline. i am very much in joyous mood after hearing the news. i was unable to tune in to the match due to terrible reason, but i am happy after all. i know, it is far from over but they can start to dream of holding the title. it is not impossible to defeat mighty man utd and certainly possible to conquer other rivals. arsenal fought without their best starting XI but came away with a win and it was a joy for everyone in the stadium. samir nasri was the hero with two goals against one from man utd. losing key players doesn't make arsenal fragile, but a solid one i am sure. a lesson to learn boys, impossible is nothing. i hope i can fetch some worthy news tomorrow, ciao for now. hurray arsenal....thank you God.

a piece of mind

i do need to lay back a little after horrendous week. i don't know how it went so bad after the former week lasted so long than it had to. two days ago i went to a movie with my friend and had a chat about almost everything including our friend wedding this december. how fast she decided over the wedding plan has left us perplexed for many months. and it seems she has never failed to surprise us. it just caught to my throat without being able to come down easily. i have known her for ten years now and i guess i know nothing about her anyway or is it that i have not paid any close attention. is she ready or is she not? no one can answer the question except the Almighty God himself. this question will linger on me forever until it is served

the elected president...

had his first press conference and thought was doing well throughout the hour. when he was announced as the first african american US president, everyone was at ease. changing is on the way in USA. i personally think that most people are eagerly waiting his first mission as the president across atlantic. not only, his political decisions but also his conduct will be watched by millions of people worlwide throughout his duty as the president of USA. 8 years of torture under former president bush and i am only hoping that obama can change some of his predecessor unpopular policies and replace them with something that is acceptable in human standard. everyone was excited and hopefully, obama can uplift those hopefuls prayers until end of his term.

election is geting nearer and if God permits, next year we will have a new president to replace this one. i am fully aware that most of people in my country, including teenagers, are going to cast their votes only if they think the candidates are worth their votes. and if they can't find one, they will leave the paper blank which means they do not vote at all. don't you know that this will only leave us with one result, that is to allow incapable leader to lead us for another term. i can't accept that and certainly won't. we are the ones who will decide our future and use it wisely. our election will only begin in late october, assuming the election committee won't change their mind again, and up till that month we still have time to decide which leader who will deliever and who won't. please don't easily get trapt under some kind of 'promises' spell like we did four years ago. we do have to realize that the future of our next generation is heavily depended on this election. if we chose the wrong candidate it means we will once again be brought to a stone age time and we can afford that. vote coz it's your right and vote wisely.....

bond aftermath

i did watch quantum of solace two days ago and i found it remarkably well visualized. it started with a vengeance and ended with a consoled heart. bond found answers of questions he wanted so badly all this while and able to walk along the line once more. he had lost his love and seek answers to whatever questions his lover had painfully left behind. i love the action he endured throughout the movie and started to become a fan of james bond franchise. i had always thought no one could replace sean connery to become james bond, but i have a different point of view today. this is the second james bond movie for daniel craig and i honestly think worldwide fans had started to move on from sean connery mania. no one actually, except sean, could portray james bond as a living legend and a human at the same time as good as daniel craig does. he was hurt and clearly unsatisfied by some people suggestion to leave it all behind. soon, he embarks to his own adventure of a lifetime by shoving his enemies to the side and control the game as if it his. daniel craig has put everything right since the beginning of the movie. kicking, punching and driving like a madman just to get the ultimate answer he needed. i would have been a james bond fan if the movie had been acted the way it did since two years ago. action packed and twisting story could bring this movie to a different level from its past. before casino royale, i only saw james bond movies as other boring and distracting movie, especially whenever pierce brosnan was in it, and never had any intention whatsoever to watch it during my free time. but it is different today. daniel craig, we welcome you to our world and please don't hesitate to pen another sequel of the movie because we can't wait to see you again, in action of course.

it would have been.....

a superb weekend if i had a satellite tv, so i could watch my favorite football clubs in action this weekend. arsenal are going to meet their archest rival in premier league at home and everyone, including me, hoping that they can get through this without fail. man utd are currently third and facing enormous mission at emirates to win the match, so they can move closer to league leaders liverpool. whilst, man utd are enjoying one of their best moments in premier league history, arsenal are currently experiencing one of the worst, if not the worst, season in history. winter has yet to come and 08/09 season still far from over but i already have mountain of doubts with my arsenal.  losing from minnows and drawing away from home are not helping our season with a title. arsenal have not had a good season since patrick vieira had left arsenal few years back. i am admitting that arsenal are definitely out of shape compared to man utd today more than last season. they need a true leader not a clown who was in tears and out of control during a match a season ago. starting from that moment on, his teammates' confidence on him has been deteriorating and only going down instead of up. replace him with someone who's worth the armband could help wenger solve one of his headaches. he must be a person who has the ability to talk over so many problems in the dressing room and walk away with trophies. wenger has a lot to do this season and that including patching up the damages done by his captain. i don't know what is wrong with arsenal and i bet wenger is confused as much as i do. at the first game of this season, i had mentioned that wenger needed a strong tackler in midfield after flamini had left for AC Milan. it was even better if he could recruit somone who has all the experiences needed, it certainly doesn't have to be an aging player to meet the requirement but someone who knows the deal of his place. instead of acquiring one, he went for denilson to seek help. denilson is someone who's interested to play alongside cesc upfront instead of holding back deep on the field to shield his backline from enemie's attack. and he's clearly not good enough to guard his place from being terrorized by enemies every other time. hopefully, wenger can figure something out before it's too late. indeed, a win this weekend doesn't constitute the whole season results. in fact, it may not reflect arsenal season after all. arsenal could lose this match but won premier league title in the end. but if they won this match it could also help those players to be positive in the future matches. i hate seeing ronaldo and ferguson smug faces on tv claiming that no one can beat man utd at their best. suit yourselves silly....

bond's new mission

less than 24 hrs from now, every single cinema in this country and most asian continent will be thrilled by the latest james bond movie which i pressume will have the bigest ticket sales in james bond history. daniel craig have "bond" so well with his character and seems enjoying his role as the most lethal government agent in the world. he is ruthless, over the top but yet charming at the same time. not the kind of charm you get from a guy who works in fashion industry or some kind of businessman on the dining table. he knows what he wants and strive for it no matter how much it's going to cost his life. he loves toying with danger and able to dance  with it as if it were a never ending love affair. i can't decide which one is better, quantum of solace or casino royale until i have watched the new movie tomorrow. one thing for sure though, it will be packed with grilling action moves by Mr. Bond himself.

today's development

todays wasn't as bad as yesterday and the day before, but still i can feel anxiety seeping in for no apparent reason at all. it may be caused by our imminent trip back home which usually provoking headache even more than conducting a fashion week. nevertheless, i should be happy over other interesting news that suddenly erupts out of nowhere. my friend's wedding is around the corner and i still have some issues have yet to be resolved. retracting from hard-to-handle issue and coming to equally persistent problem. at the end of november, i will be surely pushing myself to the edge as preparing to deal with a bugging issue. anyway, i supposed to go to the mall and looking for delicious deli (sounds ridiculous) that i have been waiting for days. however, instead of whipping my ass behind the wheel, i am here stuck in front  of laptop without knowing when are we going to go. it's past 5 pm now and i am sure as hell that the city roads are jammed with cars and will take a lot of time just to get there. the usual 15 mins trip will eventually take more than half hour or maybe closing to an hour.i am afraid it may not happen at all, but one can only hope.

busy day for blogging

i don't understand why i had to endure such emotional downturn in a day. i am emotianally tired and battered. tomorrow will be a big day. so i have to be prepared for all possibilities that may come and slash me on the thoat. hope something will flourish somehow and someway. it's not possible that i would stumble upon my beloved PS2 by any chance. but even if i had found it, i still need to unravel the mistery where on earth my video games are?. confusing and depressing at the same time. after figuring out where to find those things, i may have to buy a tv to accommodate my PS2 since i am no longer controlling it now. *sigh* don't think about it, just do it. well, i guess nike has a good point on that. 

damn bad day

how can i say more? i posted earlier, today so far hasn't gone according to plan. and now, i found that arsenal were the losing side against lowly stoke city. we are currently going into a great depression. if something isn't done soon enough, we will lose everything. arsene could you please do something! sack gallas a captain and replace him with almunia or anyone else in the club who can hanlde the arm band. do it now arsene or we will be the laughing stock, or it already has.

is this a joke?

i have witnessed some of the funniest jokes ever heard on earth. they did not performed by comedians or live show hosts. instead, they are being laid out by government officials all over the world. for example, thaksin's trials. at first, he was arrested and then being allowed to bailed himself out of prison. and then, he flew to England to keep his sanity in check. without his presence, thai juduciary sentenced him up to five years jail term. how does this sound? funny to me. indeed there's a law stating that if someone is unable to attend any proceeding he still can be charged. that's what i read in the newspaper anyway. another case is involving a political analyst and he's currently enjoying his freedom while he can. he was freed a couple of days ago and was also cleared for all charges bored to him. the trial took quite a long time, which lasted for over 2 years. and the verdict came as a surprise to some people. today also according to the law, he can be re-arrested and remanded for pending appeal. therefore, he's trying so hard to hold  on to his final and most deadly weapon, a secret he kept all this time. i don't know what the secret is, but it is certainly a dangerous one. if let say he were again aqcuitted and convicted, he could have been sentenced to years in prison. it s because, they won't let him go for the second time. that's what i read from newspapers and blogs anyway.

it's funny to read all those stuff in our everyday life. people can be brought to justice and cleared of all charges anytime they please as long as they have means to do it. a wonderful dramas i presume, will be unfold not long from now. and how can i be such a fool without mentioning the most anticipated election in the world will take place less than 24 hrs. whoever takes the center stage, will not change the face of the earth. it is because they do not care to listen and painfully smirking at danger looming ahead. they know but they could care less.

another worth mentioning comments

after so many negative comments for the past few weeks, i got the chance to read some good ones. i posted 2 posts before this one and i am happy to post another ones. some people, well a lot of people actually, disbelief becks intention to have loan move to AC Milan this  winter as part of his fitness shake ups. they criticized the move and even condemned publicly that both parties are not in the advantage of anything. in fact, they are only seeking financial boosts amid global recession haunting the world of sports recently. however, after reading bruce arena's comment i became aware that MLS doesn't help becks international career especially when he's already near the end. i wonder why he didn't go to Milan and instead chose LA Galaxy some alien club in the US. soccer isn't famous in the US and not anytime soon because they won't let it eclipse their own football game. fortunately, becks arrived and it helped soccer a litle to gain a bit of attention. anyway here are those comments....(to view complete article  visit http://www.sportinglife.com/football/news/story_get.cgi?STORY_NAME=soccer/08/10/31/SOCCER_Beckham_AC_Milan.html

Speaking just hours before Beckham's move was confirmed, Capello said: "If Milan sign him they will make a great acquisition. He is a very focused lad. He is a professional." (capello made a comment during press conference)

"He needs to play at 100% and he needs to position himself to get on the field for first-team minutes."

He said: "His reasons are to stay fit and to make himself available for England, and the only way he can do that is to be training and playing in a good environment. That's his number one reason, I believe, for seeking this loan.

"This, on the part of David, was a purely technical rationale. He wants to continue to play for England and this is one of the ways to do that.

"Those marketing opportunities, he can't avoid that. Wherever he goes there are marketing opportunities and I'm certain that will occur in Italy as well. However, I strongly believe he's doing this for technical reasons.

"He wants to be in a good environment during his down time in MLS and what better environment can you have than AC Milan?" (bruce arena on becks loan move to AC Milan)

somber mood

what has possibly gone wrong? well, i have mentioned that it started from that point on and crusing to my ignited life slowly but surely. and now, i am stuck by the deluisonal decision i had made in the past and had to patch things up with the ways i haven't done before. covering every layer with suitable words of comfort that undeniably lead to another layer with some set up traps along the way. just like painting, life is what we are drawing. if it started badly it would not end the way we have always wanted. so, my painting is already ruined but it's not too late to make it beautiful. the question is, how to make it bearable and gorgeous?. it's on my hands now....

his comments

this is brief comment from the coach himself regarding becks loan move to AC Milan this winter. capello seems pleased with the move and i have a suggestion that he is totally okay with it as long as he doesn't break any rule.

"Milan has made a good acquisition," England manager Fabio Capello, who also coached Beckham at Real Madrid, said.

"In Madrid, I dropped him from the team because he signed with Los Angeles, but he continued to come and train and I put him back on the team."

courtesy of herald sun australia

i have asked myself on why raul is still the captain of real madrid? and now i have the answer. he's a good teammate and a total supportive player, even he's become a former teammate. when capello and executives of real madrid decided to freeze up becks contract negotiations, and banned him from playing for the club until the end of the season just because he had signed a deal with LA Galaxy in winter transfer window, raul and other players gave strong comments about the controversial decisions and backed him up 100%. the war paid off though, becks was again part of the team and real madrid won the league. 2 years after, he's still backing him 100%. a good motivator people say and that he is. here's what he has to say.... (courtesy of sporting life .com)

"Beckham is a great player, a great professional," said Raul in an interview with Gazzetta dello Sport.

"I think he can give Milan a lot."

Beckham's departure from Real Madrid to MLS in 2007 was a blow for Raul, who had hoped the former Manchester United man would remain with the Spanish champions.

"It was a pity to see him leave," said Raul.

The Spain international laughed off reports that Milan are following the 'galactico' policy used by Madrid during Florentino Perez's reign as club president, which involved signing one of the world's best-known players every season.

"Milan are signing people, not 'galacticos'," said Raul. "Ronaldinho and Beckham, just to mention two names, are above all two players that want to bring joy to the fans. The rest is nonsense."

rough and tough

ahead of my long-awaited holiday this december, i still have plenty of things to think of. first, will be my issues in jkt. there's only one major problem on that one, and i can't mention it here. and second, is of course, my friend's wedding next month. what on earth should i wear on that occassion? it had been awhile since my last wedding appearance and i was so little at that time. well, not that little as in a baby or anything. but, they had been different back then. more over, those weddings were mostly realtives events not friends. i had left hometown since early teenager and had not made any contact every since with my childhood friends who had probably married their boyfriends and girlfriends while i am abandoned here in this sinister world. that makes me a whole ten years without any contact with my buddies back home. i had never attend any wedding in this country and not planning to in the future, i hope. and that left me with more burden to carry on to my shoulders. clothes are the main issue here. sure, i can just grab anything from my closet or mum's, but that is so ridiculous. this wedding is to one of my closest friend and i can't just put on anything in sight, it's plain dangerous for me and the family. it's total outrageous and unacceptable. i have to decide what to wear and then i can move on to next level, which is shoes. up one level is hair issue. i can't tie up my hair in whatever pose i want to. i need to stamp some dignity with my look and it definitely doesn't look good if i just let it loose. last but the most important things is, make up. i rarely, well it is seldom to be exact, wear any kind of make up and that includes mascara. i hate to put on mascara is simply because of my eyelashes. they are so pointed and i can't make them steady no matter how hard i try. they have always found a way to enter my dazzling eyes (this is totally overrated) and make them suffer for days. mascara is to be applied on the outside only, and strongly suggested to apply hair gel first before starting to use mascara. so, in any case an eyelash is hovering and jab your eyes on the inside, you are heavenly safe from poisoning. here it goes again, another hallucination comes into play. anyway, make up, clothes, hair style, and lastly shoes are supposed to go hand in hand. i have to make sure everything goes well and in accordance with the wedding theme. *sigh* what do i have to do? it's less than 2 months already and i still haven't figured out this deal. God send me your angel....

sloppy headlines

well, if this morning was not worse enough, i had to read headlines pinching becks move to AC Milan and other things that he does in everyday life. and now, i understand that hamilton had won his first champion in F1 racing. i dislike him since he had won few races in the early 2008. he become so cocky thinking he can eclipse everyone's past records, including michael schumacher's. and then, coming with so much controversial headlines regarding his reckless driving and cost raikkonen his place in a race few weeks back. what on earth was he thinking?. that stupidity made him lost points as the ruling body decided he was indeed driving with so much passion and lost his composure. and not a long ago, he was also involved with raikkonen's partner in ferrari, felipe massa, and nearly made another history by cut him out of his way. after the race he denied everything everyone accussed to him. well, that tiny man is certainly knows how to evade heavy questions. i have not heard a single sorry from the man to his rivals after the incidents and i do feel sorry for ferrari. they nearly had it but in the final minutes, they had failed miserably. maybe they can nail it next year and beat the hell out of other cocky drivers. anyway, the-used-to-be-the-youngest-race-driver-to-win F1 title has gone along the way. alonso failed to make his existence known by not winning the title like he did two years ago. what had been written about alonso were indeed beautiful and promising.  two years from then, he was a sitting duck in his own world. his luck had run out.

more grave news

another day reading so much controversy regarding becks pending move to AC Milan. as much as i would cherish the idea, i have doubts too lingering my thoughts. i knew his teammates wouldn't agree with his decision especially when they need to finish off their horrid season with a win. he will be stamped as selfish hollywood star. acting like an A list star to get his wishes in a single clap of hands whenever he pleases. that is, i believe the exact thoughts of his LA Galaxy teammates. they can't help but moaning becks decision to announce his temporary move to AC Milan in the midst of urgency. well, i agree with the bad timing. he could have annonced it after galaxy's final match and not before it. but i guess he wants to seal the deal as swiftly as possible in order to make things easier during winter transfer. the galaxy officials have claimed that their tour to New Zealand will still be underway, although becks may have signed a loan deal with the italian giant before the tour itself. but i am not sure whether his teammates will still have some respect left to his captain considering his shocking loan move to italy. although he will be back for the new season with LA Galaxy, some people have begun questioning his attitude toward his club and teammates.

i can't entirely blame him for wanting to keep fit during off season, but he should have picked the right moment instead of breaking people's trust. i don't know how the fans are going to react after his unofficial announcement in his website. i have yet to hear from them sounding their disappoinment. becks only sin was to announce his intention while the season still underway. there are ways to keep him on the frame of capello's plan and joining AC Milan is one of them. if he wants to stay fit by joining a european club, let him be. i hope he gets something out of this and once again, prove them wrong. he may be 33 years old but he isn't dying yet. the determination and fire still buring inside his tatooed body. in fact, he may triumph this test ahead of everybody. let's wait and see, although i can't barely wait anymore.

good old former teammate, cannavaro

my sister is fascinated with fabio cannavaro since he had joined real madrid some time ago. i don't know why she fancies him so much. and now i know the reason. he's a good teammate and a person. i know from the way he mingles with his teammates everyday in training, including those times when becks spent his four years with real madrid. here it is, an article summing up his comment on becks temporary move to AC Milan. i hope you enjoy the article as much as i do.

Canna Sanctions Becks' Move

England ace David Beckham looks set to join Milan on a loan deal in January and Italy captain Fabio Cannavaro believes Adriano Galliani has pulled off a major coup.

Even though it is not official yet, the Spice Boy is expected to land in Italy's fashion capital once the Calciomercato doors reopen in the New Year.

And while the Rossoneri camp has reacted positively to the move, most pundits in the peninsula are puzzled and muse that marketing reasons inevitably influenced the decision.

"I do not agree," Cannavaro told the Gazzetta dello Sport. "Regardless of the sarcasm of Spanish newspapers, I am sure Milan will greatly benefit from it.

"I am not talking about just economic advantages, he will also be able to give his contribution on the field of play. He is certainly a big star, but the city of Milan is accustomed to having such important figures.

"However, David is incredible. I remember a trip to Sevilla, we travelled by train and when we got to the station, hordes of teenage girls rushed towards him. I had never witnessed such enthusiasm for a footballer, not even around Diego Armando Maradona in Naples."

Cannavaro joined Becks at Real Madrid after the Calciopoli scandal, and the Merengues won the title in the 2006-07 season under the guidance of Fabio Capello.

"When Capello opted to take him back into the squad in February, he contributed a great deal and I would say that at least 80 per cent of our triumph was down to him.

"And I also grew to appreciate him off the pitch, as he was a devoted father who tried to spend as much time as possible with his kids. He seemed Italian!"

Vince Masiello

courtesy of goal.com

ordinary

not much for today. i don't know about tomorrow since no one can predict the future. i am thinking about the stuff that i had left out in the old apartment few months ago. but it's not there now. they are currently being held in the apartment of my old landlord. i can't have my PS2 in my room and i hate it. i feel completely sad and outraged but i can't do anything presently. i was thinking of buying new console but i know it would only be a waste of money since i already have one. it's an old generation of PS2 but still, it's my own and i bought it with my pocket money. rather than buying new PS2 it'd be good idea if i spend my dime purchasing wii. it doesn't cost as much as PS3 but it does have cool video games, including my favorite game rayman and raving rabbits which is hot on sale. unfortunately, it will cost more than new PS2 and it's not a good news. anyway, i have my mind roaming freely to korea and reaches domiyo easily. it stops in front of a booth that sells an old camera, SLR to be exact. my mind refuses to hold back and come dashing forward trying to grab it from the man who sells it. pity me, he realizes my coming and as quickly as he could stumble forward protecting his possesion. it's too late i guess to make another attempt as he now clutches the camera tightly against his chest. well, i guess  i have to buy it from  him. if i let my thoughts walk freely on the pavement, i will certainly come accross a good view. but if i choose to chain it, only holes and stinging smell dominating my world.  

doing what i can

i am desperately holding back the urge to dash to korea. i am so in love with the country and its life. many thanks to God whom had been given me a chance to  know a little bit better about the country. when the time comes i will surely welcome any invitation to visit the country once again.

packed with....

today was the busiest day regarding david beckham potential move to AC Milan. although it has yet to be official, everyone has already made it a reality. it was first announced by AC Milan officials a couple of days ago about becks interest to join them to be part of their team to enable him keep his fitness sharp during off season in the US. however, winter training has become winter transfer for him. i believe, he had no intention to go anywhere this winter but to train with the italian team just like he did last year with arsenal. however, things started to change when fabio capello was weighing to opt him off the squad. this is because of his play time. MLS will only resume in the month of april or may and capello insists to have his squad ready for friendly against spain in february 2009. the fact that MLS is off season during the friendly games doesn't help poor becks to get his bid successfully. i guess this is the main reason he wants to be part of AC Milan team during the off season so he can get match time he wants. unfortunately, AC Milan have already stuffed some star players into their squad including ronaldinho, shevchenko and pato. they don't include some old players who possibly would be irritated to be replaced by some player from the west. i can't imagine which position he will be held on the field considering massive midfield surplus in the squad. clerence seedorf and kaka are definitely out of touch. i am not sure about ambrossini and pirlo. both of them are looking out of shape these days and could be bound to sit on the bench. well, i hope he can have ample time to catch with other young england players. i really hope...

becks reaching for another history

Beckham set to equal Moore caps

Fabio Capello has hinted David Beckham will equal World Cup-winning captain Bobby Moore's 108-cap tally by starting next month's friendly against Germany.

Beckham, 33, has failed to start any of England's last four competitive games.

And the LA Galaxy midfielder has been criticised by some for picking up 'cheap' caps for his country.

But the England manager said: "Beckham might have played five minutes against Belarus but, for the next game, it is possible he might play all the game."

Beckham overtook Sir Bobby Charlton's tally of 106 caps when he came on as a substitute in the closing stages against Belarus on Wednesday.

Capello maintains the former England captain still has a role to play in the England set-up for the foreseeable future, although he may not pick the midfielder for February's friendly with Spain as it would be the close season in the MLS.

"For the game against Spain, if he is not playing, he will not be in the squad," Capello explained.

"He is good for the group. This is important. In fact, this is very important - his influence.

"He knows everything. He transmits confidence in the other players. This is very important for the group.

"I have to choose the first XI and at the moment I choose Theo Walcott and Shaun Wright-Phillips who are playing well."

The former Real Madrid boss added that he did not know how many caps Beckham had accumulated, saying: "For me, it is not interesting to record everything.

"It is not in my mind. My mind is the victory, the game, the best 11. I don't think about it.

"Does Beckham deserve to be in the company of Charlton and Moore? I don't know. I don't know how many games they played."

courtesy of BBC

it's good to hear positive comments from the manager as it will bring up becks confidence. anyway, i think i know becks reason for applying as new recruit in AC Milan. he's after a position in england squad even if he had to sit down on the bench. well, let's wait and see ho well he copes with the controversy circulating his move.

caps for becks

he already passed bobby charlton's record and going after peter shilton's. one more game he will equal bobby moore's achivement. with current 107 caps under his belt, many suggested that they are not worth looking at. they claimed that all those caps mean nothing to english football history as few of them were "given not by merit" but by luck. they also suggested that becks is lucky to know fabio cepello, current england manager, well before other players do, so that he can "plant" some sort of relationship with the manager. o how awful it sounds to me and espcially to david beckham who is currently battling his luck in MLS. 2 seasons with no titles is well reminded him of his first period in real madrid. despite so much hype with his arrival, LA Galaxy have yet to qualify for play off not even close to grab any title these two seasons. but it wasn't becks fault, not even a speck. one player cannot change a destiny of a club. one man saving the world only happens in hollywood movies, ladies and gents. look at real madrid few years ago and we clearly understand the big picture. back to topic. it seems shilton is reluctant to give away his long-held title to anyone else, especially david beckham. some say capello gave becks "easy" caps and waste his talent altogether. well, i am quite disagree with them as becks is working really hard to get his fitness up to higher level. if capello decided to play walcott instead becks, i am sure it was all down to technical decisions. theo has more speed and agility compared to becks and he's young too. on the other hand, becks is well equipped with his experience and dead ball ability. so, the two players are actually ahead of one another and it obviously complicates capello's situation a little bit more. but i guess he'll prefer someone who can take up 2 or 3 defenders at once and the answer would be theo walcott. it is very unfortunate for becks to have sit on the bench watching other player take his usual place and can't do anything about it. there are 3 young players fully prepared to take his place once and for all. they are david bentley, shaun wright phillips and theo walcott. all of them acquired to what the manager desired which is agility. but becks isn't someone who easily gives up on anythng. he is ready to prove to the manager and fans all around the world that he can still do it. 107 caps or not, he is only just begun. pages after pages of his life have been flipped over and as his involvement in england remains to be seen, he's already made us surprised once more by announcing potential move to AC Milan, but that's a different story. i'm anxiously waiting for his next move. probably donning AC Milan jersey next year? who knows

milan goin ga ga

a very interesting article and worth publishing (thanks to goal.com). enjoy....

Beckham-Mania Grips Milan
Beckham-mania has hit Milan after the club's ticket line, switchboard and website went down on Thursday morning following the news of David Beckham's January arrival...

There were also requests for when club jerseys with the players name and number will be released and fans are already in the Italian city having 'Beckham' printed on their shirts.

Reports around the peninsula also suggest that the demand in tickets at the club has increased ahead of the midfielder's arrival.

The Englishman is expected to join the club in the new year on a four month loan deal.

Meanwhile, Milan are in Holland as they prepare for the clash against Heerenveen later tonight.

Andriy Shevchenko and Filippo Inzaghi should start up front and Clarence Seedorf will take Mathieu Flamini's place in midfield.

Salvatore Landolina

rumours surrounding becks potential move to AC Milan

i have been wondering whether becks move to Milan is actually a reality or fantasy. today some newspapers have already printed news regarding his shocking move, but with a little more details. the proposal is to loan becks from LA Galaxy to AC Milan for four months while his teammates in galaxy enjoying their off season holiday. anyway, milan fans have been strucked with excitement and already flock in to the capital asking whether becks is really arriving. some of them are also inquiring if his shirts are already on sale. this is, of course, a very good news for AC Milan as they are currently battling for financial issue. with becks arriving it could pump lump sum cash into the club and gaining as a "galactico" in europe. i am not sure with becks intention though. he's still struggling to help galaxy win any title for 2 years and i don't see how he can lift up soccer status in US amid his presence off the field. becks is not a saviour, that's for sure. if galaxy want to succeed, the club should hire the right coach and effective players to make LA Galaxy a winning team. brought in becks would not instantly make a club flying high and certainly not a champion of every titles. will it help becks to shy away critics lashing his aging performance? i am not sure. i heard from a news last night that it was capello who had made the suggestion to enable him be more competitive ahead of other boys in the squad. i don't think this was the case though. becks has his mind made up because he has reasons of his own. when he decided to move to LA Galaxy, i was a bit down and frustrated. he should have gone to other european clubs instead of losing his way to MLS. somehow, i knew this would happen. most of coaches in europe have so much doubt about MLS standard which they claim as lower than any european countries well, they could be right but not always. ruud gullit seems to share same sentiment as i do as he says that some of the clubs deserve a little bit more respect because of their achivement. while other MLS clubs enjoying flourish seasons, LA Galxy suffered a lot and lost their place to grab play off as they did last season. and becks is down with them as well. to add salt on his wound, capello only made him as substitute in all world cup qualifying matches. failure after failure shakes him hard. but it doesn't make him softer as people would expect it. he'll only be edgier and stronger in the future. he's been through the worse and i am sure he'll take no notice of silly jokes people throw him over his move to Milan and he will eventually come on top. the more people knock him the harder he pushes them. that's the kind of person he is. good luck becks, the fans will always be with you.

back on track

hey the almost forgotten blog, it's me again. since i have my own spaces account, i neclected this and handed it over to my sist who's better at blogging x) but i'm renovating this blog coz it's lame and needed more changes so i will definitely lingering around here somewhere hohoho

definitely more to share in th next few days.

love u bloggers..

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closing in

i will be soon departed from this country and join my longing to hold pain in the ass problems back home. isn't that a wonderful reunion? well, not in million times. so be it. i don't know what's going to happen and i'm tired of guessing. let God decides what is best for my own sake. answer my prays....

david beckham received the loudest cheers

i think it was the most loudest crowd in history of wembley, well almost. when becks coming on to replace theo walcott, the crowd cheered hearing becks name was announced. it was nice though as i have not heard his news for days. the crowd loved him and i did too. he paid back the enourmous greeting by giving them something to cheer about. he set wayne rooney's second goal of the night. he may have played for less than 20 mins but he had proven that he could still play part in the national team. as a fan, i am proud to what he'd done to his country. he is a true patriot by not letting criticism brings him down. go becks!!!

In the 77^th minute of the game striker Wayne Rooney scored, giving England fans something to cheer about again. However, the biggest cheer of the night came in the two minutes later when David Beckham took the field, replacing Theo Walcott. Beckham’s mere presence seemed to breathe confidence into the rest of the team. The LA Galaxy star’s quality and accuracy of crossing that created numerous opportunities for the England forwards. Rooney scored again in the 86^th minute and was given a well-deserved rest made way for Jermain Defoe who became the third and final substitute. Defoe netted probably the best goal of the night within his first 4 minutes of play, rounding off a 5-1 score line which flattered the overall 90 minute performance of the England team.

courtesy of harvard crimson

 

do the best

what's human? if we ask ourself what's the meaning of human we may not know the real reason we are living on earth at first place. only God knows everything there needs to know. will we be able to comprehend the meaningful life God has enriched us beyond our intelligence. well, not even the great scientist, albert einstein understood His mercy upon us during his eventful life. i guess we have to wait until what they call judgement day.

open up options

weighing up options that neither would take me anywhere but here. each of them would likely to banish me from human existence. i am not kidding, my credibilty is at stake here and i have no choice apart to blend in with rambo soul and combat.

beginning of an end or otherwise?

soon i will depart from this newly acquinted country and fly out to my accustomed neighbourhood. whatever i lay down to sleep i only find one thing to think of. and it all began with one silly decision to let it happened. whatever i did in the past has everything to do with i am experiencing at present. i will have to take the huge responsibility out of his shoulders and carry it whenever i am alive. one single thought perched on me last night and refused to leave me alone. will i be able to walk along the line? someday and i do hope it'll happen this very minute. i am forgetting my nature and stray outside the law. will i be forgiven when i had been given a chance i decided to look other way. God please forgive your humble servant. help me with this pilling up troubles to go away soon. pray for the best. one will only triumph after long winding terrifying road. take me there to the point of which human is free, so help me God.

ay ya ay ya

i finally found the title! it's called resident evil degeneration. after months of digging up information from yahoo to gamespot, finally i got the name of the movie. however, i still do not know when it will be released. some say it won't be in the theaters but only be available in DVDs or blu ray. well, i am not sure about it but i hope they will have it on DVD or in cinemas. if not, i just die...well that's too much. anyway,  i get to watch trailers of it, here it goes...

resident evil degeneration

one drop of water in the middle of the desert

reading so many negative news makes me sick and decided to put them away. anyway, i came across this good article concerning becks national career. to be honest i rarely read positive news about becks both on and off the field. when he fails people are eager to write on the wall of sins, but if he champions little effort is made to recognise his triumph. i guess this article is one of a kind. enjoy then....

Time they called him Sir David Beckham

On Sunday Fabio Capello will announce England’s squad for their World Cup qualifiers against Kazakhstan and Belarus. David Beckham is likely to make the list.

But I don’t want to wake up the day when there will be no Beckham in any such lists. When he’ll have packed the jersey and the boots in the trunk. When he’ll have played his farewell game in front of thousands of cheering fans.

I only hope his farewell game is at Old Trafford or Wembley and not at the Home Depot Centre in California. Beckham deserves that honour. To turn out for his last game at either of these great English stadiums and lauded for his contribution to football.
And not to end his career in front of a crowd of Hollywood A-listers, who’ll pay more attention to the colour he’s dyed his hair.

His iconic powers, good looks aside, I proudly admit to being a huge fan of him, the footballer.

This admission has often raised eyebrows, and resulted in an expulsion from the club of serious football enthusiasts.

For Becks can’t float like Zinedine Zidane, wasn’t blessed with the abilities of Maradona. He is too weak to win a tackle, too clumsy to dance down the pitch and score a goal. He just isn’t a great footballer.

But he is the greatest ‘hit-me’ doll ever made. The harder he was punched, the stronger he came back. In the 1998 World Cup, England’s ouster by Argentina was largely blamed on Beckham, who got himself sent off after kicking Diego Simeone. There was a nationwide hate campaign against him, effigies burnt and even death threats. He took it all and came back to win the treble with Manchester United in the very next season. He trained himself to become the greatest player in the dead-ball situation. Not many can still match his accuracy.

In his over-a-decade-long career, Beckham has taken it all — the hatred, vilification and jeers. He has now played 105 international games and scored 17 goals. That’s surely an over-achievement for someone of his talent and I only have admiration for such a spirit.

But, he has also received tremendous love, from people world over. (Here’s an extreme example — ‘a fan was reported to have licked every toilet seat she could access at a famous hotel in hopes of tasting one he had used’). He’s made his millions posing for the cameras, endorsing even underwear, has married a pop star, and is best friends with Tom Cruise.

He is now 33 years old and it seems, has realised that he has more to do for the game off the field than on it. He is willing to step aside and make way for Theo Walcott, if it means England can win the match. He is eager to work with various world bodies in promoting the game. The FA has benefited from his popularity.

Isn’t it fair then that we place Beckham in the same pantheon as the greatest of the game — if not for his skill, then for his impact? And it’s high time we called him ‘Sir David Beckham’

bitter weekend, well almost...

i heard a lot of bad news regarding la galaxy's achievement in recent weeks. they have. once again slumped even further to bottom league. well, to be fair it all depends on the overall performance of the team itself, not one particular player. david beckham is largely blamed for the lost games la galaxy have endured in the past months. it's not fair to justify la galaxy performance based solely on his chart alone. la galaxy must build their battered confidence to win remaining matches of the season and hope for the best that top groups slip to enable galaxy go for their play off. only miracle can save la galaxy from slipping even further to the ground. and to make it worse, arsenal were also failed to get full three points after drawing against sunderland. i didn't watch the game and to be honest i am grateful for it. other top clubs earned their win this weekend to make even greater gap between arsenal and number one group, chelsea. what a nightmare for me, could it be any harder? i hope there will be no more saddening news, or i'll go mad. is this a sign?. other teams can triumph after embarassing early goals, why can't arsenal and la galaxy do the same?. and why did i have to watch these maddening matches. i even watched ronaldo scored winning goal for man utd and saw arsenal lost. well, what a life. it drives me crazy to actually experiencing mental breakdown after watching my team lost to any team.

at least, i found a lot of cute accessories today and hopefully i can go to the place once again some time soon. i'll be leaving next week and i am hugely disappointed to learn that i can only come to this country at the end of this year. that can happen if dad wants us to come. i hope we'll stick to our commitment and not changing to other negative options. anyway, i bought so many stuff that i will not mention them one by one in this blog coz it seems unfair to tell you without giving a single thing to you. well, sorry to say i am happy to let you know that i'm not finished.